Ruminations and Reasons for Fending Off Internet Abuse and Thank You to Followers

Dear readers and followers,

I’d like to ruminate a bit and thank my followers, the newbies, for coming on and following my blog. Comments have been disabled due to internet trolling and illicit threats to take me to court among other things. I’m sorry if you wanted a blog that would allow comments, but I had to make that decision so that I could continue writing and be heard. Currently, my power beats wireless headphones are singing German baroque music to me. I have studied music from Bach and Beethoven among other things, and I’m glad I was able to study and learn what small things I did learn at college. Unfortunately, because of accessibility and parental constraints, I could not get my Bachelor’s of Arts degree. I cannot share this post on Facebook really, but if I did, the link wouldn’t read properly on the app or smartphone, so I won’t. If anyone wants to know the truth, I love writing and music, I’m a creative mind, but the people who want to put an end and a damper on my musical career and turn me into a slave are also stealing friends from me. I’m not supposing or suggesting that any woman friend is weak, but they are not educated about the dogwhistle rhetoric coming from males about me, stuff that is sexist and ableist. I’ve been freed from guardianship since December 2020, and I can’t get it back and won’t allow it to creep back into my life because of a few things. One, it’s abusive, and two, it’s abusive, and three, it’s a bad example for my kids. IF I have kids, which I don’t at the moment, I want to have them raised by a free couple, a couple that is free to love and cherish the child without having to hand them over.

This reminds me of a WSJ (The Wall Street Journal) article that emulated what was going on in Afghanistan. Now that girls are not allowed to do things because they are girls, now that women are banned from the public eye thanks to Taliban overreach, there’s a housekeeper who wants to surrender her daughter to pay off debts. She owes the equivalent of $500 plus in Afghan currency, and everything is too expensive in Afghanistan. I understand the woman’s plight, but a child is a child, and she is more precious than her mom is at the moment. Only three, she could be thrown into a family she doesn’t like, abused by the household, and forcibly married to a son, age six right now, when she reaches puberty. Ugh, I just want to kick some butt right now. I’d like to say to this poor woman, “Put the child up for adoption in the United States, so she can be educated, have a life, have love, a job, what have you.” But it makes me sick that even moms here in the U.S. would sell their kid, anyone who sells a child of any color, complexion, whatever makes me ill. There’s a lady in my church whose husband is Hindu, and some of her practices are Hinduism based as well. She explains things about India’s culture I never understood before. Unfortunately for many kids in India, child marriage is a thing. Unchained at Last also did studies on child marriage, but marriage is not anything but slavery for the girls involved, about 85% or more victims of this practice according to one Unchained At Last study are girls. Some are men, some are older women, but it is girls who are victimized the most. Correct me, Ayaan, if you read my blog and discover something a bit off about stats, but I don’t usually read graphs and such.

Because people aren’t believing me or telling me the things that are true, and it’s not about what I wanna hear, it’s about truth, I’m going to be blunt here. Guys who’ve been abusing myself and my fans on this blog need to stop what they are doing and realize that I am going to get more followers and do more things without them involved. For another thing, the guys who want to take me to court aren’t going to be successful, and any judge would laugh the bastards out of court because they’d see through this tomfoolery and I’d tell them, and the judge would say, “Hmmm, you said what about a guardianship?” I’d tell the judge that the case was closed in December, and these guys are jealous and want me in a cage so they can throw crumbs at me. I want them and their case laughed out of court. I won’t take down posts, my followers need to see this stuff.

Now, I want to thank the newbies who followed my blog. IF you guys don’t hate women,, you’re welcome to check it out. Please email me at denverqueen@gmx.com, for that is the email address I use for blog and podcast issues. Please put Denverqueen’s Weblog in the subject line, or if podcast related, put The Throne Room with Beth Taurasi in the subject line.

Thank you for reading.

Beth

Letter to All My Friends Who Support an End to Online Abuse

Dear friends and family and supporters here on WordPress,

I would like to ask for all of you to come together, and I want some of you to see what has happened to me even today. There are online abusers that have not been very forthcoming and transparent as to the reasons why they are abusing the Internet and abusing me in the process. I want to talk about the recent call to take down the post about Bill and Wes’s screenshot about Clayton. It’s not coming down, and for the reason that the two men responsible for ganging up on Clayton have their names and usernames on the screenshots, so I won’t be taking the posts down. Screenshots don’t lie. These guys who ganged up on my buddy don’t deserve anything less than the aggressive campaign to eliminate online extremism that needs to be done. Let me also tell you guys about a recent attack from two different phone numbers I got from a dude called … and you guys better not be weird about this, but I wrote his name down because I didn’t want to be cast under a spell of “Don’t tell anyone and I won’t harass you/kill you.” Ramon Salazar has been harassing people in my community, and getting support from the guys I mentioned earlier, and probably getting a pardon from Agent Orange, better known as Donald J. Trump. That guy is in serious trouble over the Capitol riots, no joke, and Ramon wants to prove to the world that women’s brains are smaller, that they aren’t smart enough to see through his bullshit. I’ve been spending a lot of time today trying to understand why a psychotic dude who is clearly using dogwhistles to call over the manisphere that Laura Bates mentioned in her latest book. I want to know why the hell this Ramon Salazar, who has a reportedly Mexican accent, is not coming out in the woodwork and trying to do something IRL. Usually, the manisphere puts out abusive content toward women, and they actually do IRL things. I think I’m going to explain what security measures I’ll have to put in place.

