Ferry Corsten: My Story of Resilience and the Light at the End of the Tunnel

Dear Readers,

For those of you wondering, Ferry Corsten is a Dutch club DJ who produces his own stuff. I personally got plugged into his stuff when in 2006, I had just recovered from wisdom tooth surgery, February 6 being the exact day of that appointment. I was withdrawn from college, isolated from friends and those I cared about and was not allowed out of the house. So what did I do to pass the time? I started listening to trance and dance stuff, including Corsten’s music. I loved the sounds and the progressions the beats provided, even when they were slightly off key. Temporarily, when my jaw was operated on, the pitch of the world seemed to fall by a half step. Ferry’s music was among some of what was pitched down slightly, and it was me, really. But then, fastforward twenty or even ten years later, seems like twenty years from this view, and a young woman from San Diego mentioned Corsten to me in a Facebook post or two, then we zello chatted and then on Threema. THreema, for those who are total tech idiots, is a highly encrypted social media messaging platform that does not give out your phone number, messages and so on via server, only stores these and an encrypted ID on your phone. The ID consists of letters and numbers scrambled together to form a unique “ident”, to borrow a term from 3000: a Space Odyssey by a famous Arthur Clark I think. I’ve read so many books, but this Threema thing is the first step to having identifications encrypted in your body, except it’s in your smartphone.

Enough of the tech lesson, back to Ferry Corsten. MY friend, whose music and files you can check out on SoundCloud, link available upon request, is also a DJ and wants to make money entertaining folks. I see no problem or harm doing it, as I entertained people with food, music, and conversation, but that is too courtesan like in my opinion. I should be able to choose a career path that doesn’t require vision, i.e. driving. ANd club deejaying may sound unsafe, but why not? My friend is doing it, so why can’t I? I want to learn to mix, rock out, and talk to fans and reach as many people as possible. Don’t bring up CHristina Grimme because she was a YouTube star, and she was probably attractive in the eyes, something I’m not. My eyes are always closed, and I get highly offended when people ask me to open them.

So I wrote an email to Ferry Corsten’s publicist, stating I was a friend of the DJ in California and wished to thank Mr. Corsten in person while he’s doing his gig because Corsten’s music brought me hope, even if I didn’t realize it now, I am no longer in prison by a significant other or parental figures, being that my significant other is sweet and supports my aspirations, and the parental figures will be cut off if they do anything stupid and wield their guardianship, which is abusive. Guardianships for blind people are a disgrace to humankind, and should be thrown away. In Corsten’s native Netherlands, another problem has arisen, euthanizing the terminally ill. I have a friend in Holland who described a friend’s euthanizing because she had cancer, and I’m sure this friend’s former bandmate chose this, but euthanizing terminally ill people could then translate to throwing blind people into the category of undesirables. It already sort of happens in most other countries, although without the needle and liquid meds. Corsten himself has met Heather, my DJ friend in California, and knows she’s blind and can’t see. Of course, as a blind person, I was accused of being entitled to meet people I wanted, accused of being arrogant and bossy, and did not get opportunity to fix the wrongs in Florida’s highly flawed system of schools for the blind and public school mainstream accommodations. I was silenced, but no more thanks to moving out of state, finding love, and keeping my family at arm’s length. Rather, at my entire body’s length, a thousand miles away or more, my family still believes they can trump Colorado’s medical privacy laws, trump federal college privacy laws, and steal my happiness so they can be happy they made me miserable. They’re evil. For telling me I’m entitled to meet any boy band I wanted, punishing me for wanting to meet the Backstreet Boys, and sitting idly by as bullies in a private school setting smashed my dreams of becoming a singer. A pop artist in my teens, I might have never partied, but sex sells, but not with women who have disabilities. Females with disabilities are silenced because of their femininity and because of their anatomy, all invalid reasons to use the word “bossy” to apply to girls and “leader” to apply to boys. I certainly won’t accept a leader for a son, only a daughter or woman should lead because boys are becoming more and more violent in general, being disrespectful and not listening to their moms, sisters, and for the older men, their own daughters. Ferry Corsten has kids, but he’s out most of the time, but yeah, technology enables all of us to connect, check on our kids, drop in for Amazon Echoes and Alexa apps, all that stuff helps the kids realize they still have Dad around, no matter where he might be. The Backstreet Boys, for another, might all have gotten married and some might have kids and pets, wives and aunts, sisters, all that. But these men failed me, so did their management and my family. I’m done dealing with my family, and want a refreshing full circle beginning, and it begins with Ferry’s music, trance, and perhaps a career.

