It seemed like an ordinary day in July, 2023. Holding his three-month-old infant son, Clayton Jacobs and his partner were engaged in a routine visit with Rachel Eddie, a social worker with guardian ad litem alison Jensen’s office. Rachel’s job is to protect children, and she and Alison work together to help kids at risk where a family is concerned. Alison is a lawyer, and she represents Malcolm Jacobs, and when he was three months old, it seemed that during this day, Clayton Jacobs, his father, was in his element. He sat there, possibly just visiting with Rachel. She and Guadalupe Project representatives Sera Treston and Sarah Stark had a handful of a case to deal with. When asked about parenting planning, Jacobs spoke up that he wanted his infant son to”from 7:00 AM to 7:00 PM” much to the chagrin of the child’s mother. The professionals weren’t buying it. Then, Rachel left. Jacobs and his partner began talking, seemingly an ordinary conversation filled the room, that is until Jacobs spoke up, “You’re not getting back your WIC card. You lost it once, that’s quite enough.” The partner spoke up, “Do you know what the W in WIC stands for? Instead of acknowledging the reality of the WIC program, a supplemental nutrition program aimed at women, infants and children, Jacobs spoke again, “Your neo-feminist tricks do not work on me.” The rets of the next thirty minutes were a blur. Jacobs became escalated, and his partner asked him to leave, but he demanded, “Not without my son.” This was followed up by the partner rushing into her three month old son’s room, closing the door, but jacobs entered and attempted to drag her back, but the assault happened so fast she recalls only two times but they were highlights. She tried to fight back, but then she recalls Jacobs placing his hands up toward her neck, then seemingly putting her in a chokehold. For two seconds, she thought she was going to die. She was lifted off the floor a couple of inches, but the last thing she remembers was Jacobs shoving her face down on the carpet, leaving her with an abrasion on her upper lip. This was later photographed, but she could not have charged Jacobs with this assault. Sadly she and jacobs were found responsible for the abuse of a child, “interfamilial neglect” was how the paper worded it. This sadly was strongly linked to some online radicalization. Jacobs would later write on an X post dated August 26 using the username @eqmusicofficial “My baby mama wants all the smoke, so as far as I am concerned, she can get it. I have had enough of her raggedy ass running my name through the mud. I bent over backwards for this woman, who is mentally deranged and a disciplinary problem, to say the least. I can’t wait to here my dear her ass like Marvin Gaye.” This post was the most derogatory he’d written about his partner. This contains rhetoric strongly linked to misogynist jason Black, owner of YouTube channels supposedly promoting healthy relationship dynamics, or not.
I was Mr. Jacobs’s partner, but the horrible thing was that since that derogatory post was written about me, Clayton has gone on to block all my socials, instagram, X, Tiktok, and denies me access to everything of his so much that I’d like to see him take his anger management seriously. Our son Malcolm is now eleven months old, a huge bundle of energy and so much love, he does not need to be taught that women, including his own mother, who don’t know how to bake a cake are worthless. Clayton has used multiple avenues to hurt me, including manipulating all my friends, Trenton Matthews included, into taking away a cell phone and the number in it, now it’s an AT&T number owned by someone else, I can’t get it back. Trenton tried to also side with Clayton when he tried to pose a sob story about how using a taser on me for not paying rent is permissible because in his words, “She could have made us all homeless, and we could have all been dead.” However, it is known that violence is not the way to solve problems, and I honestly hope that anyone who says otherwise will realize the psychological impact is costly. you will have to drive your children to therapy sessions, and you will as a nonabusive parent have to contend with manipulations by an abuser. clayton has also questioned every single professional watching Malcolm and trying to protect his interests, and at one point attempted to shift parenting responsibilities to Clayton on a primary basis, but I knew this was a bad move. I had to plead for this to be stopped because all of the reasoning had to do with questioning mental health and stability. However, abuse of the magnitude Clayton did had an impact on my mental health, and the professionals saw right through Clayton’s foolish behavior. He attempted to state that I was noncompliant with my deferred judgment, a contract specifying each parent who signs it to undergo treatment plans tailored to their needs, by stating I withheld the baby when he had done so on October 21, 2023, claiming I was unsafe. He has made repeated statements about me being a