For one, I think I’ll need a Guard Dog or similar brand stun gun. I know, I know, I don’t want to mention weapons here, but I need to become a defender of life and a warrior queen here. Nobody messes with me anymore, otherwise meet the weaponry I will have to learn to use because I am done taking abuse lying down. Anyone want to mess with me? Well, you won’t be able to for several reasons: A. my building is gated, and I didn’t write my door code here I swear to God, but there is a code you need to know and I will not allow someone in the first vestibule door without knowing the code. The people with the code include but are not limited to caregivers, delivery people, Amazon people or post people or UPS individuals and delivery personnel, all that is included and then there are church friends who want to deliver something upstairs. That’s it. B. The other reason you won’t be messing around with me is this. IF you do, and you can’t get through the door, too bad. Don’t follow the little old ladies and gents in my building in the door without a code. If you are asked and you answer, “I want to take something from Beth, I want to attack Beth Taurasi because she’s been blankity blank and her boyfriend is a blankity blank.” You say those words, and I will ask the management to at least notify me, and I won’t let you in. Oh and don’t break my door. You’ll pay for its repair by way of fines and restitution to my building manager. She’s cool, but if someone wants to break down my door, we are not going with you, and we won’t let you in. I will warn my building of your approach, and I will figure you out, whoever you are who wants to end my life without thinking that others actually give a crap. Brutality on the part of police is not okay, neither is threatening someone like me or my partner, both of us representing intersectional minority groups and such. YOu guys need to be humble and leave us alone. Don’t text me, call me, or anything if you have ill intent, I don’t care. Don’t try to mess around with me because I don’t have all the financial wherewithal to deal with 24/7 police protection and dogs and what not. I can’t have certain cameras and security systems, but I’d like to thank my buddy Serena, AKA DJ Saffron, for recommending Deep Sentinel, which is a camera based system that detects suspicious folks, and the cameras see for me so that the customer has peace of mind. I’d be damned if someone tried to steal something from me, attack me, or anything on my property. However, my apartment building doesn’t support Deep sentinel, and won’t let me have any old security alarm even ADT. Serena did however give me this wonderful idea, the question is setup and accessing the stuff. Is all. So if any of you wish to attack or maim myself or my partner, I promise I’ll have a security system in place to make sure you don’t mess around with me. If I have to, I’ll get me a female pit bull or an intimidating looking rottweiler or something big and strong like a mastiff to defend me. If I was allowed to do this, I’d get me a Tibetan mastiff, train it to guard my property and let a rip on some of the more aggressive folks. It’s not something to play with, and online abuse and threats from the persistent trolling folks is not something to ignore either. Ignoring and blocking don’t work all the time, so please, people, if you intend to abuse someone like myself, all because of guardianship and such, think of yourself in jail and in solitary confinement or confronting your judge at a criminal trial for harassment, and you protesting, “But she slandered me/she’s a biatch/she’s threatening me.” NO, I’m not threatening anyone, I’m stating here what is going to have to happen to protect me and my partner, and we will protect babies and vulnerable cats and dogs, so please, if you’re a friend or family member, thank you for your support. Serena, you’re amazing in every way and I need to see you on Twitter spaces more often, thanks for your ideas and I look forward to working with you. Also, on the flip side, I realize that people think I’m a slanderous and libelous writer and blogger, but if my story is the same all the time, I am not a liar. Stop telling me to take things down, don’t listen to the ganger uppers on Clayton, and listen listen listen to Clayton because he knows and lives grief and loss every day. He admits perhaps that he might have failed somewhere to protect his sibling, but he knows what needs to be done. Police must be held accountable for all misconduct, period. Some of the cops here in Denver have been disciplined for “hunting” people at the George Floyd protests. I want an end to police violence like the next guy, but keep my guardianship and mental health out of your mouths unless I am telling the story, and even then, do not write negative or deconstructive feedback on this subject. I cannot tell you how many times people think it’s funny to beat up my old friend from chorus, and yet she turns around and gobbles up the right wing narrative told to her through guys who aren’t even flesh and blood contacts she has met in person. Perhaps we can talk, this girl and I, and she can tell me why people beat her up online and on the streets for standing up for me. This is unacceptable behavior, unacceptable misconduct, and furthermore, I’m going to perform with Denver Women’s Chorus and possibly Soar, and if you hear me, Soar friends, DWC friends, this group of abusers wants to silence my voice by pinning slander and stuff on me. They’re entitled, don’t wanna admit the truth, don’t wanna accept too much strength from a woman, any strength at all. I’m going to be on the stage, singing, and where will this other group be? Nowhere to be found in Denver I hope. To protect the DWC and Soar, I will no longer be posting address information in a public post on Facebook, so if you want tickets to a concert I’m in, please message me privately on either platform, and I’ll just give you the address if you’re in the area only. IF we stream it online, great. But I want the girls to be safe, so you out of staters won’t be invited to go to concerts unless you’re in the Denver area, and you have to be for real. I don’t sell tickets to haters, so haters back off.

Beth

I Don’t Hate Men

Dear readers,

Disclaimer: I do not hate men, and I’m still feministing and being cool, but let me make one thing clear, I do not hate men. There are good guys and bad guys, and I’m gonna talk about both, so here goes.

First and foremost, I see you good men out there. I see you who don’t wanna hurt your wives, kill your girlfriends, or shoot up college campuses all in the name of a sexist societal change. I see you guys who open doors, pull out chairs, and talk serious about letting your female colleagues advance in companies like the tech companies and the ones serving us today like those in restaurant chains and the like. I see you good guys out there, the ones who are truly mature enough to see that some of your actions are wrong, and I see you guys who own up to violent encounters, and without use of faulty manasphere thinking, you do your part to change your life for the better.

The reason I write this is because of men I’m about to cover. I see men online who write terrible things about me and other women, men who don’t take ownership of their responsibilities like for example, this paraphrase from a dude in Colorado even, “She put a DV (domestic violence) charge on me if I didn’t pick up my kids.” Really? Did you really abuse your ex wife, sir? I wonder, are there any others I can think of that are just nasty? I have too many names in my mind, and they’re all blind or physically disabled. This is just one category, but there are millions of unnamed guys I don’t know in extremism communities, including MGTOW, incels, and other communities in the big wide “manasphere.” Thank you, Laura Bates, for writing a great as hell book about this subject, and now I have a healthy respect for good males and good males who don’t do bad things. Laura Bates has lots of examples of how misogyny is dangerous, and she doesn’t have to look too far back or forward.

