Covid, Vaccines, and Why Science Works

Dear readers,

Please read if you really care about other people. So here goes.

Covid is a bad virus, and it kills. I have a buddy who lost both her parents to Covid 19, and it sucks. For her, she will never have Thanksgiving and Christmas gatherings for her children at the parents’ house again. Both parents being gone, her young daughters will have to cope with the loss of Grandpa and Grandma.

When I got the vaccine, I felt freer. Of course, I understand where some people are coming from. However, you should try and get the vaccine because you don’t want your parents and grandparents to die of a needless pandemic. If you have an elderly relative in a nursing home, please do me a favor and get the vaccine. Phiser has an FDA approved vaccine, and I got it before the FDA said anything, but i’m ready to wait for a booster shot. Know why we need boosters? Because of the Delta variant. My partner is so precious to me, I told him he’s getting the booster shot. I said he would die if he caught Delta. Our caregiver is amazing, but we don’t get enough time with her. We have two cartons of eggs in our fridge, and she hasn’t used them yet. She’s unvaccinated, and I hope not a victim of delta. But it’s only a matter of time, and strange clients, that she could catch covid. We’ve got lots of other reasons to get the vaccine, including I want to be able to go places, and do things, and go to concerts. Garth Brooks has canceled all five of his remaining shows. Is that fair? Covid is the top reason venues are actively canceling concerts. If you want concerts, get the vaccine. It’s the only way you can stay out of the ICU beds that are needed for other care. I have a buddy with cancer who needs treatment, but covid really messed everything up for her. Please consider she needs a place to go for treatment.

Before you travel to Euroope, read this important and timely book.

Dear readers,

So you want to go to the Eiffel Tower in Paris, France, or you want to order a beer at an actual German beer cafe or something, or perhaps you want to visit museums in Italy or the UK. You make your travel reservations, and then when you fly into Amsterdam, you want to see all the wonders that the Dutch bring to our world, but then … oh no. Some guy just cornered you and is staring at you because he wants sex. Is that what you want your European vacation to include?

If you are wondering why I wrote this, read Ayaan Hirsi Ali’s new book, entitled Prey and find out more about Europe’s problems with Muslim majority countries, and moreover its problems regarding women and females of all types being groped, stared at, intimidated. The book has a big trigger warning, so bear that in mind. However, Hirsi Ali does it again. She’s a women’s rights advocate and though she may not be a lawyer of sorts, Ayaan’s book reads like a big giant sociology project on Europe. Here’s some of the summary details of what she says in this new book. I know some of you will cringe thinking about this, but these are important details.

Ayaan Hirsi Ali takes two years out of the more recent, and gobbles up lots of news reports from those years, 2015-2016. In this book, she summarizes many attacks on women by asylum seeker men from different countries. I know where she’s going. But to summarize, she also says that immigration done right is the answer. She points out a lot is wrong with European justice systems, and because of the men in her attack profiles, most of them from Africa and the Middle East, attacking European women and getting away with practically anything, she says liberal feminists aren’t being taken seriously. We know that in prior books, Hirsi Ali summarized the security she’d been living with for lengths of time. Ayaan’s bodyguard of whatever is necessary because she gets death threats. I personally would never touch her with a ten foot pole, but I would want to meet this woman. I practically idolize her stuff, and I’ve dealt with the same sorts of things she has in regards to men. Not all men would leer at me, but some do. Some think I have a nice butt, but I have to use a bit of humor to throw it back in their faces. That doesn’t always sit well with some. Now, what would Ayaan Hirsi Ali want us to do in Europe if we’re women? Well, here’s the deal.

First, don’t walk out in the nude. These guys really think that if you walk out there naked, you’re asking for it. However, if you do want to walk out in the nude, carry mace or sprays with you. I would carry mace even here in the States because there are just some guys who won’t leave you alone if you are in their presence.

I’d require all girls seeking to do European trips to go in groups. A travel group would require you to do a curfew and be back at a certain time, and you would need to be carefully monitored as to where you are. Traveling alone is not advisable especially for females at this time. But then again, you want to avoid another Natalie Holloway, and this means you don’t want to end up on everybody’s disappearing list on the newspapers, as Holloway did. She was in Aruba, having a lot of fun, but then she started drinking. This leads to my next thing.

I’d drink responsibly in Germany. Or Ireland, UK, or anywhere else. I’d drink only a certain amount and then go right back into soft drinks and so on. Germany is a good example of a country that doesn’t let you drink if you’re not eighteen or can’t reach the beer bar. If anything, drinking is part of the cultures in the European countries you’d likely visit, so be prepared to make sure you do drink responsibly.

For LGBTQI+ travelers, again go in a group. You might have to forego walking hand in hand in certain areas with your partner given the way people might leer at you, and it isn’t even the native born species doing it.

