News and stuff

Dear readers,

Some bulletins for the day.

1. The podcast is back, folks. The Throne Room with Beth Taurasi is back, you guys. It is recorded using Anchor, and Anchor also does sponsorships, so I may get extra revenue from advertisements I record. I’ll have a little promo with Anchor done on Friday. Any company who’s interested in sponsoring my podcast must support things the podcast stands for. That’s all, folks. Thank you, Porky Pig.

2. We don’t know if JDO removed any recordings, but it is rumored that he did in front of some friends on his own team talk server. Why he has this server I don’t know. He supposedly erased the recordings, but the only true way to do this is to reformat your Windows hard drive, and this may be true of other computing devices. I don’t trust that he emptied the recycle bin and removed the recordings altogether. Thank you all for understanding why those recordings must be removed.

3. Seven people have left the building. Four of them were blocked and reported for harassment, bullying, and hate speech. Three of them left by choice. Sorry about the way it went, and one f them was supposed to be friends with me. She betrayed me in favor of a Benny Adams because of him being eafblind. The truth about Benny is that all my friends have told me he was creepy, and I was hit with 13 friend requests, and he has 24 facebook accounts in all. That’s too many.

The Disabled Woman’s Constitution

Dear readers,

Below is something you’ll find useful if you’re a disabled woman. I thought about what rights and freedoms we disabled females must have in order to live equally in society, and this, my friends, is based on many a Facebook and twitter posting featuring a disabled person, female mostly, and what they want and deserve. Some of it is based on my own experience. You’ll find an outline style below, but it begins with a pretty straightforward preamble.

We, the disabled females of the world, in order to live freely in a society that claims we’re disposable and not valuable, strive to form within ourselves the boundaries and equality with men who are like us, the nondisabled public, and the governments of all countries at large. We consider ourselves equal to all living humans in the global scale, and we are, to put it as bluntly as possible, a class of human beings who are entitled to the same inalienable rights as our nondisabled and male disabled peers.


1. We disabled women have the right to exist from birth to natural death, regardless of a family’s desire to have, raise, and otherwise destroy us.

A. We have the right to be born.

B. We have the right to be raised in favorable circumstances that constitute success.

C. We have the right to education in a school that supports our needs, including physical, emotional, and social needs.

D. We have the right to graduate from schools of higher learning.

E. We have the right to work, no matter what employers may try to do to put barriers in front of us.

F. We have the right to marry and join with another person in love and with dignity. See article 2.

2. We have the right to be seen as equally sexual beings with desires and love.

A. We have no desire to be sterilized.

B. We have the right to be as female as we identify if we were born male, even if we’re disabled.

C. We have the right to refuse sexual advances, especially from strangers.

D. We have the right to work in places free of sexual harassment.

E. We have the right to be sexual in our own way, whether we love a man, a woman, and/or no one at all.

F. No man or woman in any space has the right to grab us, put their arms around us, or simply tow our bodies around without our express permission.

3. We have a right to exist in schools.

A. We have a right to learn with our potential acknowledged.

B. We have the right to be graded equally with our able or male peers.

C. W have the right to learn whatever subject matter we desire.

D. No occupation should be closed to us unless it interferes with our disabling conditions i.e. blind people driving a stick shift car without guidance systems.

E. College is a right that should be given us if we qualify, and not with having to disclose our disability.

F. The healing arts should be open to all of us, male and female, with a disability.

4. The right to socialize or date.

A. We have a right to be accepted socially in a peer group.

B. We have a right to marry at age eighteen, and only when we choose to.

C. We have a right to be pregnant, if we are able, or adopt children if pregnancy is not something we can do.

D. The children have a right to be in our custody, regardless of ableist bias in the courts.

We, the disabled females strongly refuse any nonexistence in any spaces where it is thought that we are unwelcome. We must be taken into account when domestic violence is perpetrated on us. Since the nondisabled public sees us as vulnerable, we hereby adopt this constitution to explain and make clear that all myths and perpetuations of disability are false. They are downright exclusive, and we want our minds, our bodies, and our souls to be acknowledged, heard, and included in all spaces. We are endowed by the Creator, the Universe, or deities, all the rights, privileges, responsibilities, and freedoms of the public.