I have a great partner who actually thinks Bates’s book is great, and we both do not really support the manasphere, and we both understand gender inequality like nobody’s business. Look carefully, especially at some of the disabled community. There is sexism, white supremacy, and all kinds of wrong in the disabled community, and sadly, it’s perpetrated by disabled men, especially the ones living at home with their parents, or the ones who openly admit to denying paternity over children, and those who sit there and complain they don’t get the sex they want with women.

Socially awkward men scare me, and I thought I found a kindred spirit in a man I knew only online and let me tell you how it worked. I thought that “Jason”, the name I saw on the Skype request was indeed a genuine recording “artist.” I quickly added him, and he and I had some talks, fell in love, and then … sadly, but in some weird way, we met. Jason seemed like a good guy at first, but then the trouble started when he was isolating me from good guys like my ex, Deq, who has beliefs that kind of clash with mine, and he needs to get his head straight with certain groups of people, truly because these people, these people including sheikhs and others who have certain incendiary things to say about women are dangerous just like the straight dudes in the incel community are. Either way, Deq respected me, but tried to control which authors and books I read, but who cares. I had to hide certain aspects of life from him because he didn’t get it. Jason was worse, way worse, in that he had some perpetual racial stereotypes about African Americans, Somali immigrants, and so many other types of individuals he had a whole novel he could have written. Jason was calling Mexicans a popular immigrant slur and was suggesting to me that “All Muslims are terrorists.” Not true, and I’ve met some peaceable Muslim folks since, people who actually realize that some of Deq’s incendiary commentary wasn’t cool. That was part of the reason I broke up with Deq, but another reason was the brothers and I had to put Islam away in a box marked, memories. The memory of Islam is not that pleasant, but there are pleasant layers of the sisterhood in Denver, and that’s fine. The brothers were the problem, and my future depended on me leaving Islamic communities behind, but not leaving my support for a peaceable observance behind. What Jason did was lie about Islam being a religion of the sword, not surprising because in the Bible Belt, including Florida or Georgia, churches with such hateful rhetoric against Islam abound, also the churches somehow get away with preaching nasty stuff about gays, women, and simply everybody who is not Evangelical Christian or white or making less than $4000 a month.

Jason gave me two sets of jewels when I met him a second time, but by that time, he had been isolating me, controlling me, picking my friends, hosting all my Skype groups, all of that plus cheating and lying and stealing while at the same time, we had some relations, sexual stuff, but it wasn’t all that satisfying knowing that this man is capable of being awkward and cheating on me. I had been cheated on also by another man in California, but Jason is a glaring example of a man to stay away from. He’s been stalking girls on the Internet, demanding sexual relations with one or two at a time, perhaps he’s telling all the Jessica Sara and Britney girls he stalks, and I’m saying Sara Jessica Britney because I’m talking about this in the same way you say Tom, Dick and Harry, but he pretty much tells every Sara, Jessica and Britney out there that “You’ve signed your death warrant by being friends with Beth.” Picture Jason as the President of Panam, the country in Hunger Games, and you see what I mean. If you were friends with me and Jason knew it, he’d strike you with thet National Guard, and that’s the kind of guy that started slowly coming out when I returned to Denver after our first rendezvous. It was painful to see him do this to Jennifer Weaver (she died in 2015), and worse yet, to other girls I cared about. He finagled Caitlin, another girl I truly did care about, to stop speaking to me, and now she’s joined awkward ranks and told me not to speak out against Jason, but who cares. Jason is someone you don’t want ruling your newspapers, your companies, your household, your country’s government. Jason is not just the man I dated, he is a monster that comes in many other guys as well, including that Bryan Laundry dude who killed Gabby Petito, and now guess who’s after him? Dog the Bounty Hunter, and I’m actually very happy that’s happening, for Dwayne the Dog Chapman has a pretty good thing going and he’s considered a legend.

If you’re Jason, you’re bad. And the words that read, you have signed your death warrant for being friends with Beth, those words hurt. Just because I somehow forced Jason to break up with me, well I didn’t want to at first, but others have told me just what a blessing it was for Jason to abandon ship, and I learned later about the warning signs of domestic abuse. All I can say is, in any way I can without being mean, thanks. Thanks, Jason, for not acting like Bryan Laundry, evading the authorities, but no thanks for the relationship because you cheated on me and you tried to weaken my whole spiritual experience. No thanks for telling me that all Muslims are something that they’re not supposed to be. So yeah, no thanks because you made Jennifer cry her brains out, you said I could die or my friends signed a death warrant and no, don’t run for government office because you hurt me. You really did hurt me, I don’t care if your disabilities did this. They didn’t. You hurt me so bad I cried for days after you broke it off. You even wanted me out of your life, well I’m living with scars, and these scars remind me that I ain’t done fighting for women’s safety in relationships. Thanks to Laura’s book, I have a better experience and understanding of guys like Jason and the composite sketches Leigh Baker also used to help parents learn how to detect sexual predators. Jason is not just the Jason I dated. He is the monster under your bed, the pounding pain in your head when you don’t want it, so you take Advil to get rid of it. He is the guy you see lurking on the Internet, or even in the bushes, waiting to yell a nasty comment your way. Jason is the guy who lies, cheats, and steals, and tries to upend democracy as we know it. Jason is a guy, but he’s also in just about every bad guy I know. HE is a recent ex, recently barred from advancement because a lady said he touched her. He is a guy who didn’t budge when his girlfriend called me a “dog in heat.” He is the guy you don’t want to meet at a bar, but you do anyway and end up messed up in the head because you feel slighted. He is the guy you can’t believe got you pregnant, and then tried to get custody of your baby, and all the while facing criminal prosecution for your rape. He is the type of guy I chose to date because being that I was born blind, and locked out of life like a child, I had no options. I had no decent men in my life. Until Trenton.

I want to take a few lines to honor Trenton, my partner, who might as well be a husband, but we won’t legalize things till this SSI thing is settled, and Congress, I’m counting you in. Get this passed, please. As Trenton is a good man, I’d rather have him a hundred per cent. Trenton is someone I’d call respectable, honorable, and a gentleman after my own heart. He and a buddy of mine named Clayton in Arizona, though they’re both different, deep down they’re good guys. Unlike the Jasons in the world, Clayton has owned up to his actions, owned up to everything really, and he has made a good life for himself, has ambitions, has desires, wishes, wants. Who knew if this or other good men could be the key to ending violence against women? In any case, I want to make something clear. Feminism is something that any man or woman benefits from, and I have written plenty of things regarding my relationship woes. In any case, I better get to bed.