Make sure you check in with friends and family back home regularly. IF someone attacks your travel group, prepare to defend the group and tell the local police about it. Also, get a phrasebook of the native language so you can identify words for things like, “some guy groped me” or “Some guy wanted my money.” Don’t hesitate to try out the native language if that’s what you need to do. Example, if I’m attacked in Germany, I want to tell the local police in German that “I was attacked by a guy wearing a green skull cap and I took his shirt off. He sounded like some dude from Morocco.” IF you are fluent in German, that’s all well and good. However, if some guy is attacking someone who doesn’t know the native language of the country, just try your best to describe your attack in English, of course. Most European schoolchildren today are learning English, but don’t take this for granted. You want to tell the police that your attacker was this guy who looked a certain way and wore such and such. Same thing you would do in America.

Do not let anyone walk you home. As weird as it sounds, it’s essential that only group members walk each other home.

Make sure your stuff is accounted for before and after your trip. Make sure you have all your papers in order, and if you’ve been attacked, be sure you take care of this situation with a group member partnered with you before you fly home.

As much as I’d like to say someone should walk a girl home, it’s not possible anymore. Knowing the language would make you less of a target to enemies and strangers. Example, if you visit Norway, know your Norwegian like the back of your head. There are two dialects within the language, so learn them both. Get your Norwegian in gear so you can communicate with a Norwegian policeman or woman or whoever if you get assaulted. This way, you can describe the crime that was committed against you. It would also help to learn a bit of Arabic, or even Berber, or some other languages so that if you can figure out what the attacker is doing, you can yell at him in his own tongue. That might scare the crap out of him, and knowing what to say when will get you far on the road to a successful trip to Europe. Now you can move on and look at wines and beautiful paintings and stare at stuff at all times and not worry as much.

Beth

The NFB and voter suppression

Dear readers,

While most of the NFB resolutions are about tech toys, what usual stuff, and NLS and other provisions, I think voter suppression should be discussed. The NFB got it right this time. While the NFB surely didn’t impose its will on Facebook and other websites, it must do something about voter suppression. Suppressing votes in the name of Gilead must stop. Here’s why.

When you go to vote, there’s something you have to remember. Votingn is a private and sacred part of Democracy. Georgia and Florida suppressed that right to black individuals and not surprisingly, to blind ones too. They made it cumbersome and impossible because they don’t like us, don’t want us, and want to hold on to the status quo. So what to do in this case.

Follow the legal ball. Put lawsuits in as many courts as possible. There is no structured negotiation with voter suppression. You must sue. Suing is not something you want to do openly, but suing is the only way to tell people that this is a big mistake. We also need to remove Trump appointees to the bench, somehow and someway and put ethics investigations on them. We need to dig through Amy Coney Barrett’s garbage, for example, and find essays that she wrote favoring Catholics over UU’s for example. I’d get the National Enquirer to do that. Tabloids are one good way to manipulate the public ire against people like Brent Cavanaugh. That guy got in even though someone said he made her look bad and at her expense, had fun. Cavanaugh used the disabled as his saints so he could get into the supreme Court. Ethics violation? Let’s dig through the garbage.

Next, we need to replace the Trump appointees with more UU oriented and America oriented court appointees who will write logically better essays, stop quoting papers from Notre Dame, and people who will allow black lives to matter, strike down voter suppression, and make the country livable and safe for LGBTQI+ parents and adults and kids as well. These new appointees need to undo the damage that the extremists we have now are doing. We need to make sure that any new legislation doesn’t make voter suppression and misinformation a thing. So if you’re the National Enquirer or the Esquire magazine, dig through the garbage and see whwat you can find. One man’s trash is another man’s gold mine.

Next, we need a moratorium on guardianships. The NFB fails again and again and again to look at guardianship as an essential blindness issue. IF you have a guardianship, essentially you can’t do anything, including in some places vote. You can’t even have a bank account. You can’t marry the one you love, and Britney Spears has an IUD in her body which prevents pregnancy. Britney and other disabled women in guardianship are essentially treated as dogs or pet kittens to the guardians that do things for them. Britney is like Jamie’s dog rather than his daughter. I don’t say this to insult Britney, but when you forcibly put an IUD in your daughter, you’re saying, you’re my pet, not my daughter. Jamie Lyn, Britney’s sister, needs to be clear with her dad that Britney is a person and will be treated as such.I was treated more or less like a pet dog. And rather than a daughter, I was treated more or less also like a piece of property. My parents took control of my life because they were abusive. They did not and still will not define the action they did as abusive.