Elizabeth Taurasi and the disabled public identified as female

As The Government Shutdown Drags On, Food Assistance For Millions Could Run Out | HuffPost

I was mentioned in a couple spots. You guys read this carefully.

As The Government Shutdown Drags On, Food Assistance For Millions Could Run Out | HuffPost
— Read on

Defamation of Character concerns, What’s this about!

Dear readers,

This entry will be quite short. Let me set the record straight. On many grounds I find my ex, Jason, guilty of emotionally abusing me, the late Jennifer Weaver, an Carol Ann Weeks, as well as fraternizing with other girls during those relationships. Carol and I have since moved on and found good guys, but Jennifer, while she died of health complications, certainly did not speak to him before her death. It made me very sad to see her go like this, so you all can imagine losing a friend like that. Jennifer was a big Beatles fan, I’ll never forget. She loved God, loved people, and she’s probably up there with John Lennon who was her favorite. The thing I’d like to clear up is, if the allegations of child abuse and murder are not true, then who said all this and why? Where are Felicia Nicole’s kids? Is it true that she’s pregnant? Is it true that her youngest daughter was injured? I can’t find facts right now. I want evidence to prove it, whether it’s in a photo with text in it, a lock of hair, or a phone call from an old schoolmate of his. I will not be accused of defaming character, whether here, Facebook, or Twitter. Part of this is an ableist attempt to discredit witnesses. The other part is … well, hate speech. Harassment.

Facebook has been notified that three people: Bill, Anita, and Michael, have all been blocked and reported or calling me a psycho or lunatic and other names that are hurtful. Nobody needs to be called these names. As for guardianship, it is plain evil, pure and simple, for adults who can speak for themselves and are blind and at risk for isolation. While I was commenting on a teenage girl’s misuse of a cell phone, I got too much hate from Bill, Natia, and Michael. All three of these people will now pay a price for their hatred, harassment, and name calling. It’s called being blocked and not able to contact me. I would encourage my real friends to either believe the facts, believe me, or don’t post on Facebook. IF you don’t have anything good to say about me, please don’t say it at all. Otherwise, I’m tempted to grab a stapler.

Sorry if this seems a bit off putting, but it has to be said. Anyone who calls me names like psychotic and lunatic and lune bag will automatically be blocked from now on because those names are harmful to the mental health community. HEre’s a solution: for the folks I blocked on Facebook, go spend time at a mental health treatment center, and spend time there as a volunteer. You’ll see that most mental health patients are there for treatment. Treatment equals meds and therapy, which is a good cocktail of things that help the person with various behaviors such as alcoholism and narcotics use. I thankfully don’t have narcotics or alcohol on my profile, but I’ve met many who do. There was one guy at LaAmistad who said he was serious and wanted a relapse prevention plan. That’s dedication. And his family came to visit, which showed they were all behind him every step of the way.

Now, I thought this was gonna be short, but oh well. Things had to be said.


For those who think it’s okay to guardianize, here’s a photo to prove otherwise.

Dear readers,

I’ve been called an idiot just for standing up for victims of abuse by another disabled man. I’ve also been labeled a brat who needs guardianship. For the sighties out there, take a look at this photo below. I can show you a different photo. This is a crisp photo of Marcy Freedman’s mother, a 94-year-old Cuban elder who doesn’t speak English, is chemically restrained by her abusers, and so on. This is just a before photo I think. I don’t look at photos much, but this old woman is being abused because of her marginalized status. Think before you speak.


Let’s talk about isolation, especially of disabled adults.

Dear parents, guardians, and interested disabled readers who are either parents themselves or plan to become parents,

Recently I came across an article about an Ohio teenager whose phone was confiscated for whatever reason, and she called the cops because she believed, at the age of seventeen, that the phone was her property. WEll, without disability and common problems with elder and guardianship abuse, the girl was written off as a brat. Well, there is a serious epidemic among white privileged children, those who get more than they give, and that’s no joke. But here’s a summary of something that happened to me, and before you write me off as entitled or bratty, remember I lived in a small town in Florida whose residents were divided by color of skin, mostly the blacks living in the De Leon area, where shootings would occur. I was also deemed incompetent for fraudulent reasons, and my life was completely ruined.