Shopping For Your Next Therapist?

Dear readers,

I looked through this blog, and I found nothing in it that I would consider a thing about how to help a patient shop for a therapist. If you’re one of those individuals who’s experiencing mental health issues because of the pandemic, here’s your place to learn about what to look for in a therapist that might befit the needs of someone, especially someone with a disability. I wrote a couple years back, maybe three or so, about what treatment providers can expect as they treat blind and disabled patients, but I want to talk about finding a therapist whether you’re doing this for the first time or doing this therapist shopping thing for a third time, fifth time, whatever. So here are some questions you should ask your therapist, especially without stepping on HIPAA.

First and foremost, is the therapist willing and able to work with disabled women without blaming the disability for their mental illness? Some people actually blame disability for mental illness, but certain factors such as trauma can cause mental illness. Take it from the patient who’s been there, done that, don’t like to necessarily go back and forth about it.

Is the therapist friendly and able to establish rapport with you? If the therapist feels awesome and starts establishing rapport with you, great. But listen to your guts as you should be doing with everybody anyway. If your gut feeling is that the therapist is not clicking, that’s okay. Move on to the next one.

Does the therapist have good credentials of any sort? Usually, the therapist will tell you what they specialize in, and they will give you their prerequisites, a la college and where they studied. For female therapists, I have a lot of experience with them, she will likely tell you what her experiences are with women and such, but if you prefer a male therapist, same deal. If you are a member of the LGBTQI+ community and are also disabled, it may be helpful to have a therapist who is also a part of the community, though it is not required. Black/African American therapists, according to some news things I came across, are harder to find than white ones, but don’t be shy about asking about a therapist’s experience with ethnic minorities, and do they come off as condescending or do they still click with you? If you’re of any ethnic minority, chances are you’ve struggled to find a therapist who meets the ethnic minority thing, but since there might not be one that meets your insuring requirements, be open and flexible about your choices.

Does the therapist have expperience with religious minorities? Ask any question you like about this, but for those in religious minorities groups, i.e. nonChristian groups, this is a highly important question. You may be experiencing some things related to religious stuff, so a therapist could help if they have experience with religious minorities.

Ask if the therapist can provide digital or Braille material if you’re totally blind and wish to participate in a group they facilitate? IF you want to participate in groups, odds are there will be papers to play with. So ask the therapist if they could email or help with transcribing the materials in to Braille, depending on your personal needs. Any therapist should be required to do so, but some will say some stuff about HIPAA and stuff and might not want to do this very much. It takes a bit of advocacy to do this, trust me I have a bit of experience with this.

When you first go into a therapy session for the first time with your new therapist, whether this is your first or tenth, be prepared for the good stuff. The therapist will introduce themselves, including name, college credentials if any, how many years experience they have, what they specialize in if applicable, and then they’ll start telling you the confidentiality credo that goes like, “If you are experiencing suicidal thoughts or homicidal thoughts” and remind you that whatever you say to them is confidential except in the case of suicidal or homicidal thoughts. I actually had to say this during a simulated therapy session with a social work student in college, so yeah, I know waht this is all about. You will likely have to sign a release of records, treatment papers and a consent for treatment form is among these. You will likely be asked a barrage of questions if this is your first time with the therapist, but one Facebook user has suggested grabbing your prior records if this is your second, third, or even tenth therapist you’ve gone through. I’ve been through about five or seven, but in doctors, psychiatrists, I’ve been through at least six or seven. That’s between two mental health providers.

Also, you may need to ask the therapist about how many years experience they have with working with disabled patients, and do they have papers they can share with you about the results of their treatment methodologies regarding traumas or other types of therapy. You may want talk therapy to start, but if you have specific needs, something that you want the healthcare company to cover,, talk to your therapist. Community mental health care is good for some who can’t afford private practice, and having a casework person coordinate your treatment team is a plus especially if you feel overwhelmed, so be prepared to do the same as above with a regular therapist if you’re doing intakes for community mental health.

If you want, guys, I can do a Mental Health Clinics 101 if needed. Don’t be so surprised, but mental health is a tough road to navigate for some, and during Covid it has become exhaustive for a lot of reasons. Isolation can make people go insane, quite literally. The social distancing is something that kids aren’t taking well, especially if they have suicidal thoughts going on. I’m lucky I have a partner to do lockdown with, but it’s sad when your friends can’t just drop by for your birthday or Christmas or what have you. I hope this post helps a lot.

Beth

How Hard Is It to Process When Freedom’s Gone?

Dear readers,

A spoiler alert is in effect for Handmaid’s Tale Season II. Please skip if you haven’t seen or watched this show. However, if you have seen the show and know what came after, do read this post.

This is hard to process. Emily found out in Season II of the Handmaid’s Tale that her professor colleague was hanged and called a really bad word that refers to gay men. Emily herself is in a lesbian relationship and her Martha partner got hanged for it. Emily was forced to go to the Colonies with the so called unwomen. Same with Janine. I feel bad for Janine, and for all the Emilys out there in Afghanistan who will never see her lover again.

There is something quite different about OfFred in the handmaid’s Tale. She’s spunky and she’s ready to rebel at all costs. Now I know why a buddy of mine hates Serena, and that gal deserves the same fate as the unknown wife in the colonies who was being punished for what? Falling in love. Women are assigned in marriage in Gilead, but let me tell you where in the real world that happens. Africa, Afghanistan, Pakistan, India, the entire third world, and the United States, so hell bent on “not offending cultural sensitivities” insists on legal child marriage. Let me explain why I hate this. Because little girls are too young to figure the love thing out … and too young for sex and relationships. Teenagers should never be brides, period.

