Dear Diary,
It really makes me sick that anyone would do what Carol and Ashley are doing to each other. Seems Ashley and Carol aren’t getting along. I’m a bit worried. But more so, I’m worried that friends are saying that I abuse Blake. What? Excuse me, but I thought Blake loved me, and people don’t realize that I love Blake more than the world itself. Blake is just one little star in the sky, but to me, he shines brighter than all of them. Blake is something that I love, someone I love, somehow the only person who I will trust myself with. I’m done with men after II supposedly lose Blake. He said, and I quote, “If this escalates to drama, I will ask for my freedom back.” What? You imply that the relationship I wanted with you is like a prison. Well, Blake, you don’t seem to get it. You don’t seem to get it all. You’re not being confined to prison, not unless your mother and dad exploit your blindness as a disabling condition that disables you from taking care of yourself, takes away your civil rights, then tells you that they don’t wanna hear anything about civil rights for the blind. Well, mom and dad, after you don’t wanna hear about my civil rights, I think it would be best to cut you guys out. You did not express interest in coming to see me on the basis of hanging out or wanting to know more, and you didn’t see what was here. I’m doing my darndest to keep food in the fridge and pantry, food on my table, food, food, and more food. I’m doing my darndest to keep the money from going too far in the negative, but you can’t put enough in my account. I don’t give a care about finances at this point because all you want me to have is SSI and food stamps. YIou neglect seeing me and don’t support me as well as you did Danny and Tommy in their adolescent years. You spent over thousands of dollars on track stuff, a trumpet for Danny, and athletic shoes and … you all’s obsession with fitness has taken me out of the picture. You love to go running, and that’s not an activity I enjoy. You obsess about NASCAR, football, basketball, and so on, without including me in conversations. That is unacceptable. Blake watches baseball and football and NASCAR and basketball, but does he exclude me from his life to go trash his living room and watch sports all day? Well, no. I have a rule: if the guy is obsessed with videogames, sports, and violence, I don’t take him. Case in point, Ben and Aaron. No, not Ben Bloomgren, Blake, but Ben Breen. NOthing against Breen, but he and Reed, Aaron Reed, are obsessed with videogames. How many hours does Breen clock in with his Xbox and play Injustice? Does he have a job? No to the job, and many hours to the videogames. What is wrong with this picture? Aaron Reed is a twenty something grown adult, doesn’t have a job, and does not do anything with his life but date women and not even think about using Kentucky’s Rehab resources to get a job. Sadly, this is a prevalent problem with so many people who are blind, and males are affected most of the time by this thing. Jason Owens, the subject of harassment cases and a bully himself, is obsessed with porn, violent acts, and depraved online sex with women. Look at the sounds he puts into SpongeBob edits and episodes. Some of those edits have to do with “sexual intercourse”, “sex with children”, etc. While some of these are funny, they do not exactly constitute someone who is not supportive of a violent culture or sexually depraved culture. Well, Mom and Dad, you advocate a fit culture that excludes the disabled, and do not support my relationship with Blake. Therefore if you act any further in a negative way toward me and Blake, we will disown and cut you off and won’t let you see our kids. Blake and I want to have kids naturally and save money on adoptions from China and India and such. Blake and I wouldn’t be able to afford an adoption from Vietnam even. Only Vietnamese families it seems are allowed to adopt blind girls, and so many of them are left in orphanages. We want kids, and the only way to do it is to do it naturally, good old conception and pregnancy and all. Don’t like it, Mom, Dad, and others? Too bad. And Blake, I would never confine you to anything, so don’t ask for freedom, and there’s no freedom in this world for us. We don’t have freedom to do anything easily. Open a sighted person’s eyes and they automatically have access to a world of knowledge and books and research materials. For us, PDF files have to be made accessible, webites have to have everything labeled, and there’s no way to learn cooking unless hand over hand is used. Some parents are not qualified for the discovery method. Forget it. I don’t think any parents who are sighted and have never had blind kids in their entire lives are qualified, except for Cathy Babcock, who among other things cares about people with specialties. Needs like blindness are always on Cathy’s mind. I love that lady, even if she does not love me. I don’t care if she cares, I care. It doesn’t matter. Other parents, like my mom and perhaps others, are not qualified because they don’t have exposure to groups like ACB and NFB who can help. Blake and I really need to be supported by others, and it seems nobody cares at all about our cause. We want to end bullying online in all states, but we want to start in Georgia and the South. Sounds weird, but true.