The government should also be doing the good work of giving disabled nonworking people more asset. $750 is not a lot to live on and not enough. Neither is $794 or $804. We need an update to the SSI and SSDI program. Luckily, old Joe just fired a Trump holdout in the SSA. Hopefully, he will put some new rules for SSI recipients here, and I will get more, keep more, and marry legally. Since its 1978 or so inception, the SSI program has had no change like this. Marriage penalizing has been present because of ableist thoughts and social exclusion. It’s time for all that to go.

Now I am working with a massive ear infection that is clogging and clogging and clogging up my right ear with wax and wax and more wax. Okay, I’l take that, but it’s too much for me. I’m sitting up right now.

Beth

Britney’s Freedom is My Freedom

Dear Britney spears,

I feel so much for you it isn’t funny. When you revealed you had an IUD put in to prevent you from getting pregnant, I almost died inside. While my birth control pills are a choice, there is a problematic thing about doing IUD or Nexplanon, and this is what it boils down to. Putting things in your body that are implanted is rather invasive, and an IUD can break and you could die. I’m scared for you because of Amy winehouse, the gal behind Rehab, and I love that song. truth is that she committed suicide by alcohol because her stupid father had a conservatorship similar in scope to your own. Britney, I hope you will hear me out.

I was seventeen when my parents declared me unfit to manage my own affairs, got guardianship, and put me away when I tried to have relationships. There’s a girl in Orlando going through the same thing. guardianship and conservatorship is sexist, ableist, and so much bullshit I know what you want when I hear you say it’s abusive. It is, believe me, you don’t want to know what my parents think of me now that I forced them to discharge the guardianship. I had threatened in emails to have them in a restraining order so they couldn’t contact me because guardianships like theirs are cruel and unusual, and the ones who think guardianship is good for. me are usually stupid evil white men. I received a rather trolling comment, hence why you don’t see a comment field in this blog, from a Wes Derby who ultimately said, “Florida was correct in giving your parents guardianship.” I felt so insulted I had to black out all comments, and it wasn’t just Wes’s, it was everybody. He ruined the comment thing for everybody. And it’s not that I don’t want you to comment, Britney, but you can always email me and we can talk. Britney, I know you have a fortune you can’t access, but you have me. I’m against all forms of adult guardianship for all people, and it’s because the system is set up to benefit the bad guys, the parents and professionals, the people who think it’s rather funny when I don’t succeed in life itself. Britney, you have a lot of blessings amid this. You have your sons, you have a fortune worth millions of dollars I’ll never obtain. And because I was called a moron by so many people, I had to shut down the comment discussion here on this blog. If you really want to, write me on FB or Twitter. I’m on Instagram, but I don’t usually put pics up. Britney, you don’t have to worry about suing your family for violating your civil rights. I do. Because I want to have a little Beth or a little Trenton and I will not have any other kids. Siblings will force me to favor one child or another child, so I will not have siblings. My own siblings were favored, my brother that is. And they made very rude comments about me when I was in mental health rehab. I had no drugs, no substance use history, so you know what? There should have been no damn excuse for parents like my own to have a sexist ableist cruel and unusual hold on my whole damn life. They should have let go, and they didn’t for fifteen years. They are ableist, cruel and racist. When. I mention critical race theory, my dad says, oh it won’t affect you. Wrong, it will affect his granddaughter or grandson. I will of course have to keep an eye on my parents, we will have to reconcile somehow, but I can’t do a full reconciliation because that would put my kid in danger. IF it is a female child, I will have to carefully pick who she hangs out with while she’s between one and six, but beyond age six, she needs to have a moral compass. Britney, I will parent my own child better than my mom did. I will not leave her unattended, in a cradle crying, or in a dark room because she did something or other. Britney, I will not let my child be traumatized in the first six years of her life, for those years are the foundation on which she will grow. For another thing, I will teach my kid to be respectful around law enforcement, maybe even connect with law enforcement so they will know my family. My future child will likely be biracial, which means critical race theory does indeed affect her. IF she doesn’t learn about slavery and discrimination and sexism, she will be ignorant and unable to decipher how to make the world a better place.

Let’s just say that the way things are, blind people will not show up at a baby shower for me. So britney, let me promise you this. IF you have a third kid, do send me an invite to your baby shower. We could do a virtual one, and I could buy you something nice, maybe I’d buy you a cradle for that baby. But moreover, I’ll sing you one of those lullabies you forgot over the years. Hush-a-by baby, don’t say a word. Remember that one? the one where you say you’ll buy that kid a mockingbird? I’ll definitely have that in my repertoire. then there’s Bye Baby Bunting, daddy’s gone a-hunting. Just anything you could think of, lullabies are everywhere and you must sing them to that little boy or girl when it arrives. Why? Because babies love it. Yeah, and when baby gets sick, you’ll at least know how to detect fevers in your baby. Doesn’t every mom touch baby’s face? Duh, and I being blind need to do a serious checkup and get me a talking ear thermometer. My partner Trenton and I are always debating what will come down and what won’t. We have to upgrade tech first, but I said to him I insist on having a baby before I turn forty. Forty!!!!!! So yeah.