The Taliban are notorious for acting just like the commanders, Sons of Jacob, in Gilead. And for those who say the Handmaid’s Tale is “irrelevant fiction”, go to Afghanistan. Try living under Taliban rules, no education, no work, just sex and breeding for you who say this who are straight females. My worst analysis of the recent scenes I saw in the Handmaid’s Tale are also true. I personally want to make sure that all my sisters and brothers in all communities outside of Christianity and Islam are safe, and the Handmaid’s Tale as I have said is a dire warning. It is a dire warning to us all, and Atwood’s book is even deeper. Need I ask that you read the Testaments?

The big thing is that Serena is about to find out how wicked she was to her handmaid, June Osborne, also known as OfFred. OfRobert, also known as Alma, had both her hands burned off. I couldn’t imagine why anyone would want to kill a woman like Alma. Then there was Moira, who was a Jezebel for a time, but now, boy she’s going to be very very important.

I honestly am glad we don’t have Aunt Lydias in the world, but you could say Isis’s AlHamza Brigade is similar to the aunts of Gilead, only they’re Muslim ladies with guns who force their beliefs down girls’ throats. People, if you’re not paying attention to the similarities between Gilead and Afghanistan, I don’t know what planet you’re on.

I’ll b writing an analysis of a new book by Laura bates, a book about Incels and Pickup artists and the like. I will be talking about her book, how it analyzes the internet, the trolls and former community members she’s interviewed, and so much more. Yes, I’m going to tell you, there are plenty of incels in the white communities here in America, and I did write about one such. I do have some ideas about how we can fight back against such people, but if we don’t, we’re going to be a Republican right extremist country possibly called just plain America, or Columbian Gilead, or something else. We women won’t be able to write these blogs, read other blogs, or do anything but breed and marry, and handmaids could. be the surrogacy contract that most couples could arrange and I could be in big doo doo. People say, “Block the trolls.” But the truth is these trolls are like Eliot Roger, who said he’d punish women for rejecting him. Well, I’ve got something to question Roger’s actions.

What if all men had the government right and duty to kill or maim or impregnate women? I’d have to get out a pistol like June does in the Handmaid’s Tale and … not sure what I’d do exactly, but I’d have to do a resistance thing and take down the incel regime because that revolution is invalid. First and foremost, they’re racists. Incels also don’t like women to the point where they dehumanize and downgrade women from humans to “foid.” Notice the quotation marks I put that word around.

So what are the precautions we women must take? First, I’d never go to places where these men hang out, but if you have to work at a bar, things will be different. First, I’d stick a rapex device in the birth canal, I’d warn my partner I had it there, and go to the bar. Then if a guy tries to approach me and try to work sex like a vending machine, he’d get zapped or cut, simple as this. Something like this happened to a lady in New York, and the guy was forced to go to the ER for treatment, but then the cops showed up and the DA charged him with attempted rape, and that device is evidence of such a thing taking place. Another thing women should know about these types of guys, they could organize, form a male only government, and partner with terrorist orgs. Guess whawt? It happened in Afghanistan for the second time. Taliban rulers will not allow women in cabinet positions, government positions, or what have you. They are lying to all women in their borders, and trust me, they’re a lot worse than incelibates on the internet who say, “Women are not human.” There are men who avoid women too, thinking they’ll charge them with sexual harassment. Well, here’s a tip for gents who want to approach me: don’t catcall or harass me, or you’ll get kicked by my partner because it’s not cool to harass women to begin with. My short skirt is not a license to rape, and neither is my tank top, my dress, or what have you. Neither is a geisha’s gold kimono dress or what have you. Just … don’t … do it at all. Hold your dicks in your pants, don’t open your fly at the bar, just do not do it. You can approach me as a friend, a colleague wanting me to do more with my career, help me and train me as a conductor with a choir, whatever you have to do to get to me and train me in a profession other than sex work. the sex workers have to control the situation anyway, and I don’t plan on doing such things because hell, my partner would be a bit sad, so yeah.

Now if any of you people think this Handmaid’s Tale and incel post is scatterbrained, think again. Women who’ve told me I was incapable and incompetent should know that they will lose their freedom if they associate themselves with a Gileadean government. Here’s what I think the solutions should be regarding feminism and progressive causes and women’s rights. How do we protect boys from incel communities and MGTOW as well?

1. We need to ban these communities altogether, I don’t care if you think freedom of speech. We need to set up algorithms on Facebook and other social media platforms to catch the bad guys before they act. And here’s the good news: we have that capacity, so use it or lose it.

2. We need to establish that gender and sexuality evolve over time, and reteach all these boys in our schools that it’s not okay to handle women the way a pickup artist does, and we need to make boys aware of incel communities so they stay far away from them.

3. Girls must take governing positions as women, and we need to ban some things along the way. One, we need to ban sexual harassment at work, in schools, at home, and in play. Boys need to be taught by good parents, myself included should I birth such a person, that girls are humans, and that girls are not to be raped or violated in any way possible. Boys and girls in high school should be required to read the Handmaid’s Tale and the Testaments and … explore the possible distopian results of not standing up and saying no.

With all this in mind, I’m going to continue watching the Handmaid’s Tale another time.

Beth

How do you live in a world with no blind princesses?

Dear readers,

I recently tried to answer a question for a podcast done by a blind dude who specializes in blindness specific things. One of his questions had to do with coverage in the media, and I also included Hollywood coverage. Let me tell you how lackluster at best the coverage is, and it affects not only blind women like me, but if I want to create a fan fiction story, I have to do it right. And there are no blind characters to work with in most of the hot button media series thingies. Here’s what we have to work with.

As a young girl, I grew up with Disney. How well has Disney represented disabled characters in the media? I’d give Disney an F for unfair representation of blind and disabled characters. Disabled characters in literature and movies and such are usually saints, poor beggars, or those who are cured, and examples are few and far between. There is only one blind woman who I would hold up as one who opposes being helpless. Anyone heard of Susan Oldknow? Um, maybe you haven’t, but she is in the Treasure of Green Knowe series, actually the title of the book is Treasure of Green Knowe. In this book, Spoiler alert, Susan becomes heiress to Green Knowe and she ends up overcoming loads of obstacles to get there. Among which, she has to contend with a nanny who’s completely out of her mind, a grandmother who believes Susan is an idiot, and the only friend in her family is her father, a sea captain who wants her educated like her mother and all the ladies before, and this is before the invention of Braille. But the worst thing that occurs usually in a family like this is the son gets spoiled, and Susan’s brother Sefton is no exception. He acts racist toward Susan’s companion, Jacob, who, spoiler alert, is a freed African slave the captain purchased, and yes, the boy was free in England with the captain’s family. The Captain is usually a guy who you would find away on sailing missions, so no surprise that Sefton hates his sister and wants to disparrage her companion.