Thank you for supporting this blog for you who read it in 2017, and I strive to continue writing through this year and beyond, thank you for the new year’s greetings as well.


Sexual Assault on College Campuses

Dear Readers,

Imagine you’re in college. NOt only are you in college, but you’re a girl invited to a party. Imagine you find out that all the popular football players are going to be at your party. Now imagine there’s drinking, and then, … oh no, a football player has just cornered you. WHat do you do when he’s on top of you, when he’s penetrating your body with impunity? THis happened to many a Baylor University student, but it also happened to many other students. Colleges have become a hunting ground for predators because of the universities’ ill equipped staff and more recently, the Trump administration, which seems friendlier to predators than the women involved in colleges. College for me would have been a barrier anyway because of disability.

What makes college so unsafe for girls these days? Read the book Violated: Exposing Rape and Sexual Assault at Baylor University, and I honestly forgot the authors’ names. THis book pores over the evidence surrounding the convictions of Tevin Eliot and Sam Ukuachu. But these guys aren’t the only ones accused of rape. Rape allegations have spread everywhere, even my dad’s alma mater is not immune to sexual assault and rape culture. FSU has recently settled with a girl who was assaulted by the famed quarterback Jameis Winston, who is now playing with the pros somewhere. Florida University may have had some problems as well. While I’m not disparraging colleges altogether for rape culture, much has to be changed.

First, girls and women under 21 should be given a no drinking awareness seminar, a sexual assault seminar, and a few other educational things about drugs. In fact, it starts in high school. All girls should be in a separate sex ed class just for them, so they can learn about their changing bodies, changing minds, and sex and pregnancy. No Conservative or Liberal things about it, and transgender females should also be involved. LEt’s also state that disabled females absolutely must take a comprehensive sex education class where contraception is discussed in an unbiased fashion, none of this, sex is for marriage and babies only because some disabled people may not be able to or want to marry or have babies. We all have feelings and desires, but what the Florida State University, Notre Dame, and Baylor University all have in common is a bad best practice for girls and women, all based on Bible Belt principles. Sex is sex sex is still sex even before marriage. Marriage can sometimes complicate legal matters for disabled couples or couples with a disabled spouse in them. So college feeder schools, including the ones in Tallahassee, Waco, and South Bend should be teaching comprehensive pregnancy prevention, rape aggression defense, and ultiimately a drug free environment. Guys should be taught respect, consent, and poise when dealing with girls. I’ve met some nice guys in Tally who were very wise not to mess around with me. Then there were guys who I’m glad I never saw. I never went to Notre dame or Baylor University, but I can say for certain that Notre Dame’s been in the news for all the wrong reasons. Mainly Mike Pence, and the Catholic teachings state that sex is for marriage and babies, something that is out of reach if I’d stayed in Florida. I’m living in Colorado, independent of my family, and my fiance, who’s listening to weird videos at the moment, respects me, loves me, and we both have been through comprehensive pregnancy prevention checkups. Thankfully, I’ve done some stuff to ensure the birth control prescription continues. Most blind girls don’t get the comprehensive sex ed and instead, they get the Conservative view of sex, which is that it’s dirty, sacred, or both and is for marriage and babies only. Such a viewpoint is no longer acceptable if we’re going to protect a disabled university student.