safety concern. He has also tried to manipulate the courts into believing his sob story about disregulation and total instability after an incident on February 4, 2024 in which Malcolm fell off a changing table at an IHOP, then a ticket was issued by Lakewood Police in Jefferson County for child abuse. This ticket became a sad and failed opportunity for Clayton to plead with the judge for full or sole control of Malcolm’s living arrangements. Abusers like Clayton use things like tickets for child abuse and every small thing they can about their victims to attack them. He did so in a court of law, but the judge, the Honorable Judge Laurie clark, acted against this. She saw right through Jacobs’s foolishness and said clearly he must be kind and understanding, but his response to the diaper changing table incident left me no choice but to do two things. First, I thought about committing suicide, leaving Malcolm far away and safe with someone who would tell him that his mother loved him and did what she had to do to protect him from the abusive whims of his father. But that wasn’t a possibility, so I resorted to writing really frustrated texts to a buddy of mine, Jennifer Cleverly, who later filed a police report with Denver Department of Public Safety but the report was tossed. Clay demanded I be prosecuted, and in follow up conversations I strongly recall him gleefully looking forward to my arrest, which in his mind should have been guaranteed, his safety being priority over my own. The judge, however, ripped him a new one. While he interrupted her speeches, she kept on saying, pressing, “Mr. Jacobs, Mr. Jacobs,” and rightly so. But she made another point too. His behavior, she stated, was unacceptable, and she posed a good question, “Are you going to act this way when something doesn’t go your way at your son’s school or daycare?” I was wowed by her tenacity in the face of this patriarchal show of hatred. But the last statement he made about this woman, I have to record here for posterity, and I beg of my beautiful son Malcolm never ever to utter such a statement to someone with J.D. or other government responsibilities of any kind, and yes, females in all professions, and he sid: “You’re a piece of shit for a judge, do you know that?”
This man sadly was probably likely radicalized on “Father’s rights” and “men’s rights” pages. On closer study of his former twitter and X posts, Clayton, under the username eqmusicoficial and the Blind Savage among others, extolled virtues and values that scream safety concern. His postings speak of a man troubled by women and their progress in society. I’ve heard him spout this off at a doctor’s appointment, at home, and in public settings and with female professionals. He used his unsafe male authority to fire Sarah Stark, a social worker with the Guadalupe Project, and thus thereafter the organization closed Clayton’s case. Sera Treston made the right move, and I stand by it.
Under other usernames, including Blind Guerrilla, Esoteric Quality and Clayton’s Music, this man has been trying to paint women as liars, painted me as an incompetent parent even though a mediator told us clearly we made this baby so let’s work together, the mediation failed. But where is it all originating? How did it all begin?
the answer is that Clayton Jacobs comes from a very dysfunctional and abusive family. He tells of a mother, Stacia clarke, having family dynamics that did not favor Clayton’s own personal safety as a child. Clayton recalls growing up with a violent brother, Justin, who would scare him to the point where young Clayton would have to sleep with a blade beside him in case Justin should attack. Justin Jacobs has since been incarcerated for myriad crimes involving minors and sex trafficking and other things I am probably not privy to. Clayton also had a small dose of jail life when he assaulted his first wife, a woman in her fifties and later her sixties named Kimberley. HEr daughter Christina was Clay’s friend from school, but how she became Clay’s stepdaughter I’ll never get. Kimberley was said to not be that smart, but her injuries necessitated a restraining order for Clay, but he was let off on unsupervised probation. I’m not counting on this another time.
For wife number two, Clayton was hopeful when his daughter, Vivian Rae, was born on June 15, 2015, but in 2016, courts in Iowa removed Clayton from full custodial consideration. I am now grappling with why. Clayton has never been forthcoming with what actually led the Iowa courts to make such a decision. It had to be that Vivian had been either physically or sexually abused, and usually in welfare cases and divorce settlements, children’s safety is strongly considered. Roxelle (Roxie) Miller Jacobs, Vivian’s custodial parent, was painted as someone who ddid not want a girl. I don’t know how this could be true, as all c children are precious. I do believe though that Clay was not forthcoming enough with me about his past abuse of either his last ex wife or his child or both. This is particularly troubling.