Britney, I can’t wait to see the baby pics when you have a new baby with Sam, and I want you to, so get that stupid IUD out of your uterus and get going. Like what the hell are you waiting for? And you can bet your bottom dollar that when I have my own baby, I will show you a pic of her, all new and slimy or all new and smelling like roses. Haha. Babies don’t usually smell like roses anyway.

Good luck ending your conservatorship.

Beth

A letter to the Denver 7 peoples about guardianship

Author’s note: I forgot to mention that because I call people out for being guardian activists on behalf of upholding the status quo, or because I do speak out against unjust things, I got a death threat from a woman in Avilar, someone who was cowardice enough to disconnect her phone after I published it. Well, she deserved whatever came to her because you don’t threaten people’s lives. It’s illegal. And I don’t want hate crimes to be committed against me or my partner.

I’d like to share the email I just wrote the Denver Channel folks, though. Jennifer is their investigative girl, and she’s good. Really good. She and this producer did a story on guardianship fraud. I went and wrote the Great American novel, wink wink, about the whole thing. This is the signification of my email.

To whom it may concern,I’d like to reach out to Jennifer and Joe, who were so awesome in bringing a story about guardianship fraud to a Colorado news media channel. I hope it catches the attention of social services workers in this state as they really don’t seem to, um, care a lot like in the Netflix film. My name is Beth Taurasi. I was the victim of guardianship abuse in my native Florida, so I moved here to escape it. When I learned from LuAnn Fleming and others about what guardianship does, I pushed to have it removed. But removing a guardianship is not easy, not in any state. I was lucky to have a doc and a nurse in Colorado say well, she’s capable and competent and all that crap. But it’s ableist, sexist too. I saw the segments with Britney’s songs, and I was so supercharged because I know for a fact that Britney’s guardianship and mine are pretty similar, but different too.I was born totally blind and could never see the beautiful blue sky. But what bothered my parents was that I wanted to experience teenage girl stuff, dating and the like, but my parents were patriarchal, and my dad is someone I want to call Patriarch number 1. He might have been the one to orchestrate the guardianship and isolation I went through. I was told many times I couldn’t call a friend, talk to someone, and all that stuff. Recently I learned the power of friendship and check ins with friends because I was losing my mind over some things, drowned my sorrows in Gatorade, mind you it wasn’t Jack Daniels, but I always worried that my friends would get irate with me and say don’t call me again. Part of this problem probably stemmed from guardians like the Patriarch number 1 going after my friends and telling them how to interact with me. They treated me like an animal, not like a human being. This went on until I was told how to use the Internet, oh you will only use it from 10 AM to 4 PM EST or EDT whatever. I was living in Florida, and was begging for a trip to Littleton in Colorado to get training on the Blindness front. But I was so emotionally abused and manipulated, gaslit by professionals and teachers alike, so much because they were calling me bossy and silencing my leadership abilities. Now, I can’t even get a job and career and I don’t frankly think I will be able to safely have one because of a few different factors, mainly the activism and such. I read this book called Youth to Power, and it says you have to find your why. Well, my why with guardianship activism is because after five years, I left Florida for Littleton, and even after, I wasn’t given enough support from my parents, and they never wanted me to have money for food. I would be starving in half my classes, I passed out once, though I did get some if not a lot of care. I ended up at one time trying to find a spiritual group other than the Roman Catholic church which was where my parents came from. My partner, Trenton Matthews, is the most supportive partner I’ve had, and he has to put up with me sometimes being angry at stuff but I usually am comforted by his presence more than anything. In the years before I met my amazing partner, however, I had to endure abusive relationships, namely those of a guy online and I lacked any support for my ambitions. I wish I could go to college, but there’s a debt and I didn’t receive guidance or enough Pell grant money to go. I would fill out my FAFSA but my parents’ income might have something to do with why I am afraid I won’t get Pell money. Who would give such money to someone who wants to make a wedding a social justice issue for example? My other problems may likely be the result of me even speaking out about guardianship and the evils it likes to do and the damage left behind. When I posted on a Facebook community help thing, I got degraded by an ex and a friend of his, someone I knew and hadn’t spoken to, and this strange female figure in the blindness community. Guardianships and the blindness community are intertwined. I’m helping a gal in Orlando get her parents to shut up and let her have her SSI check and honestly, the other problem is that all parents with disabilities are liable to either not teach their kids financial skills, after which they steal the check and hold the disabled person hostage from boyfriends, friends, and others. I’m going to work on a book that helps people escape such a brutality, and it is brutality.I”m open to a news interview. I want to talk to Jennifer because when I had guardianship in Florida, the Colorado instructors in Littleton’s Colorado center for the Blind on West Shepard thought I was good for nothing, and even if it wasn’t the director Julie Deden herself, there were people in that group who were toxic. My boyfriend at the time was a Muslim, so I got Islamophobes talking about this and that and not focusing on their work. I trucked on and graduated the center, but then I realized how my expectations and the guardianship subject had been muted. None of my concerns were given to my parents. They sent all the students home from the center apartments, it wasn’t what they currently have, but when I got home, my parents forced the Catholic faith on me, I couldn’t wear hijab, I was a Muslim at the time, and sure I cared about Jesus, but guardianship allowed my parents to do spiritual abuse. I was practically done when I got back to Littleton, so I never went back. The guardianship was discharged in December of 2020 after I was committed by ceremony to Trenton, and I would use the word commitment ceremony, not wedding, in any report because weddings are usually legal and we can’t lose our benefits.The guardianship in this country is the worst thing I have ever seen. I did say I was helping a gal get out of hers, and it’s no different than mine. My former guardians used to tell me that a certain man I liked was “sexually experienced” and they forbade me from calling a school friend because he was younger, black, and Caribbean. I am done with my parents, for the most part because they don’t even talk to me much. Their actions created a rift in the family, the blindness community responded with anger and toxic commentary. My best friend of ten years is gone because he chose to respond that way. Now I can’t even talk to certain people because they’ll call me spoiled for requesting housing and other things. People simply don’t believe when I say that guardianship abuse must be curbed, stopped, even here in Colorado. I am working with Rocky Mountain Human services because the toxic culture of the blindness community contributeed to mental illness and so on, so I make it a point to use in home care services, mainly the homemaker services, and my caseworker knows the story. Rhonda Cordova, however, does not wish to help me get safe and clean housing. I wonder why. I wonder if it’s a privilege or hatred of me in particular, but the guardianship might have made the difference. Rhonda was reported for being apathetic toward my situation, and she got mad. It had to do with my building’s bedbug crap, and I can’t find housing anywhere else but yeah, the guardianship is leaving me unemployed and living in a bedbug infested chateaux. There are many layers of this and other things I could tell you as to why Colorado should get rid of guardianship in favor of supportive decision making. Pat in the story could benefit from this. He needs to be given a pet dog to play with, people need to let him have money, and perhaps the state should settle for more because he lost his estate. pat has intellectual disability, which is a bit different than me, but still, when I heard the story, even Pat knew something wasn’t right. Lawmakers should make it illegal for a parental guardianship to take place in the cases of disabled kids. ask my main caregiver, Maria Weir, she has a daughter with autism and we talk frequently about issues of social justice, one of which is guardianship. Her little daughter could end up even dead from a guardian doing a bad and evil job at caring for her. I’ve become this social justice warrior because of my life experiences, and I’m fighting some battles of my own as well. Please call me at 720-435-7407 and I’m glad to meet with you. Even if care is going on, you may come in. Please don’t scare my landlord it’s not about her.Thank you so much.PS you can check out my blog and website. I’ll copy the text of this email to my blog after a response.Beth