What’s really sad about the blind issue in the media and coverage in television news stories and other things is this: all the blind are considered helpless, and because the NFB and other consumer orgs want better representation, there is a darker side to finding such representation. When I wrote that I needed help determining what to do with evacuation strategies for my apartment, I personally don’t feel safe here much because of the creepers here, I got nasty backlash comments from trolls who were, oddly enough, blind themselves. The blindness is not the reason I ask for help, beg to get guidance in housing situations, and so on and so forth.

What I do does not represent Hollywood or blind people in general, but I have indeed tried to hold up the community, but they seem to be tearing me down instead of lifting me up, and even local chorus people don’t seem to get it. They want to sit there and tear me down, forget I exist, or try to avoid me. I hate avoidance behavior, but I think the biggest reason we have avoidant individuals around us as blind people is because of that stupid television show, In the Dark, and the NFB’s complaints about that show are numerous. For one, the blind main character was played by a sighted actor. Ugh. This is ableist. It’s the same thing as asking Caucasian people to play Japanese characters in anime, and it’s disgusting.

As a blind girl, there are no blind princesses Disney has to offer. Tiana is the closest to getting there Disney has done with princess representation in the media. However, there is still a long way to go. Disney has yet to put a disabled actress as a princess in a movie, and to make a disabled princess be the center of the story. Because of Disney’s lack of disability positive representation, I’m considering writing Disney a heartfelt note saying that a princess with confidence and a disability would really help the community see things the way I see them. And we need a princess who can lift others up, not have to be able to see and don’t count Ariel’s temporary disability because her voice is essential to her story. ursula, the evil witch in the Little Mermaid movie Disney so violently corrupted, did take Ariel’s voice, but was killed by Eric and so on if memory serves me right. The original Hans Christian Andersen story doesn’t do much justice either. The mermaid has to, spoiler alert, kill her lover or become a child of the air, which is hardly what Disney wants. Disney’s interests aren’t the interests of the disabled community, and the more I see new princess movies come out, the more left out fellow princess lovers and Disnerds who are blind are going to feel.

When you get a little older, superheroes and more adult films are the norm. I still watch princess movies, but what will I be able to do other than write up a fairy tale that explains my life in a child’s point of view/ Nothing explains things I went through that way at all. In adult film and TV series, we have few and rare blind characters that exhibit any form of confidence or enough courage and strength to tell a blind adult or young teen, “You can be who you want to be.” If Disney wanted to do this sort of thing, maybe they should make a movie about a blind woman, not Ray Charles or Stevie Wonder, but a woman who is blind because women who are blind are poorly represented in television sitcoms, movies, and the like. No blind woman should be portrayed as a sexual object to be married off, or worse, a fear based thing you don’t want to become. As a blind woman, how can anyone be so confident in themselves as females if they see a blind woman not succeeding in making some extraordinary changes in the world? I want to change the world so it is safe for girls and women who are blind in all parts of the world to live their lives, no guardianship for girls and women, including all the remote parts of the world who seek to oppose or kill me. Honestly, I’m seriously trying to do this right, but I’m stuck on social media because of transport that’s so crappy here in my end of town. Think about it. Activists can be activists online, and I’m one who can say I’m an online activist for change, and I don’t see such activism covered in the news.

what bothers me most about the lack of Hollywood representation of people who are blind is how feared the blindness is. In classic movies, you don’t see confident blind actors and so on. Even modern movies and shows have no blind characters. It seems Arthur from PBS does, but that’s meant for educational purposes only. Sesame Street is a kid program, but we need to get the word out that blind kids and adults alike need positive role models in the media, in sitcoms, in Netflix and other streaming platform shows, and not the Healing Powers of Dude. Poor representation of disabled people and jokes about us are all over the media, and those have to go.

Luckily, I did do a good initial review of See, a show about blind characters, but why is Jason Momoa, a sighted actor, playing the blind warrior? I hope there are blind thesbians willing to speak out. At least we’re on the way to doing better, but hardly are we any closer than we should have been long ago. In 1990, Disney could have published stuff about not so helpless people with disabilities, but it’s taking them way too long. Other hollywood companies like Dreamworks, Warner Brothers, and so many others could benefit from putting blind people on TV and in movies outside an educational purpose only.

Beth

Covid, Vaccines, and Why Science Works

Dear readers,

Please read if you really care about other people. So here goes.

Covid is a bad virus, and it kills. I have a buddy who lost both her parents to Covid 19, and it sucks. For her, she will never have Thanksgiving and Christmas gatherings for her children at the parents’ house again. Both parents being gone, her young daughters will have to cope with the loss of Grandpa and Grandma.

When I got the vaccine, I felt freer. Of course, I understand where some people are coming from. However, you should try and get the vaccine because you don’t want your parents and grandparents to die of a needless pandemic. If you have an elderly relative in a nursing home, please do me a favor and get the vaccine. Phiser has an FDA approved vaccine, and I got it before the FDA said anything, but i’m ready to wait for a booster shot. Know why we need boosters? Because of the Delta variant. My partner is so precious to me, I told him he’s getting the booster shot. I said he would die if he caught Delta. Our caregiver is amazing, but we don’t get enough time with her. We have two cartons of eggs in our fridge, and she hasn’t used them yet. She’s unvaccinated, and I hope not a victim of delta. But it’s only a matter of time, and strange clients, that she could catch covid. We’ve got lots of other reasons to get the vaccine, including I want to be able to go places, and do things, and go to concerts. Garth Brooks has canceled all five of his remaining shows. Is that fair? Covid is the top reason venues are actively canceling concerts. If you want concerts, get the vaccine. It’s the only way you can stay out of the ICU beds that are needed for other care. I have a buddy with cancer who needs treatment, but covid really messed everything up for her. Please consider she needs a place to go for treatment.