As I write, I’m not able to get too much sleep, and I swear if I sleep during the day, I’m dead. Dead. I wish I was able to sleep at night and at night only, EVERY DAY! But alas, I’m blind and have no light perception. I don’t want to take a med that has the side effect of nightmares and hasn’t been studied in preconception and pregnant women. Forget it.
That’s all I have to say at this moment.
\Beth”
Month: July 2014
ISRAEL / ARABS: 66 YEARS OF ENDLESS DEATH!
Israel needs to stop this barbaric attack on Muslims altogether. If you want to be tolerant, don’t tolerate the bad stuff: forced marriage, FGM, so on. But do not obliterate all of Islam. As a former Muslim myself, I’m free to leave it as I’m an American, but let’s face this fact: not all Islam has to be bad. There are liberal Muslims and there are the radicals. Hammas is radical, and they think that helping blind Palestinians will endear them to blind folks and people in general, but they are not endearing to me. Hammas uses suicide bombers and violence to get their point across. Anyone caught using violence to get their point across should be banned from governing a country, period. I would highly recommend, for instance, my boyfriend as President of the United States. Why? He had many role models who did not use tae kwon do in its physical aspects to confront a bully. If someone picked on Blake, he quietly walked away, which is a tae kwon do discipline. The first thing you’re taught to do is confront the person with words, actions, etc., and not violence. That’s great.
New Link for Petition
This is a new link for the petition. I’m posting this as a reminder for all those who haven’t signed. Criminal is just too strong a word to describe Jason, so I decided to go with “perpetrator.” I don’t want a misworded headline to go to the sheriff’s department and they think Jason has a prior criminal record. That’s just all I have to say here.
A Petition … And Some Business
Dear People Who read This Blog,
I’m going to post a link here, and I hope you all can sign this. Let me give a bit of background. In a previous post, I wrote about why I’m not speaking to my ex, Jason Owens, again. Honestly, the guy was a “prick” as my friend Clint likes to put it. He likes to put virus infected files in people’s computers, then today, he denies the trackware. Carol has all the files, I’m sure at least. But Blake doesn’t like what’s going on. I want to tell you guys that only 11 people signed my petition to put an end to cyber harassment between Jason and all his victims. But we have an enemy in a lady, someone named K.E. I won’t identify her because of privacy reasons. The reasons I won’t identify her are that she’s already on the page. I’m sorry, but there’s no need to harass or bully anyone else. Jason has a lot of weird stuff in his page. I should have a video on why this petition is valid, but I can’t put pics and videos on here because I’m blind. We don’t listen to blind people often, and that’s because nobody seems to care about us. We’re vulnerable and nobody wants to help us stay safe online. Jason is stalking people, and even I was accused of having an illegitimate relationship with Blake. I won’t wait any more to see Blake, and I want to see him because we’re supposed to be dating, no, married. Why did I even date Jason? Anyway, I’ve got files of him bullying and making Jennifer Weaver cry. Jennifer Weaver cried like crazy a lot when she was dating Jason. Sadly, Carol was the same way. I cried a bunch when I dated the man. Well, all I can say is big Bubba is on his way. lol
Here’s the link:
https://www.change.org/petitions/macon-ga-police-department-sheriff-david-davis-and-others-stop-a-cyber-harassment-criminal-from-targeting-girls-with-disabilities#invite
Hope this helps
Goodbye Jason
Well, it’s been a crazy two days, and I finally have the courage to write this.