I was dropped out of college at nineteen, one semester of general education gone because of a parent’s desire to disable me further, prevent me from going to a proper university and earn a real degree. My parents decided, that because they didn’t like something I said, they’d take away my cell phone and laptop and Internet privileges, leading to isolation, false imprisonment, and later, a trip to Rehab and the psych ward. I remember especially after sometime in March, I was admitted to Wuesthoff Medical Centre, a psych ward in Rockledge, Florida, and had to stay for three days. So they didn’t let patients withdraw, but the main thing was that by the time my parents were finished mocking my relationships with others, taking away phone “privileges”, and not allowing me to bathe without supervision, I was tired of life. I couldn’t have lived without noticing that I couldn’t talk to people, couldn’t write or email my feelings, and was censored all over the place. Well, I’d like to say that all that monitoring drove me insane as a nineteen-year-old.

Fast forward to 2007, and I met a young man on the students email list. My parents were again wanting to intervene, and they claimed that the phone was their property and they didn’t want me to talk to him. They claimed it was all about safety, but you can imagine that after the ordeal at Wuesthoff I was just about livid with phone usage taken away. It was also forced upon me earlier, not allowed to call a certain black man in Titusville whose name was Orien Henry. I was told I would never see him, but it gets better. After I met my first boyfriend, my parents refused to allow me to speak with him privately. They hacked into and targeted my email filters, making my boyfriend’s emails get deleted. Well, I stumbled into college knowing all this, and I took down the filters, changed my password, and I never let my father or mother into my email again.

After many failed attempts at getting the parents on board with reasonable service provisions, and after having been falsely accused of wanting sex with a man whose name I can’t mention here, I altogether left my family in Florida through a legal channel. Because I didn’t want to be isolated or told who and what to say anymore, I swore I’d stay in Denver, which now I do have an apartment and a significant other.

The truth about my isolation was that my brain had to think. I was in a silent reading and writing period, taking in any drop of rain that fell from the ceiling of my imagination. I was frequently censored in the things I wrote, so I wrote things that my parents wouldn’t suspect, hid the writing away, and was regretably told that I couldn’t write what I wanted to write. During my isolation, my brain went numb. Time was short, and I honestly wanted to die. The only thing I could do was walk out of my family’s home, but I ended up hospitalized. There was no support for independence at LaAmistad, where I later was for treatment. There was no social support because even that could be labeled a “privilege.” Social supports are not privileges, rather they are vital to disabled adults in isolation. Isolation in and of itself could lead to early death among adults, and teenagers who are isolated and made to live among people they despise because the people bully the teens are also at risk of early death.

Before you write me off as entitled, the isolation I just summarized was not proper punishment. It was a parent’s desire to prevent me from growing into the person I became. The aftereffects of the isolation can still be felt, but when I was in the training center in Littleton, I had to play catch up with relationships, sexual contact, and other such things I’d been denied as a teenager. Now, I have a sexual partner, we live together, and we are struggling to find employment. Here’s the big thing: because I was isolated, I absolutely cannot get a traditional job, and the odds of getting a job are too highly not in my favor. Employers want well socialized puppies, not isolated sick ones. It’s a sad truth in the job market, but it gets worse. I don’t want to be in a position where I can’t care for or bond with another human being, so having kids is questionable. I don’t want a social worker visiting my hospital room because of blindness. I will not talk to social workers unless they understand that I am the mother of the child, and potentially I would never abuse the child. Isolating a disabled adult is not okay, got it? Isolating a disabled and marginalized teenager is also not okay. It is also not okay to name call on social media, right? In the thread I was part of, a young man commented that parents and guardians have a right to take phones from a child or dependent if it isn’t in their best interest, or worse off, safety. But that’s too broad an interpretation, as when I was isolated and told not to use my phone or pc, I already felt that I was being abused. I had no resources to call EMS services if I had a real emergency, or worse, I couldn’t do mental health self care.