Letter to my ex boyfriend and others, TW ableism and sexual harassment/fragile masculinity mentioned here

The following piece is dedicated to Blake Tucker, with whom I spent 2 and a half years as a girlfriend, but I’d also like to give a shout out to Jessie, my messy and altogether very good friend from Miami, and thank him for letting me open my eyes. This piece should probably be in the feminist essay collections, and I was inspired to write this because of activists like Jessica Valenti and more importantly, there’s a Muskogee lady that wrote this brilliant essay on how women have been protecting each other in Native American circles. If anyone thinks I weaponized or did something wrong, please read below and feel free to be constructive, positive, and above all, careful what you tell me.

Dear Blake,

Last week was hell. And I couldn’t believe what you did to yourself. I’m not here to discuss a vibrator, sexual freedom, or God. I’m here to discuss you, and how you contributed to a very big problem here in America, got duped by Christians who are telling you that women like me don’t deserve to be heard, and you silently watch me get bitten up by bugs, attacked by heathen Ableists with no logic whatsoever about thee disabled experience on my end, and you don’t even connect with your Native American self. Like it or not, I think I need to tell yoou my story again and for the rest of the people reading this, especially activists, feminists, and others who are interested, I’ll explain where each of us has been.

the whole thing about vibrators is. just plain misunderstanding. Blake, you said to me shortly before we broke up something that absolutely was an affront to me being destressed in a time when stress was everywhere. I won’t write it here, you’ll only get mad at me and such. Blake, I care enough about you as a friend to say you should still go to your church, but I want to present a picture of God you never even drew, saw, or might not think exists.