After Clayton lost custody rights to Vivian, there had to have been a path to him becoming a radical masculine rights advocate. I saw posts detailing his support for R. kelly, one of the news clippings where the victims testified had a statement that read, “Fuck the victims, they are liars.” On a charity where Andrew Tate wants to assist in helping men’s lives ruined by liars about rape, Clay says, “this bullshit needs to stop.” Such statements scream male supremacy, which does set off alarm bells with professionals, and sadly I have been questioned about my own mental health and stability to. I had to have said that parenting restrictions for me would only enable Clayton to run and say, “see? Beth is an unfit mother and a lunatic.” He has made many statements about mentally ill people, but this is not his fault. But his brother Justin had to be held accountable for his actions.
The Jacobs family sadly not only has instability on the men, but there are women too who are not acting in anybody’s best interests. stacia Clarke herself is enabling her son’s abuse, and when I have made frequent pleas for her to understand and show support for me, appealing to her own victim status as well, she simply said I wasn’t doing my job. she sided with Clayton, and without being right there in Colorado, she’s bound to do that. However, Stacia also must consider that her son’s abuse is never justified. He justified his abuse even recently, stating that I contribute nothing to his “household”. However, relationships in truth should always be about mutual respect, love and kindness. Understanding and all the rest play a key role in making a relationship solid and healthy. However, Clay’s response was a disparagement of the instructors of any class teaching this. “The classess were taught by women.” However, such things are based on data gleaned by both men and women, and the mutual respect and empathy principles are evidence based, backed by science, and always work. My poor son Malcolm also has to face manipulated individuals, Clayton’s other victims. Christine fogel, a neighbor in a nearby unit on Clayton’s building floor, verbally abused me in a parking lot. Trenton Matthews, my ex, lives now on floor 9, but away from me, having cut me off from having a phone number, used his ownership of a T Mobile phone plan and did not bother to help me stay safe. Instead, he also took all my gadgets, iPad included, and disciplined me by removing my use of data on his own iPad mini. He was outraged, but I hope someday he will recognize his manipulated state of mind. He now joins forces with denizens of the online blindness community, including people who would rather spend their time trashing me. I have heard Trenton and his unsafe friendships are a thing, and a longtime friend has recently added me back to facebook, I didn’t know this, but I told him that it wasn’t about me. Clayton clearly uses others to manipulate them to his side.
Blake Tucker also got ire from his own mother, Kathy Babcock, from all this. She wants him to be “done with her”, me, and would rather Blake be with Jennifer cleverly, who received texts from me because of Clayton’s behavior, it just seemed like I was being attacked at every opportunity.
Clayton sadly will only go down a radical path, and we as a community must stand with me and not clayton to get us both safe. Malcolm and I deserve the support of professionals and family, but we can’t get genuine support here in the West Denver area, so we’re probably going to pack our bags and move to Littleton, a town eight miles south. However, Littleton might offer good deals on things, and broadband internet will have to be considered a utility, not a want or luxury. Malcolm will need the security a camera on my front door would offer. I might get a Simply safe security code. I do want Clay to have a code, but if he does not get his anger together, I might never let him in my house.
People of this world should know what online radicalization does to our young men and boys. I fear if my boy is not properly educated about these comunities, commonly known as the manosphere, he will fall prey to their recruitment ploys. MGTOW, for example, call women liars and vipers while promoting celibacy for all men “going their own way.” MRA movements, men’s rights activists, promote fathers getting priority custody even in cases of a newborn baby needing a mother’s touch. Incels and pickup artists hail as the most violent groups. It was an incel group member, Eliot Roger, who stormed a California college sorority and killed six women, and left a chilling manifesto about his vehement hatred of women, his entitlement to sex and how he’d impose such on the women he hated. It is MRA groups that inspired my own partner, Clayton Jacobs, even from the beginning of a wonderful friendship, to consider the “father’s Rights” movements as his home. Because he lost a custody case with his own daughter, now Clayton feels supercharged to join the Father’s Rights Movement as I saw on his now defunct Facebook pages. Clayton jacobs is in trouble, and so are our boys and young men, oftentimes not being educated in healthy masculinity. Clayton said when confronted about toxic masculinity, “That’s disrespectful to men.” Sadly, it is the opposite. By acknowledging toxic masculinity, Clayton would be actually showing respect, also much love, to his begotten son. I can’t imagine my little baby not saying he loved his mother, he has such happiness when we are together. clay too, but Malcolm in the long run should be learning healthy ways to relate to peers. He needs friends like all kids, but he needs parental figures who can foster his curiosity and help him form bonds, and he’s no different than other kids, blind parents be damned. But I implore Clayton to please take your anger management seriously.