Finally, if you are suicidal or isolated, please call 800-273-TALK (8255) or text 741-741 and you will get a crisis person on the line to talk. If you are found incompetent to own your own phone, make sure your guardian or court appointed Conservator gets Hell, real HEll, if something bad happens to you. You may want to go to the police station, tell the cops yourself that you are suicidal or facing isolation because of a court appointed guardian, and you will likely have to talk to your local adult protective services. Make sure you do NOT bring your cell if you are facing injury or isolation, only run and find a domestic violence shelter for people with disabilities.

You can also learn more about isolation and elder/dependent abuse in the state of Colorado by going to

Carrie Kasem, daughter of the late Kasey Kasem, also has a group that does work on behalf of elders/dependents who are isolated or abused. Her group can be found at

Kasem Cares



Thank you for reading. P.S. Thanks to Mr. Arthur Delaney of the Huffington Post, a link is coming. This is an article we worked on together to bring light to the Shutdown mess. Thanks also for the support of this blog, and I will be forever grateful for the advice on ignoring the haters.


Could the #govtshutdown lead to more serious problems?

Dear readers,

While teenagers harassed a Native American elder on the steps of the Lincoln Memorial, I was appalled by the privilege these boys were brought up in. I was also more appalled that the government shutdown passed 30 days. People are not getting the point that those folks who can’t work won’t be helped for long. And getting work is a boon for blind people because:

1. 75% of us are currently unemployed.

2. 53% of sighted people in a recent survey say they’re uncomfortable with blind people. What does that say about us as a race, not blind people?

3. With respect to blind people and capacity to do things, too many sighted people think we’re not capable of doing essential household things like babysit and do clothes shopping.

4. 83% of females with disabilities are sexually assaulted whether it is at home, at work, or in travel. Grabbing a disabled person is seen as normal, but this is still unacceptable.

5. There are still predators among us. I won’t work for a man because of the possibility of being preyed upon for my disability. I won’t let someone else’s DNA pass through my body and my body is mine. It doesn’t belong to anyone else, even in a marriage. Because there are people out there who believe a woman should never refuse her husband’s advances, I’m stating this. I don’t refuse Trenton’s jokes and advances because I trust him, but when you have no idea what you’re doing after years of supervised dating and then suddenly you’re living together, things can get ugly. That’s another story for another post, but as a disabled female, I have to be on my guard, people. I must be on my guard when it comes to the men who want to see my body as usable and disposable.

As a woman with a disability, I could be badly affected by not only the shutdown, but unwanted advances from a boss. This is the pinnacle of the Huffington Post article that might come out this week. I will post a link to the story if it does come out here in the blog, on Facebook, and on Twitter. Thank you all for reading.

PS. I anyone thinks I should not be in a position of power, you deserve to know why you, the sayer of such, are not. You touched my friends without their consent, got somebody pregnant, and that girl wasn’t even ready for. baby. That girl adopted the baby away because she couldn’t handle motherhood, nd you expected nothing less. Well, I’ll be in a position of power, and you’ll regret saying otherwise. It may not be a governing position, but you won’t be allowed to speak ill of me when I have it my way. The bill of rights should prevent you from plotting an assassination attempt, so keep your distasteful and sexist thoughts to yourself.


How is the #shutdown affecting me?

Dear readers,

I want to explain a few somethings that some of you may not know. The partial government shutdown must end, and this is why.