Jesus, the Christ you report to for missions and so on, was an inclusive figure. Jesus was, however, used to mess up Native cultures to the point of death and nonexistence. The Spanish, particularly those in New Mexico and Arizona, used Jesus as a way to convert what they saw as “heathens.” But it has harmful consequences still today. In the ancient times, if you rolled with Jesus and the rich Eurocentric stuff, you got treated better. Is that fair? Jesus would never have said, kill the ones who don’t convert. I see a parallel between the 1500 to 1700 missions in the sixteenth through the eighteenth centuries and Muhammad the prophet’s weird and deadly fatwa, religious order, to “fight and slay the pagans where ye find them.” Muslims today have this issue with holy war, and among their so called missions is to convert everybody or make them pay with the tax or their lives. It has some rash consequences, including the genocide of the Coptic Christians, and the Jewish people have to contend with the power they are misusing. There’s a tribe in Iraq and Syria called the Yezidi that we have touched on, and because IS, or Islamic State, wants to make the whole world Muslim, you got Yezidi people dying or fighting. Nadia Murad, if you read this, I hope you see the same pattern I am about to describe below.

Blake, when the peoples you represent, all of these peoples, saw the Spanish and the pale faced white humans trashing their beliefs, going after the Native women, the men had little power to do with it. Do you know why the Trail of Tears happened? Because of a white idiot named Andrew Jackson, and the history books don’t tell you enough about it, only to whitewash it. Native beliefs were to be eradicated along with they themselves. There’s something about Natives I am drawn to, and let me explain what it is.

Muskogee activist Sarah Deer writes of a method of protecting women, an ancient survivor network and it whispers too. Deer says that “gossip is an English word” in her essay with the same words as its title. She says that women in the Indian country or first nations people would whisper that a man is dangerous, do things to protect each other, etc etc. Men would get axed not by death or killing, but there’s a whole healing process that goes with the whisper network. Would my white women friends like to try it out? I certainly want to, but Blake, here’s the deal: the tribes affirm women, LGBTQI+ and blind and deaf people. In ancient times, the Native tribes of the West, particularly tribes such as the Hopi and the Navajo, would integrate their deaf and they’d never, never seek to cure blindness. Sure, some babies lived and died as babies but it was never a shameful thing, and there was lots. of medicine to be had in the spiritual ceremony and traditions. There’s even a legend of the Cherokee tribes that affirms women’s power to give life as a weapon of sorts. When a woman in some tribes has her moon time, her menstruation, she would be allowed to go to this sweat lodge thing where she can recuperate and such, and she rests and stretches out the cramps from Hell. But imagine for a moment that this same feeling a woman has could be used to save a race of people. It did in this legend, called Stonecoat, where a stone guy tries to rob the people, kill them, etc., but seven “granddaughters” weaken him in a big show of badassery where they say, “I’m in the sacred way” each time he walks by. He’d try to convince the girls they’re dirty, but the badassery just threw him to the ground. It’s my favorite female legend of Native sorts. There are many others, and I can tell you that Natives had Romeo and Juliet in the legend of Mina-Sauk before we even had Shakespeare. These ancient traditions may not have anything with God or Jesus, but I can tell you this much: weaponizing Jesus as a way of dissing me is not going to work.

Native medicines and beliefs and ancient peoples did not necessarily have anything against a woman making herself feel good. I don’t see much of that, but regarding your comments to me before we broke, the vibrator was a doctor prescribed thing against what we used to call “female hysteria.” For disabled females, this is a common thing you might say back then. Today’s disabled female is likely to experience violence, I have, and isolation, which I have as well. I’m done trying to tell you that disabled women experience violence and you say, I know I know, but Blake, the thing is that America was built on an unfair and unjust patriarchal social hierarchy that has many layers to it. Here’s how it works:

You have cisgender, straight and able white males on top. Follow that with cisgender able straight females, then black straight cisgender males and females respectively, and then you have cisgender straight indigenous folks, followed by all manner of disabled people, black and white included, but then at the very bottom you have nonbinary and sexual minorities. This hierarchy is disgusting and I want it to stop. We don’t need cisgender straight males running things. Native American disabled males who don’t follow a big Evangelical megachurch or even a small one like yours are likely to face homicide, taunts from the higher up people, etc., so I know you would want to stay put in your church. Sure your friends are cool, but there’s something I’m coming up on that I’m not cool with.