Another Christian school in Colorado … Valor Is Not Valor so Shut it Down

Dear readers,

I’d like to let you all know there is a disturbing trend going on in Christian and Catholic schools. A pair of teachers at a Colorado school called Valor Christian were asked to resign, and it was due to their being in relationships that went against the so called teachings at this school. Many LGBTQI+ students get disrespected and discriminated against, called the child’s assigned gender pronouns at birth, not the ones they express and identify as. This school must understand that they’re not alone.

There is more than one incident where a school banned the rainbow symbol, tried to be the God and Gender police, and their strict uniform dress codes scream, “Rape culture.” St. Teresa’s School could become one of many Christian and Catholic schools not affirming the lives of transgender students, gay students, and many more. The students who demonstrated outside Valor Christian, as I will say, have my blessing. You don’t even need the blessing of any particular person to know that Christian schools are abusing your tax dollars to abuse gay students. The father god complex that one woman historian talks about in her book Who Cooked the Last Supper is so present that it has the gall to abuse anyone who doesn’t worship this so called God the Father.

As a Christian school alum, I want to condemn and deplore all Christian private schools who abuse gay kids. IF you don’t call my child my daugher, not biological son, I will do what is necessary to shut down your school. IF you don’t respect my daughter’s or son’s or my child’s homosexual or gender fluid relationships, I will shut down the school. The bigotry and my buck stops here.

Beth

You Don’t Want to See This In Your Mailbox …

Dear readers,

Author’s Note: Before I begin, I just want you guys to know who I’m writing to, but I will not put the customary Beth Taurasi or anything below the Sincerely line of the following prose. Why, you ask. Well, let’s get this out here. I hope you Harry Potter fans are ready for this dark satire of the sad and tragic life of Dudley Dursley, the spoiled rotten idiot son of Aunt Petunia and Uncle Vernon. Petunia and Vernon should be familiar to you HP fans out there. Dudley at the time of this letter is a junior at Smeltings Private School, and I thought we’d have a little fun throwing Dudley under the proverbial bus. After using his little cousin Harry, the noble and most awesome Wizard of the House of Potter, and beating up thousands perhaps, maybe all of the children of Little Winging, I want to make something clear. He should have been expelled and transferred to St. Brutus’s himself. So, below this line, here comes the letter that if you are Mr. and Mrs. Dursley, you don’t want to see in your mailbox. …

Dear Mr. and Mrs. Dursley,

As Headmaster of Smeltings Private School, it is my job to educate hungry young minds. It is also our job to keep the young men and women who attend this private school safe. As your headmaster, I have noticed thousands of instances where your son, Dudley Dursley, has been bullying younger children. Just because he is the Junior Inter-School Boxing Champion, that doesn’t give him license to practically knock unconscious any student that he doesn’t like. His marks are atrocious, I’ll say that right now. And even with a year’s worth of hard dieting, thank you both for trying to follow the diet sheet the nurse sent him home with the year before, or more, he is still not up to snuff weight wise. HE certainly has grown stronger, but he’s been under investigation for bullying so many times, so many in fact that I have to break the news to you all. We’re going to expel him permanently from Smeltings Private School.

The investigations we’ve been performing, as the board of trustees tells me, involve Dudley doing a number of bad and otherwise criminal things. These things include but are not limited to bullying, rape, battery of all sorts, robbery and kidnapping. The crown Prosecution will have Dudley for breakfast. To prevent further instances of bullying, we have also expelled all of the gang members that have been following him around like disciples of Jesus. These followers include Piers Pulkiss. We’re sorry we have to do this, but again, the Crown Prosecution will have these boys for breakfast. The last straw was an incident where Dudley and his gang beat up a twelve-year-old girl on a park bench out in the garden near the school’s baseball field. the girl will be testifying against Dudley Dursley, who at this pointn the Crown has chosen to charge him with bullying at school, assault, sexual battery, simple battery, and a whole host of other charges. No, he can’t get out of this one.

The twelve-year-old Jane Doh will not give her name, so please refrain from contacting her. I along with the Board of trustees at Smeltings and the Crown Prosecution will recommend that Dudley not ever contact any of his friends, Piers, Malcom, Gordon, and others who have been following him around. None of these boys will be allowed to associate with one another. As this is very hard on all of us involved, we want to tell you that you must teach Dudley to hold himself accountable for all bullying and battery incidents, including that of Jane Doh, age 12, and other incidents we’ve recorded in our school files. Dudley Dursley will be removed from the boxing squad, so please return his uniform.

We regrettably cannot refund you and your family for sending your son here only to be expelled. Please drop off all school uniform clothing at the back of the school, and go immediately to my office. There will be paperwork to sign, seal, and deliver. Regrettably, we cannot reverse this decision because the Crown Prosecution has spoken. Britain’s schools should never tolerate this type of behavior, and we do not have any words to say to mitigate what Dudley has done.

Sincerely,

Your Smeltings board of Trustees,

Your Smeltings Headmaster,

and the Smeltings staff

Asking for Help is Not a Crime: Addressing Independence Police On Social Media

Dear readers,

For season 4 of my podcast, I’m going to address a problem that keeps happening every time I ask for a simple favor. I get bullied. There are two people responsible for bullying on a post I created so that only local people were supposed to comment, but unfortunately, a blind keyboard warrior from Florida and a dude who lives too far away in Grand Junction in my backyard commented rudely and rather in a nasty way about my capacity to help and do things for myself. This is not the way to respond to posts asking for help, and I get terrible comments about this stuff all the time. Antibullying programs in school apparently haven’t been enough to teach these people not to bully, and their kids will likely be bullies too because of their bad modeling behavior. There is a really big problem with the woman who sent me the comments, saying, “I’m going to be perfectly honest, but …” She went in and said I was not capable of doing anything at all, and truthfully, that’s not the case. It’s lies like the ones told by the woman who sent me that comment that could get me guardianized again. Britney Spears is already under investigation for striking someone, but guess what? That employee probably did or said something to provoke it. Britney is under a lot of stress from an abusive conservatorship, and I was under such from an abusive prison called a guardianship.