All disabled female students at all colleges should be given the run down, how to apply condoms, how to do birth control, what’s out there, whatever. I learned that birth control shouldn’t harm a woman’s body chemistry if side effects aren’t present. Doctors should know what they’re talking about, so consulting a gynecologist is the easiest route to ensuring a girl’s safety. She should also be raised in an environment where virginity is not required. I have a good character, let’s face that. Nobody should be judging me by the lack of a hymen. That is important, since many feminist views say so. Christians should never judge a book by its cover, by the same token, never judge a woman or girl by the presence of her hymen. Forget it, huymens break even with rough exercise and tough play, so that’s not a good indicator of virginity anymore. I’m not proud of the fact my flower wasn’t given up on my wedding night but I’m lucky I have an accepting family and fiance who care deeply about my well being, not just a tiny flap of skin between my legs. I want that for my future daughter, and that means she can’t just go to church. Church doesn’t always fix problems in a child, especially that of surviving sexual assault.

The book Violated explores how colleges have dealt with assault in the past and present, but it is available on Bard, Kindle, and I believe Random House. It is narrated by Teres Plumber.


For Doug Jones

Dear Friends in Alabama,

You guys did the right thing, elected a good man with decency in the Senate seat left vacant by Jeff SEssions. I must say, though, what would the world have looked like for me if Moore was elected? WEll, guys would have been using my daughters, should I have any, for their gratification, instant gratification that would degrade my daughters’ well beings. Trenton would have been made into a slave had he lived in Alabama, and Moore would have probably gotten so bold that he’d have run for President. Alabama showed us that decency will prevail, and that means don’t go trying to screw around with teenagers. To Mr. Jones, let’s show the rest of the states how it’s done. This means women and Democrats all over the board, and nobody allows Trump to tweet that I, Beth Taurasi, am a piece of fake news. You will say that a hurricane is fake news, and then won’t send help in the right places. That’s what Trump will do. So Mr. Jones, please keep Trump in check, and make him stop writing these horrible tweets at Kirsten Gillebrand, and let her do what she wants. Help Congress pass all the necessary protections for Internet neutrality. We want an open and free society, but not run by big corporations. So do your part, Mr. Jones, and you’ll keep your job well in to your old age.


Another Book About a Cult?: Cyantology

Dear Readers,

Damaging cult groups have existed through the ages, but Cyantology is particularly damaging for children, as author Jenna Miscavitch Hill writes in her memoir. I’m fixing to get through this book and tell you what I’ve learnt about cyantology. Celebrities like Tom Cruz have joined the church, but what does it really do to its members? Communal raising was required of those in the higher order of the church, known as the Sea Org, but I haven’t gotten through the entire book to tell you much more than what Mrs. Hill has gone through. Apparently, Cyantology alienates children and adults from each other, and nobody in the Sea Org is allowed family time as of a certain time. Jenna Hill’s book is available in all formats, including Bard audio, so to you blind people interested, go download or purchase this book. It’s a fascinating look at one of the most famous cults in recent decades.

This book is titled BEyond Belief in the main title and was published in the recent decade of the 2010s, so should be easy to find.


Sexual Harassment 101 For Women with Disabilities

Dear Readers,

What is sexual harassment? For a woman, it can be pretty intimidating, but it is basically, unwated sexual advances, jokes, comments, etc. Even if they’re made online, sexual harassment is sexual harassment.

I’ve seen some firsthand accounts of women with disabilities who were on the receiving end of the sexual harassment issue, though not by a man of honor or higher power, only by disabled men themselves. There was a man in Georgia everybody knows, and he’s sexually harassed women online, including myself, a friend in South Carolina, and several friends in Texas, Ohio, and possibly some other states like Virginia or Wisconsin. WHo knows how many victims this guy has, and I hate seeing I was one of those. There is a difference between harassment and preying on women, and for us with disabilities, it can be difficult to talk about in conversation.

Sarah, a staunch supporter of women with disabilities, inspired me to write this because she brought up many valid points. Since we women carry the baby in the whole biological scheme of humanity, it is important that women be kept safe, even if cognitive impairment is present. For these women, sexual harassment may be viewed as a predator-prey relationship attempt. However, even cognitively impaired women should be taught the basics of sex and pregnancy and the stages of life and so on. Call it a family life discussion, but women with disabilities are capable of expressing sex, no matter what cognition they possess.