  1. The top reason is food. We have to budget $200 per month in real dollars because food stamps are not funded after February. Don’t look at me like I’m entitled, people. Human beings who can’t work for their living must be given compensation in real effort, including food stamps, so as not to exhaust the food banks. Food banks also don’t give you a choice of foods, not like grocery stores. So look here, people, I want to shop at a grocery store and no way am I getting canned junk from a food bank. Luckily, the metro ministries mobile food bank had fresh fruits and veggies, but not every food bank has that. Commodities are for folks 65 or older, which I don’t fall under that category. Work in a sweatshop or DVR run office is not an option and you don’t know my history, so trolls, back off.
  2. We can’t go to the Church nightclub for Ferry Corsten’s show. I’m sorry, we had to budget and tickets to the show did not fall under our budget plan.
  3. We might not live independently together in our own place. Before you spew hateful rhetoric at me, think again. We need autonomy and independence and human dignity like everybody else, but being blind puts both me and fiance at 75% unemployment and for me, I’d earn $.75 per $1 Trenton, my fiance earns. I want nothing to do with a gender pay gap, and working for a nasty CEO is my worst nightmare. FEmales with disabilities face workplace sexual harassment and bullying in the workplace 83% of the time in their lives, and I may expand this to include familial abuse.
  4. We may never see a good leader in government again.
  5. The Handmaid’s Tale may come true, that is if the Democrats get shot by Republican zealots who are dedicated to founding a Christian nation. IF a shutdown were to continue, and on and on, someone could get hurt whether it’s the President, Congress, or both. We must make every effort to reopen this government.

As a blind person, my political wish list is:

  1. Braille literacy for all blind/visually impaired kids. Blind/VI children face a 90% functional illiteracy crisis because of government uninterest, parental expectations, and worse, schools not doing their job.
  2. Try having more blind orientation and mobility/travel instructors. It is a discrepancy between the blind and sighted worlds, having sighted O and M instructors who have no clue what it’s like being blind, ignored, or worse, at more risk of dying because some idiot driver hits them while they’re crossing the street. Blind people teach and do the skills every damn day, so why not use more of these people to mentor young blind people?
  3. Unification of the blind community into one big Congress. Thanks, Clayton for your inspiration. We need a blind assembly that is more unified, devoid of government kickbacks, and agency heads would not be allowed to join unless the agency bends the normal system of DVR and actually gives blind/VI people their lives, their livelihoods, and dreams.
  4. Blind people should be supported in starting their own businesses. This is essential to making us empowered individuals.
  5. Women should wear pants to work. Are you staring at me from a suit and tie, Dr. Jernigan? Women should wear pants to work. Period.
  6. Men who are unmarried should be forbidden to touch or assault disabled females at work. We need to create a safe space for women to do their jobs, people.
  7. DVR should be reallocated to funding these businesses like Clayton’s record company, for instance. IF you’d like to collaborate with Clayton, go to, and email him at for not only this, but his new single Conniving Mastermind. It is freaking awesome.

I think you all get the picture. IF you read this post to the very end, congratulations, but if you’re a hater and want to spew subintelligent rhetoric at me, close this window and find something else to do.

Demystifying the Haters’ Comments

Dear Readers,

I have received hate mail from certain individuals regarding my ex, Jason. LEt me just play it straight: he made racially charged comments about Africans and black people and AIDS or HIV, and I have some stuff to say on that matter.

  1. Regarding the comments about Africans and HIV/AIDS, the black population accounts for over 50% of cases, but it is also going down year by year because of HIV care and community awareness, and it’s down in those folks who inject drugs. See for more details.
  2. On the comments that Mexicans are freeloaders, think again. My prior caregiver was Mexican, trust me, and she worked hard to provide for her family which consisted of three daughters and a grandson. Now two grandsons, of course. I’ve seen Mexican cantinas where the Mexican population hangs out, and these people just want an escape from violence and poverty like everybody else, not to freeload and that sort of thing. I’m sorry, but the use of the word “beaner” is also in play and it’s harmful to Mexican immigrants who genuinely want to get a better life for themselves and their children.
  3. Women should be under a man. Whether this means that women should be owned or under the authority of males in a sexual way, it makes me sick to hear a comment laced with this sexist and misogynistic rhetoric. Jason believes women are not fit to lead, but boy does he not know that women are more fit to lead than men. Women are more at risk of being subjugated, but if given the right training and voice in their education, girls can run the world. Right, Beyonce?
  4. Regarding comments about Asian women and other types of human beings, did you get the picture? Too many racially charged comments I have to dig up in my memory bank and debunk what this man says.
  5. HE doesn’t like kids at all. Doesn’t anyone know that?
  6. He is also highly homophobic and transphobic because of his treatment of a friend I actually met who is transgender, and he made fun of another schoolmate who came out as transgender. Transphobia and homophobia have no place in this country or the human race as a whole.