As for my capacity not to do things for myself, I warn you all. Do not write lies and tell lies about my capacity to anyone at all, I don’t care if it’s your social worker or my social worker, my colleagues in DWC or a colleague at work. Do not tell anyone or mention my name about every time I am incapable or something. The terrible comments must stop, I have warned you all. Thankfully, the comments here on WordPress are not allowed to happen because of people like the Florida woman and the Colorado man. These people are trying to get me down, but I warn you all, if you so much as whisper comments about my incapacity which isn’t true at all to people such as a colleague at work, my caseworker, social workers in your state, or anywhere else, I will hear about it. And I won’t go with a professional guardian because I have no money. I want to be able to see friends and my partner, and my in laws. My mother in law is already having tough times, and her adoptive mother and my grandfather are both diagnosed with dementia. It is hard to watch the dementia symptoms progress with those two people, my grandfather being the man who used to read spy novels, make pancakes, and ride his Harley Davidson around Lake Mary or Pensacola. My papa is going to die with the knowledge that he was loved and supported, but the lies about me continue. So who are the bullies so vehemently against me? One of them I was on Messenger audio with, just talking and we just talked like old friends. I can’t believe this guy would do something stupid like this.

There were a few friends who left me nice comments. I want to thank the following people who actually make me believe that humanity is good: first, my buddy Megan who lives not far from my backyard. Next, my buddy Marinela who is the nerdieset chic on Earth and in the whole universe and she’s always going to convention stuff and I absolutely adore her makeup. Even if I can’t wear makeup, not that I wouldn’t wear it, I look better without it anyway. Nothing too personal, but I don’t like makeup and I’m not a good makeup artist. But I swear Marinela’s makeup pallets are interesting, and I wish I had the vision to do makeup like she does, but I’m fine with a professional makeup artist doing my makeup if I absolutely must do it for the stage. Thank you though, Marinela, for being cool. Then there’s Kelly, who lives in Texas, who is the most amazing person I’ve met so far. Kelly is so empathetic to people, and I can’t tell you how many times she’s told me something real. Then there’s Clayton, and by the way, it will be Clayton’s birthday on Saturday. I want my readers to know that this birthday boy knows a few nooks and crannies in the world that I may never have thought of. It’s a struggle, he says, to get help as a blind person because the sighted don’t want us to exist. Sadly, he’s correct on that for some reasons. They include that blindness is feared, as Rosemary Mahoney wrote in one article I read of hers. Examples of feared blindness include when a boy or girl is born blind in places like Africa or Tibet, the family may lose their land and their child would have to die. There was a father in Mexico who tried to make his blind son die via a Roman Catholic mass. This is how much parents, adults in general, and some kids, fear blindness. What I fear most is not blindness itself. I’m sitting here at my desk, typing this blog on a macintosh intel computer, and I’m capable of expressing my thoughts, so what the hell these people did was really stupid. Any unfriending and so on will have to be done with my permission. In fact, it can’t happen because now I have to cope with the nasty comments the bullies left me on Facebook and other social media accounts. There are many teens who aren’t disabled who commit suicide because of commentary that is deeply hurtful. I cried of course, but that’s inevitable. I have a few things I want everybody on social media to do. And it has nothing to do with killing somebody, making things unsafe, or anything at all. But it has to do with empathy, and the empathy has to be built.

  1. First and foremost, say your comments out loud before you attempt to write them down. This coming from my buddy Christine, from Pennsylvania, and it might help in some ways. If the words come out nasty, do not put them down on paper. Think about these comments and their tone, and would you say this to a best friend? Your grandmother? If not, do not write them down.
  2. Go to someone you don’t normally want to work with. This is something I would recommend you do with DVR or a workplace. Offer to buy that person who is always being sexually harassed or bullied a cup of coffee, a can of pop, whatever they ask for. Sit down and talk to that person, ask them how they’re doing, and watch what they say. When I am asked how my day is, sometimes I will say, good. Or if it’s super crappy, I’ll admit it. Listen carefully to the tone of the person’s response, and dig a little deeper. This is a serious thing that could lead to you possibly making friends, or even helping a person in need.
  3. For those who are straight conservatives, I have a dare for you. If you’re a guy, dress up like a drag queen. Get the best costume you can get, and wear it to work. Or if you’re really not in the mood, wear a shirt that presents a liberal cause, example might be something that supports gay and lesbian and transgender people. Also, if you are someone who knows someone with cancer, do the following.
  4. If you know a friend or colleague at work who has had their hair fall off because of cancer, shave your damn head. I would do it if someone I knew had cancer. Trust me. If I found out my dad was bald, well, it would be one of two things: male pattern baldness or cancer. Male pattern baldness is not a shameful thing, and women who lose their hair to anything should never be shamed for it. So if you know a colleague at work, a friend, or family member who has cancer, allopesia or anything else, just shave your head or if you can’t shave your head, the wig comes off and you show your skin.

These things are all great empathy building tools for adults, but here are some that kids can do. Most of the things also apply to adults.

  1. If your parents are acting strangely on FB, ask them why. But log in your brain that this behavior is bad, unacceptable, and wrong. When you’re at school, watch the playground. Who gets bullied the most? Watch your social media accounts for cyberbullying.
  2. If you or a friend is being bullied, tell a teacher or grown up person, otherwise known as a family friend or adult you can trust, about it. Tell the principal if you have to.
  3. IF you have to, work with law enforcement to get the bullies off your tail. Just make sure you gather the screenshots, evidence, documents, etc. Parents, make sure you have something such as Net Nanny Social, or some other monitoring software and let your child know what’s up. All evidence of cyber bullying should be reported to your child’s school or principal.

Thank you for reading. I will have to address this problem in the podcast if anyone even so much as tries to incapacitate me in comments again.

Beth