Sarah herself lives alone with her pets, her guide dog included. She’s hard to get through to in some people’s eyes because of past happenings, and I could tell because perhaps she was either sick, not present on my FB page, or chose to unfriend or block me on Facebook due to a comment I posted which has inspired this blog post. I was only trying to add to the conversation and tell her that I as a disabled woman have been on both ends of the spectrum from the accused to the accuser of sexual harassment. My parents accused a friend of mine of sexual harassment, and he was 51, which was scary. I get it, some people could forbid young people from hanging out with older people. However, this friendship was not sexual in nature, and it served my parents well in their guardianship case, though no longer valid.

As a disabled woman, the difference between sexual preying on and sexual harassment could be no more distinct. As a woman, I expect men to leave my baby making tools alone because I’ve already got someone. I expect the men in the world to keep their hands off, and putting their hands on me between my legs, below the waist, etc., that could be classified as sexual harassment. Groping is a form of harassment, plain and simple. I’m also very serious because of experience. I’ve never been raped, and I’ve seen eyewitness accounts of such, but sexual preying on to me is when the woman is purely violated beyond belief. IN this case, the man will have used grooming, a technique in which isolation, secrecy, and finally, unwanted intercourse or groping of sexual spare parts, is used to silence and denigrade the woman, especially if she has a disability. Grooming can occur if the balance of power is off by a lot, especially if an intellectually able man is groping a woman with Down’s in the case of Law and Order Special Victims Unit’s Katie Talbert. She was taken advantage of by her boss, an able guy who later needed to pay her back, and had to anyway because he was sleeping with Katie and other intellectually disabled women in his store. He operated this outfit for his own benefit, and groomed the girls to secrecy, and to the detriment of Katie’s mom, got her pregnant. However, blindness is not an intellectual disability, it is a physically known disability that does not affect the balance of power between sexual partners. There are many times disabled women don’t feel safe in ridesharing situations with men, and some Uber drivers have been convicted of either burglary or sexual harassment, which can make any woman, able or not, feel uneasy. When a woman is not able to drive, however, she can easily be preyed upon or harassed by a man if she doesn’t have the solutions and tools to stop it.

So how do you stop sexual preying upon or harassment from happening if you’re a lady? Men also experience this, but since women have a much more painful consequence, forgive me but that is who I usually address first. First, rape aggression defense classes for girls 12 and older are offered by local police officials in their respective departments. Officers teach girls things like how to keep a boundary bubble around them, when and how to gauge comfort with a stranger standing in said bubble, how to defend themselves in cases of rape or being touched in an unwanted way. Women and girls 12 and up are welcome to take the classes, and some small organizations like the Denver Muslim community or the Tallahassee Florida Catholic Student Union have offered ladies’ self defense classes, but what about including women with disabilities? Blind women should especially try reading the book Safe Without Sight, which was written years ago, but still has many valid points and debunks many myths and facts about rape. I took the Hadley self defense class, but never got the physical practice doing it. One RAD trick I was told would work is if I had a key, which I happened to own two keys for my dwelling, I would take said key or keys and stab the attacker in the eye. Combined with a technique recommended in self defense class called holding the universal reference point, located between neck and head on either shoulder, I may be able to execute a strong blow to a guy whose intent is to violate me. THat is, of course, a last resort. We were also taught parries and thrusts and punches and how to scream at every move we made. Our voices are the most powerful weapon we possess, and if a woman screams loud enough, a man might just have to run for his life. There’s many tricks that ancient Somali women have played on men before, stuff that involves a squeeze to the groin, which is another self defense technique. WHen a man’s groin is squeezed, he gets into a lot of pain and faints. Again, a last resort. The very first line of defense we learn in RAD or any self defense course, able or not, is setting boundaries and using safety tricks and tips that can potentially keep our baby makers clear of any unwanted guests.