While I do care for clayton, I loved his dark humor, his sexual weirdness, his funny preferences for Seth Rogan films, and his love of The Wolf of Wall St movie with Leonardo Dicaprio, and he enjoyed quoting line after line from that movie. I had favorite lines too, and he and I would joke about those lines. But what kills me most is his disdain for my safety and respect due to his vision of a society built around the household, but it almost aligns with Atwood’s gilead families, blue cloaked wives submitting to husbands by being illiterate and playing with petty point and embroidery, a red cloaked handmaid that would bear his children on demand, be raped by him during a biblical ceremony, her name changed to “ofClayton” to denote she belongs to him, her body is a utility. Dull green Marthas to cook and clean for him, and meanwhile Commander Jacobs is on top, dressed in black, and he has the authority to force somebody to get pregnant, or worse, have a Martha’s eye cut out. Clayton would be able to demand pleasure from anyone he asked for, and his wife could even be way under sixteen years of age. I reminded him of this in some text exchanges, he tried to hide them, but for me, the memory stays within.
Our communities must show our boys and men that love does not mean pain. Respect does not require abuse. If your partner can’t pay the rent, and if she spends weeks crying and wishing you would be more comforting, ask yourself why. Clayton never did. He abandoned me three months into having impregnated me, and now he must live with the consequences. He has made manipulative statements suggesting I should have given Malcolm fully to him and never raised him. However, such statements are manipulations. Abusive men like clayton won’t let Malcolm reach out to me, not on his watch, and that’s contradictory to what he said. He said he would have let him reach out, but I know better. Malcolm must have me as his mother, but his father’s vision of relationships and family dynamics are so unhealthy, yet he still believes Katherine Johnson, a hidden black figure in aerospace engineering, is revolutionary. yes, then why does this not apply to those in your personal life? Women are an untapped many, and we intend to seek justice for our children and our families.
But for Clayton, I will close with this. please distance yourself from harmful thinking. Put away R. Kelly and his lies, and never even touch Andrew Tate and his lies. find some other YouTuber to subscribe to, not Jason Black. I was never a disciplinary problem, and the derogatory postings you wrote about me are just horrible. I have a right to have something in place for Malcolm so he doesn’t get confused. I didn’t deserve abuse, whether I said something about you or did not pay rent. Frankly you should be supporting me, not a radical behemoth like those who are responsible for killing women. I love you, not the harmful values that are trying to all consume the good in you. Like Luke skywalker attempting to sway Darth Vader, I can feel the good in you. Turn back the hands of time and I will show you a me that was never so much hurt that I now have to ask where my friends are, and before you came, I had some degree of hope, but you took advantage of me, my body and friends, and now I have to move.
Clayton, should it ever occur to you that your writings and your views are unsafe, I am just a knock on the door or a phone call away. We can talk, and if you must weep, let me hold you through that. It is okay for a man to weep. Jesus, a male Hebrew did weep with others who lost loved ones. I shall let you weep for anything you need to weep about. Through your tears, you may discover that women do what we must because for how ever long, thousands of years, males have oppressed us, and since ploughing fields became the norm, men retired female goddesses, and in many historical contexts, women fell to the status of thing, inferior, wife. However, today’s women do not play when we say we’re not above children, we’re equal if not a bit above board with you. We don’t like being beaten, we don’t want to be told who we are, we know who we are, and gaslighters never win.
Clayton, while I need to keep me and Malcolm safe, please understand that you are your own worst enemy, and yes, your best advocate. Listen to the pros, listen to the people protecting your baby. They are calling on you to stop and see where you’ve gone wrong.
My heart will beat a song of forgiveness, and I await you with open arms, but if you fail to see the error of this whole thing, goodbye until you do.
With love and understanding,
Beth
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