It wasn’t Native women who told me you flirted too much. It was a male who, surprise surprise is a disabled Hispanic cisgender straight dude, but oh my god, we’ve been friends since who knows when. Note that I didn’t mention Hispanics in the hierarchy thing though because you have two or three different kinds, including black ones and white ones, so I just go by the black versus the white. NOt all Latinos are white and not all are black, it’s a mixed bag. This friend of mine is amazing, I call him Jessie the Messy, and he’s just plain cool. He’s got his own stuff, works and has a cool head on his shoulders. Jessie warned me about your tendencies, but I was stupid as usual and didn’t read into things because I’ve been taught not to. But sure enough, you get used by someone else, and break another’s heart. Or she broke yours, I don’t care how the relationship panned out. If any girlfriends you have know that you disrespected my beliefs as a feminist and didn’t understand why I was so deeply hurt by the people purporting to believe in Jesus, and I’ll tell that story now.

When you broke it off with me, the now former preacher at Sovereign Grace Community Church in Westminster decided to call me a whore. A whore for being with Trenton. I brought him there in an effort to solidify friendships and maybe even see how the people would react. But thankfully, years later, well, I’m glad I and Trenton haven’t gone. I have a buddy in chorus that recommended I not live in Westminster because of what she called a “scary megachurch” but there are plenty of those in Westminster. What Sovereign Grace did can still be felt today. I attend a UU church, Unitarian universalist, and have found that it’s not only Jesus that suffices for spiritual teaching and knowledge. I can’t subscribe to this notion of “sin” because it’s too flexible and it stings too broadly on a lot of subjects. Wearing a short skirt if you’re identifying as female? Sin, according to the beliefs you’ve chosen. Playing with your own hair if you’re female? Sin again. And the notion of sin is an excuse to make my life more expensive, so think about why your mom, aunts, sisters, all have to pay more for tampons. There is a luxury tax imposed because the government is sexist. The tax code for pink products, feminine stuff, is completely sexist. I only want others to understand that what you did to me represents a bigger problem with guys. Trenton tries to be supportive, and he is extremely cool, but you and anyone trying to attack me is not warranted in doing so.

Here’s what I want you to do. Stop talking to females who use you. I don’t use anyone, so stop it. IF you continue to be a flirt with girls after you’ve married, I’ll have to do what Sarah Deer does and warn her that this might not be the time to marry. I may not say your name, but still. Blake, I also recommend you reading Unladylike, a field guide to smashing the patriarchy and claiming your space. You don’t have to be female to read it, for real. Feminism is for everybody, and it benefits everybody. I do not hate men, as some will tell you, I just want accountability. You heard thee recent story of Josh Dugger, right? I was shocked and heartbroken because no man should be viewing child porn, but Trenton and I know that it’s illegal. We also know that Ashley Madison is not a good place to be if you’re trying to stay faithful. Vibrators aren’t the problem, and women aren’t the problem. Men are. Josh is highly unfaithful and abusive toward kids by viewing child porn. The victims who were used for this pornography are also being abused by Josh because in some way they might have been forced into it. Child pornography is something I know you could never see yourself doing, but if you were sighted, Blake, I wouldn’t be surprised if you went off and told someone that I didn’t look like your ideal woman, and it’s not your fault. Blake, you do have a good heart, but don’t get yourself dragged into conversations where you don’t belong. Lyn, one of the women who did the bad stuff on my community help post, has had nothing to do. She’s speaking from a class, race, and support privilege. I hate that, and data shows that minorities don’t just get subpar supports, they also get subpar commentary and subpar choices for schooling and other things. Your people are in trouble, and it’s not your fault. Why not summon the power of Wilma Mankiller to be your guide? Why not summon the ancestors to help you with some sort of realization of who you are? Jesus is great and all, but Jesus would never want you to label every woman’s desire a sin. The traditions that state that Adams are in charge and Eves are not do not apply to me and all of us anymore. I. can’t stand by and watch as women are sexually assaulted and no one believe them. The bedbug issue in this apartment complex scared my caregiver, and it scared the company, and yet the caseworker wasn’t there when she needed to be, and I don’t bllame her for it, but she needs to show up for me and do for me because I’m her client, and so should she do this for other clients. NASW clearly does put client safety in their code of ethics. I’ve written my local Senator for the state district 4, and I hope to have an appointment with her because the laws and policies that are in place are enabling Lyns everywhere to ruin lives like mine. Your friend Jennifer thinks she can get away with practically anything, and worse, both those girls spoke from a support class privilege. They had family support, I don’t have it, and they’re white, straight, etc. Lyn has a job, and she didn’t earn the employability. It’s all in the numbers, so look carefully.

Blake, please do some homework and get back to me. Jesus would demand that you apologize, and I apologize if what I said about you was hurtful, but what you did really wasn’t your fault per se. Though you chose this set of beliefs about Jesus and women, yu do have a choice to enact safer ways of interacting with the females in your life such that you don’t get ire from Jessies everywhere, or even your family’s women. Don’t subscribe to this notion that sin is everything, and it’s not sinful for a woman to read or write. Please read the Handmaid’s Tale and the Testaments, authored by Margaret Atwood, and she really has a lot of wisdom about why she wrote these books.