The best line of defense, especially for a woman who is cognitively disabled, is to be sure that her care professionals are female with very few exceptions. IF a woman must be lifted by, say, a power lifter, a man may be hired, but not to do things like dressing and bathing a woman. Females are generally care driven beings, believe me I’m one of those. Women can use this role to care for others, to serve as many different things in many different capacities, but should be caring for females in positions where bathing, dressing, and medicating are required. I’ve seen a male ER nurse before, Bill, a guy from Parrish Medical Centre, but he was great. Bill gave me a shot of adavan, an IV drug that subdued my seizure in 2007. However, he did not have to see me undressed, and that’s where my boundaries are ccrossed. No male nurse should be bathing or showering a female with a disability, cogniscent or not. Even if the woman has an aggressive form of MS, and if she can’t speak in words, guys should never be left alone with her. Here’s another SVU scenario: a disabled lady is found beaten up and bloodied in a dress, an adult diaper beneath it. She is totally paralyzed, can’t move, can only blink or groan, etc. HEr sister beats her and steals her money. A male bus driver is later found to be raping her, and thinks she is comfortable with it because she didn’t say anything. THis is preying upon. Just because a woman with a cognitive or physical disability doesn’t say anything doesn’t mean it’s okay for a male caregiver or professional to do whatever with her. And the sad thing is that family in this vignette can’t care for her because her sister is aggressive with her, but as long as there is blood attachment such as a nephew in the case of the woman in SVU, a male caregiver may be assigned. However, as a precaution, the male should NEVER under any circumstance look at her undressed. A female nurse may be hired, and with good background, to change, feed, or bathe said member of the family.

Sexual advances on females with disabilities could lead to tragedy as well. I remember one woman who was probably the victim of sexual abuse by her own family, as another friend described. This woman, Kelly M. Bond, died of an apparent misuse of her medications. The family should have known better than to make illicit advances and devalue her or denigrade her character. Kelly is now in Heaven with God, where the pain can no longer be felt, and she shed her disabled body in the worst possible way, but as God always does, he delivered her.

So what should be done with a disabled female who has no cognitive skills to tell you she’s been abused? By taking the precautions in the previous paragraph, I feel about 80% of that risk can be diminished. However, a bus driver can still have access to handicapped women. One can tell when even the most cognitively disabled lady has been violated. For example, in the previous vignette, the police found a girl who cringed at the picture of the rapist. SHe saw the suspect’s photo and made a sound like she wanted help or like an anxious puppy wanting to get away from an abusive master. That’s a clue that she could have been denigraded or violated, even if the lady can’t speak for herself. In Katie’s case, she knew something weird was going on, and was high functioning. She worked at a grocery store, a boss taking advantage of her. HEr mom forbade her from taking dating and sex ed classes, and she was later abandoned by her mother, but not without the help of SVU detectives. Katie was found to be carrying a baby son, but would she be able to understand what is happening to her? HEr mother successfully hid all the knowledge Katie must need for her to understand sex and pregnancy. When I was young, my parents hid a book around the house, Asking About Sex and Growing Up. They wanted to show me stuff, sure, but they decided to let me read a good book by the author and creator of the Magic Schoolbus series. Joanna Cole also had a bunch of resources for books and videos geared toward kids and adults alike. Sex and pregnancy are important subjects that ALL kids, whether disabled or not, should be talking about. FAmily life discussions can happen anywhere, and I suggest having a good private discussion with a disabled child especially with a qualified female healthcare educator. If I have a daughter with disabilities, and she’s thirteen, for instance, I’m going to give her “The Talk”, as Mia would call it in the Princess Diaries series. So what if Mia and Tina decide on this, and what if the matter is beneath me, I still need to know how to do this. Even if my child is blind, I’m still going to tell her what the period feels like, what pregnancy can do, how to put on a pad, what to do if a boy approaches you inappropriately, what is inappropriate touch, etc. Women with disabilities are often left out of the conversation because we are devalued, but if we didn’t have ovaries, we couldn’t  be pregnant. That would mean we could still do something, but with no results. However, about 90%, factoring in those who had ovarian issues or cancer, can get pregnant. We don’t have freemartins, as in Brave New World’s view of the factory assembly of a person. We have just about every female as a fertile female, so I’m assuming about 90% of young women have able ovaries. PCOS women should always consult a doctor before going on drugs to calm the cysts in their ovaries, but there is a growing number of those women who are having children, but that is a story for another day.