Dear Jason Owens,
Yes, I guess this is truly goodbye. We’re not going to be friends as I thought it would happen. Jason, what you were doing over the last two days is unacceptable and constitutes sexual harassment. This isn’t Gone with the Wind, so fess up. You hacked Carol Weeks’s computer, and she had to uninstall your stupid trackware or … well, I don’t think there was any trackware in your ex’s pc. You desire her, but going about it in such a horrible way constitutes harassment. Kids call it bullying. Well, we’re adults now, so let’s talk … for the last time.
First off, when I met you, I thought you were ok. Well, you’re not. Here’s why:
1. You said women were empty headed and brainless, sort of like Scarlet O,Hara from Gone with the Wind. Well, Katie Scarlet isn’t brainless. She was a woman of her time, marrying men, wanting others. Yes, Melanie Hamilton was a woman of her time, marrying a cousin. Sorry to say, but you were right about the Chrome Disease. I propose that you think about what you said to me shortly after I got back from Atlanta. When I went back to Denver, you held me hostage. First off, Deq is a friend, not a sideline boyfriend and at that time, I always loved you. Well, so did Carol, but we’ll get to that later.
2. You played games you shouldn’t’ve played with me. Jason, because of you making me yell at you so much, i lost a home from a friend. It is not fair. She shut off my Internet and changed the password without my prior knowledge or even telling me she’d do it. Then, she kicked me out of the household. Jason, you are responsible from here on out for this kind of unfair advantage and … on top of this, you are responsible for not being nice at all. The second time I flew in, it was to try and get the love spark back, but face this: you blew your chances of having me again. Jason, I wanted stable housing, a husband, food on the table, etc. I want what every other woman wants, not to be named the property of her husband. Jason, you used hate speech against me and others you’ve dated, including Jennifer Weaver. Do NOT turn the tables against me, EVER! I’m not going to be a victim of your stupid games. No. I won’t.
3. After we broke up, you used blocking and so on to force me not to communicate with you. I had no one to talk to, and you left me thinking I’d never get another boyfriend. I decided that, given the way Americans were treating me at that time, with the exception of Blake, I wouldn’t talk to any of my American blind friends any more. I tried, and failed, to entreat a British man to date and marry me. Ben Breen was the man of my desires, but he turned out to be too much of a gamer. First off, Injustice is a great game. No kidding. I love the way Ben played it. His friend Aaron talks to me from time to time, but Aaron is a sweetie, never has left my mind, and his parents are shocked that anyone’s parents would take civil rights from another. Well, the Danvers-Jukes family is commended for what they’ve said. Your family? Jason, … I don’t have any words to express to you about your own family. Your mother literally doesn’t discipline you. You need a good spanking for the things you did to Carol. See next item.
4. You dated Jennifer Weaver. Well, I was blamed for Jennifer’s seizures. Well, when she dies, and her hourglass is empty, I and you won’t be there. I’ll probably be talking to others, making love with Blake, maybe raising a child or two. I don’t know exactly what my life will do at that point. Well, you make Jennifer look bad, then you made Carol look bad. I think Carol’s friend Cheyenne was smarter than you think. Well, Carol Ann is the best person I know of, and she calls me her “sissy.” Otherwise known as a sister. We’re sisters. I like being sisters with Carol and … yes, Ashley. I’m sorry, but Ashley said the best things yet about Carol, and she doesn’t like you either. What I witnessed the other night was a classic case of cyber harassment. Jason, that’s a felony. You will never hear from Carol again. EVER! Why? You put viruses on people’s computers. I’m gonna have to get someone else to supply me with some instrumentals and not you. I can’t trust you anymore because you cost me a few people as friends. I’ll say this, you also cost Carol her then boyfriend Jonathan. Now, she has no one to date. I’m guarding Blake like he’s a diamond in the rough. Wel, I’d rather be with Blake at the moment than have to deal with you. I ask myself frequently these questions:
1. Why didn’t I just answer Deq’s phone calls?
2. Why oh why did I not answer Blake’s calls when he called me?
Well, Jason Owens, I’m afraid my time here is over. You can’t bully or harass any of us girls any more. We hope you enjoyed the Information Superhighway known as the Internet. For all we know, you have made too many enemies and frenemies on the Net. LEt me give you a disclaimer: I did not intend for this thing to be hate speech. This is a tribute to all the bad Jason has done.
Yes, there was a good time or two we had. Jason, I so wish I could turn back time and bring back the good Jason that existed to please his friends. Why are you de-aging so quickly? Your mental age is probably that of a twelve-year-old boy, but a psychologist will have to evaluate you and see what the damage is, as Dr. Wonka puts it in Charlie and the Chocolate Factory. Jason, I’d rather you stop and think about some court cases. There was a boy in Pennsylvania who wrote a website c alled Teacher Sucks. He wrote lots of hate speech against the teacher. It was obvious that the boy’s algebra teacher was threatened, and the principal too. Well, I’ll be honest, it wasn’t a good outcome for the boy. Let’s try a case that is more like the Megan Meier case. I could’ve hanged myself in the shower because of your hate speech against me, and the abuses you did. Carol said, and I quote, “I want to die” when you messaged her about her personal crap. Sorry, Jason, but that constitutes hate speech, whether with or without a fake male profile. You thankfully are real, but unthankfully are a real guy. You’re not “Josh Evans”, but you sure do act like it sometimes. Jason, you could’ve been a lot nicer to Carol. When a block comes up, do not unblock yourself and get around it. Do not chase Carol on the Internet any more. Do not ever chase me, Ashley, or Blake either. Blake is keeping an eye on his ladies, making sure they are all happy and safe. Of course, we don’t like some of the crap you pulled the other day. When you said that Ashley’s rape was her fault, you constituted sexist hate speech. Jason, Ashley could broadcast it all over the world. But she did the right thing by reporting it. I hope the Skype staff does something about the hateful things you’ve said to all your victims. Recordings or otherwise, you better delete those dastardly things and go to your toilet somewhere else.
Jason, as John Denver said once, “Goodbye again, I”m sorry to believe in you. Goodbye again, I didn’t know it’s goodbye again …” Yes, and this time, for the last time, I will never hear from your sorry butt again. I”m going to marry Blake, make kids with him someday, and maybe even grow old with him.
We’ll be able to say, as Allan Jackson said in a song, “Remember when.”
Installing Your Husband
HEre’s a funny for those of us geeks considering marriage. Ladies, this is a good little light hearted thing that should indeed tell you how men are.
Installing Your Husband…
Dear Tech Support,
Last year I upgraded from Boyfriend 5.0 to Husband 1.0 and noticed a distinct slow down in overall system performance, particularly in the flower and jewelry applications, which operated flawlessly under Boyfriend 5.0.
In addition, Husband 1.0 uninstalled many other valuable programs, such as Romance 9.5 and Personal Attention 6.5 and then installed undesirable programs such as NBA 5.0, NFL 3.0 and Golf Clubs 4.1.
Conversation 8.0 no longer runs, and Housecleaning 2.6 simply crashes the system. I’ve tried running Nagging 5.3 to fix these problems, but to no avail. What can I do?
Signed, Desperate
*****
DEAR DESPERATE,
First keep in mind, Boyfriend 5.0 is an Entertainment Package, while Husband 1.0 is an Operating System.
Please enter command: ithoughtyoulovedme.html and try to download Tears 6.2 and don’t forget to install the Guilt 3.0 update.