Think about all the statements here. IF you stick up for someone who holds to misogyny and bigotry, something’s wrong.

R. Kelly: Thoughts and Feelings About the So Called Documentary that I Confess I’ve Never Seen

Dear Readers,

A lot of us have come to know the singer known as R. Kelly, supposedly the leader of a sexualized cult where women are abused and told what to do. R. Kelly was acquitted on 21 counts of child porn or something like that, and I remember he had been adjudicated in the late 90s for something related to sex abuse. Here’s something very important I’d like to say:

Alia, the hip hop star who tragically passed away in a plane crash, was blamed in a recent BET article by R. Kelly for lying about her age upon her illegitimate marriage to Kelly. Alia was fifteen, but blaming the victim is a very important pointer that could brand R. Kelly as a sexual predator. I’ve been blamed as well, but not by Kelly himself, but I recognize the pattern of behavior anywhere.

I wonder, however, if R. Kelly had been Caucasian, would this scandal have been any worse? Perhaps, but sexual predators come in all colors. Kelly’s victims do need a voice, but so do all sex abuse victims. R. Kelly is a grammy winning singer, but he blames a dead woman, ALia, for lying about her age. But are there any other traits R. Kelly possesses which could make him a sexual predator?

LEt’s see: he didn’t take responsibility for trying to marry Alia, fifteen at the time, and he felt entitled about it. But what will happen in the investigation is anybody’s guess. Kelly does not seem to have deviant sexual behaviors, but where’s the evidence of power and control? Predators who prey on kids, boys and girls alike, have problems with power and control and not having a healthy balance of both. Does R. Kelly have problems with this?

I need to see a history of sex abuse in R. Kelly’s family history. Was he sexually or physically abused as a child? Does he have empathy for people? Kelly must not have empathy, or if he does, the big book says he has to misuse empathy. Many of the questions here are unanswered. Therefore, the only way to guarantee R. Kelly is a sexual predator is to …

  1. LEt the investigation unfold.
  2. Allow the victims to speak out. Listen to their stories.
  3. Meet R. Kelly through the TV set, or perhaps look into why people are blaming Kelly and attempting to mute his music.
  4. Not mute Kelly’s music if the scandal proves untrue. Lady Gaga might have said she will never work with Kelly again, but I need to see evidence that Kelly is really a sexual predator.

Let’s go over the ten traits once again, and I’ll tell you what, more than half of them will go unanswered.


  1. Blames others or circumstances for failures, takes no responsibility for actions: The BET article should speak volumes about this. And the answer here is yes.
  2. A sense of entitlement: I bet a lot of rich people are entitled, look at their drinking habits.
  3. A need for power and control: NOt sure if that’s Mr. Kelly.
  4. A badly impaired self esteem. Really? R. Kelly? A badly damaged self esteem I have not seen yet.
  5. A troubled childhood. I want evidence here.
  6. A history of abuse. If this guy was acquitted, then why is he under investigation? Was he molested as a kid? Some child molesters had great upbringings, so this is still hanging in the balance.
  7. Inability to have intimate relationships with adults. ANdrea Kelly is adult, I assume, so this might be false.
  8. Deviant sexual attitudes and behaviors. Where’s the pornography?
  9. Lack of empathy: Again, where the hell is the evidence?
  10. Drug or alcohol abuse: I don’t know how many singers have this trait, but musicians should never be branded based on this trait because musicians and actors and artists have a 70% likelihood to abuse drugs or alcohol. Predators sexually abuse while doing drugs and alcohol, so maybe Kelly does, or he doesn’t. I will post updates as I research Kelly’s past life and abuse or lack thereof. There simply isn’t enough evidence to pin Kelly the label of predator, … yet.

Thank you all very much for reading.

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