Women with the more physical disabilities can have sexual desires, so why are men taking advantage of this? IF a girl asks, why is he making eyes at me?, why not explain not that he “likes” her, but that she has to feel safe in order for him to actually “like” her. Even if my future daughter had no disability, I would still do “the Talk”, keep your baby maker out of the way of the boys, don’t let them do a thing down there, and don’t show your breasts or buttocks in public period. Then, I would apply the necessaries: how to put on a pad, and if a boyfriend should show up at my house, I’m going to say the three words he may hate, but may save me from being Grandma too early: use a condom. Use a condom or I’m putting this girl on the Pill. I happen to think of the Pill as a lifeline, a safety net and not an excuse to make taxpayers pay for sex as Rush likes to emphatically joke. It is awful, absolutely awful, when a woman with a disability is totally left out of the conversation of sexual stuff because we are the very pinnacle of relationships, we carry the good and the bad guys in to this dirty planetary mess, so why aren’t we being given better status?

The answer is something Dr. George Wong would say in SVU, because so many of us are devalued. Dr. Wong tells the detectives why the sister was aggressive with the paralyzed lady, and the sister made excuses for hitting the lady with soap. Dr. wong saw the same pattern of abuse in the suspected rapist, who said he felt sorry, so preyed on the porr woman with what could have been a deadly weapon.

SHeltering doesn’t cure the disabled’s being prone to being sexually joked about. Believe me, I know firsthand. The best proposed solutions for keeping women with disabilities involved involves the knowledge of sex, pregnancy, and prevention.

Sarah, I hope this doesn’t ramble down Memory Lane too much, but see where I stand.

A Proposal, Albeit Not a Modest One: Resolution for Dealing with Corrupt Probate, ABusive Guardianships, and the GOP Tax Plan

Dear Readers,

Imagine you are disabled in the United States right now. WHat is your life like? What is your aspiration for life? Have you been forced to drop out of college twice? Has the DVR system failed you not once, but three times over? Well, that’s my life for you. And that’s the lives of millions of blind and low vision folks here.

I am a bit envious of those blind folks in Britain, Canada, and other places, but not so when I feel what pain they go through. But in the United States, we have a system that corrupts our courts and is hurting our disabled. WE disposed of Anastasia Adams, a precious young woman whose life was “not worth saving” according to Innova Fairfax Hospital and the guardians in charge of her. Yolanda Bell repeatedly called for her sister’s stay of “execution.” HOnestly, our culture has gone to death, no longer pro life, and we welcome only able bodied folks who are pale as ghosts. WHat do you suppose we do about it?

IF I, for example, have to go to a group home because I can’t afford to live on my own, if I have to live with parents or family on either side because I don’t live on my own, I propose that Trenton and myself leave the north American continent behind and investigate countries who are welcoming to disabled immigrants. WE need to be nomads at this point, according to my proposal, and suppose we move to Britain.