If that application works as designed, Husband 1.0 should then automatically run the applications Jewelry 2.0 and Flowers 3.5.But remember, overuse of the above application can cause Husband 1.0 to default to Grumpy Silence 2.5, Happy Hour 7.0 or Beer 6.1.
Please note that Beer 6.1 is a very bad program that will download the Snoring Loudly Beta.
Whatever you do, DO NOT install Mother-In-Law 1.0 (it runs a virus in the background that will eventually seize control of all your system resources.)
Also do not attempt to reinstall Boyfriend 5.0 program. unsupported applications and will crash Husband 1.0.
In summary, Husband 1.0 is a great program, but it does have limited memory and cannot learn new applications quickly.
You might consider buying additional software to improve memory and performance.
We recommend Cooking 3.0 and Hot Lingerie 7.7.
Good Luck, Tech Support
P.S. Blake is at this point Boyfriend 7.0, and even if I install him as Husband 1.0, he’ll still run Love 1.0 and Special Attention 5.0.
Laugh out loud,
Beth
Thoughts on work
Dear diary, new line what to think about work right now. I think late, the sweetest thing and how are you is there something even more than just what he has. I am 2 seconds away from dropping rehab, moving to arizona. Reason? Because they want me to do a trial work. They do not think I could benefit from the services, I don’t care if they think I can or not, I want to work and earn money and do something to get me out of already. Some dtt tired of being below the poverty line it is not even funny. Afford to just into an apartment. Still out lot of paperwork. Have to submit a birth certificate to the complex. Wait long years for an apartment that is big enough for both me and blake. This is ridiculous. I wish it would stop. Really. In half. Otherwise anyone doesn’t know something about this,
Resolution on TV screens
Is a resolution I made up while I was hanging out with art. Since the NFB is so proud of their resolutions, I thought it would be cool to do something that the NFB has yet failed to do. We talked about how annoying it is to have the number on your screen thing on a television commercial. It says quote call the number on your screen. Quote that it is so bad. So here it is. Here is a resolution about television commercials and quote the number on your screen. Quote
Enter whereas, people like to watch TV. And whereas, people like to watch commercials.
Whereas, people really like to buy products, barring none. And whereas, the National Federation of the blind does not like it if someone is not able to see something on a screen because there are different product that people sell on television where the number is posted on the screen and not read out loud, and enter whereas, this discriminatory practice of saying quote call the number on your screen quote is bad for us and bad for the blind and purposely excludes the blind from buying a certain product, and enter whereas, if you want to buy the product, you need to be able to see the screen, & a television set is not a very good source of information if the number is not described even once twice or three times.,
Now therefore be it resolved this whatever day it is or whatever it happens to be on the convention floor, that we, the National Federation of the blind, condemned for any company who uses such a quote as quote call the number on your sc nevermind. reen quote to sell a product on television.
Enter we are so annoyed by this, but I’m sure you will find this resolution hysterical
Happy 4th part 2
AMERICA, AMERICA, I love you so so much. But fireworks and endless quirks could set me with a crush. Haha. Just thought I might get rid of that sort of steam before I say this. Blake’s dad is weird. And I had a pimple on my face that would not go away. So, of course I had to pop it. Anyway, one of my friends is calling me. Good lord, 4th of July will be so boring without blake. I wish blake actually live here. It would be so much nicer if blake did live with me. That way, we would hav a valide relationship. And nobody would tell us what to do. We would do our own dishes, cook our own food, etc etc that’s
Happy 4th of July
It is a very funny day. Fourth of july really matters to me. Anyway um. Um, yes um. I hate the word um. Um sucks. It makes me wonder why I’m not articulate enough to write a post like this. The way, blake is in phoenix. And he’s doing just fine. His dad just being a dad. There are times I wish I could friday mcallister and skillet. But, it’s just weirdness. Blake knows exactly why I want to fry’s dad sometimes. It has to do with the way play cabin don’t with. Anyway, talking to carry on skype. Will leave you
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