If we do, then we’d have to give up freedoms, but who cares? THis country is bunk, is not providing a life for me and Trenton that includes something more normal, only surprise wrongs that I have yet to right. I am not a policymaker or a government/parliament speaker at all. Because of my low status in America, I am more prone to becoming the next Anastasia Adams, but worse. Trenton may not be able to say goodbye to me if I’m an old lady, and a public guardian could stow me away in Florida against my wishes. I hope the Attorneys GEneral of both Florida and Colorado read this carefully. We have a choice: abolish all guardianships that punish and/or hinder the lives of disabled people and abolish the practice of probate abuse altogether or we leave for England or someplace else that will not tolerate guardianship. Yes, the NFB and ACB are seen as radical, but we need to show the Brits how it’s done. They might learn a few tools and techniques, jot down notes, and think twice before deporting us back to the U.S., back to the corrupt court system. And we do have a choice. We shouldn’t have elected a narcissistic con artist called Donald Trump, but it gets worse. The government wants to end net neutrality and hurt the poor with a new tax policy. IF we disabled people face group homes and guardianship because of the GOP, we’re outa here. WE won’t put up with our independence lost because of slashing benefits and Medicaid and SSI and all that stuff. Even the pensions in Britain and Australia are higher in value than the SSI in the U.S. In this country, there is a danger greater than anyone can stand. We want to change the courts and attorneys, to change the policies the government may put in place, but we disabled people have no influence and no power unless we get elected, which we won’t because the world seems unfit for us. I’m sorry to report that the choices here are the only ones we disabled independent citizens have in order to keep our dignity! If we don’t act now, we could be put under public guardianship and placed in a home with cognitively impaired people who really need the services other than us. Trenton and I are blind primarily and use adaptive techniques and tools for our cooking, household tasks, and soon, we want to use adaptive techniques for childcare and childrearing. We don’t want the older kids looking out for the younger kids or playing a distorted parental role because of us. We want our children of the future to know that we’re the boss, we’re the parents, and to wake up every morning in our house, not in the house of someone else. WE’re lucky that the grandmother is supportive, and so is the mother, who will become a grandmother if a child is born to us. But we could face discrimination in the adoption application process, so having a child is crucial to us doing what we want to do with our lives, start a family. I’m already 31 years old, unemployed, no job prospeects, and I have had no dating prospects for the longest time. Not till Trenton came through, and all the others left where he just stuck around. We’re hoping to have a safe wedding including support from friends and relatives, but the friends are questionable because I don’t have enough in Colorado except a few from the Islamic community who are begging to take me to a mosque. I cannot go in a religious organization because of the exclusion of disabled patrons and members I witnessed as a firsthand member of a church in Westminster, Colorado.

So what is the solution? We have two choices: either change your thoughts and beliefs about disabled people, you rich Republicans, or we disabled people could exodus out of here and emigrate to Canada, when it becomes open, or Britain, if it becomes more open.

Reference To a Previous Post on Net Neutrality, Plus Other Stuff

Dear Readers,

What do you use the Internet for? If you use the Internet for preying on young women and defenseless children, that should be scratched off the list. But do you use the Internet for banking? Do you use it for applying for jobs? Filling out doctor forms? Securing appointments? Adding to a google calendar? If you don’t stand with us and demand that the FCC end its proposed slashing of net neutrality rules, Trenton and I and countless other poor and disenfranchised individuals, homes with poorer couples living there, etc., could be thrown off the information age. It is a step backward to the 1800s, when print was the norm and blind people were excluded. Braille was invented so the BLind could read, but Comcast and other ISP’s could block WebBraille and Bard as well as other blindness related sites such as RS Games, Quetin C.’s Playroom, and many other sites related to the disabled community from viewing if net neutrality is thrown away. If I have to cut my Comcast internet and stay with cable and phone, I will. And even more, we will fly to D.C. and make an appointment to meet with someone in Congress who can demand the FCC reverse its ruling, override the policy, or tell the FCC to either back off our internets or risk losing their own. We need to teach the FCC a lesson about what it’s like not to have the Internet free and open.

Suppose Comcast says they don’t like the NFB Net sites. If Net Neutrality were put in place as is now, they can’t block it. Most websites would have to pay ISP’s to get in the fast lane, and I’m not one who can pay an ISP for a tiny website like mine. My blog could be blocked by government buttheads who want to regulate it, sure, but Comcast? I’ve been a loyal customer for years. I don’t appreciate when things go wrong. The slow lane and fast lane approach is a bad idea.

So what can we do about it? If you haven’t already, make an appointment or call your Congresswoman or Congressperson at all. I went through many voicemails, most of them full, and called my local decision maker. I’m happy Diana DeGette still does her job. She’s the best!

Anyway, if you use the Internet as a low income blind person, you need to contact your Congressman or person in authority and tell the FCC to abandon their plan. If they don’t, they will lose themselves a loyal Comcast customer, and I’ll be screaming from the tops of Capitol Hill, worse of all, maybe even yodeling, and I will have to say I’m a little old lady who … wants her Internet never to slow down and be heavily controlled by the buttheads in ISP’s. Thank you for your support of Net Neutrality. We must win, at all.