Beth

This is How you Form a Trumpist Autocracy … Or Not

Dear readers,

Want to know how to form a Trumpist autocracy? Not. Well, you just saw it on the news today, a bunch of angry people stormed the Capitol because their man didn’t win. First and foremost, that’s like someone stealing the checkerboard because they didn’t win your game of checkers. Or someone telling a football team they sucked and punching them out after they win instead of shaking hands with the footballers after they win. Sadly, people don’t know how to lose. Please, parents, teach your children that losing is okay, but winning is optional. If you don’t win an election, do not under any circumstances insult your opponents. Guess what? I have an example of people accepting defeat.

I was at a sports game with an intramural team or two, and we had an opposing team. Brother jason, a guy who was leading the prayer at the time, actually asked God to bless his opponents on the other team. Guess what? That’s how it’s done. We don’t pray for our opponents to get sick or die, or for people to storm the places where their government is. No, if you want to uphold the government, leave the Congress alone and let them do their job.

The violent incidents at the Capitol actually reminded me of the Handmaid’s Tale, when we could have had the following scenario: we could have had our Constitutional rights suspended under martial law, could have been conscripted as handmaids or in the army to fight a civil war, and worse off, this country could have been split yet again. To those who sought to believe the handmaid’s Tale is irrelevant fiction, you’ve been proven wrong. It almost happened today, but you know what stopped it? Mike Pence had his brain turned on, there was a swift action taken by the national guard people, and the FBI was deployed. Awesome, right? Well, talk about extreme whiner syndrome going on in the privileged class, it was awful. The Handmaid’s Tale could have become a book in which I couldn’t or no one could escape from, a reality that could have meant I was unable to type this blog, my daughters and granddaughters would have not been allowed to learn a skill like typing and reading and writing, and the embroidery would have been required. I don’t want to learn skills that are useful only in a hobby or craft to please a man. I want to participate in politics and government, and I will do so because human rights aren’t up for debate. Here’s what the Conservative side would have done had they done anything.

Probably the first thing on a Republican’s mind is to kill off those who don’t believe in the cause. Usually, a dictator will print up a hit list of people who don’t believe, hunt down those he doesn’t like, and kill them. This happened in Venezuela, and it could have happened here in the U.S. This is unreal.

Secondly, the Conservative angry people would have demanded that transgender and gay people be erased from society. This might have meant the wall, and if you remember watching or reading the Handmaid’s Tale, the wall is where all the bad guys are hung and the girls too. The wall would simply display a symbol on a plaque that would denote the charges the person had been charged with, example includes a pink triangle for being gay. And the person’s body would hang on the wall. This is something we cannot afford.

Thirdly, the Conservative Gilead would include rules for marriage, encourage child marriage, and other problematic cultural traditions. Ayaan Hirsi Ali has been fighting tirelessly for the end of child marriage because when a girl is eighteen, she can get protection if the dude beats her up. Sorry, guys, but gals need protection too. So do young boys. So here’s an act of contrition you need to consider if you think marrying off your girls is a solution. Don’t. Girls need to be able to make choices about their lives when they see fit. This also includes when and where to have children, to have or not to have children, and at what age they marry. I married at 34 years old because I couldn’t do it earlier. My parents denied me that choice because they were stupid. They were toxic and Conservative for the most part. Though my mom was a Democrat, I was frequently called a “baby killer” by Conservative students at THS because I wanted John Kerry to be President, but then I thought about the babies. Now I think babies aren’t the problem or the solution. It’s the women who are the ones who are in most need of care if they don’t want a baby. Babies can kill women more easily if they aren’t placed properly in the womb, and if a woman cannot carry without fear of death, she should abort without question. In any case, Conservative Gileadean society would forbid divorce, abortion, and single motherhood and put all women in a slave class. Blacks would be exterminated, which that would mean the end of me and Trenton altogether. We couldn’t travel to Florida with our own children, who would by this time be considered bastards. Exterminating people like insects is not the solution, but that’s what Trump’s allies wanted. Because of Trump’s visceral lies and threats, now his Twitter is gone, his Facebook blocked. That’s something that the Gilead founders did not have. Thank the Lord above for Facebook and Twitter doing their jobs to keep us all safe. On WordPress, I blacked out people for commenting and getting into the business of my blog unlawfully. I can do it again if I had comments on, but please. IF you read this, comment on Facebook or Twitter.

Thank you for reading this, and if you’re in D.C., stay inside and stay safe.

Beth

Congratulations, Joe

Dear President Elect Biden,

I knew you could do this. I want to congratulate you for winning the election because for one, I’m sick of the anti immigrant rhetoric and all the crap Trump was putting out there. I was the victim of trolls on the internet, trolls that would not stop spewing hate speech when Trump first got elected in 2016. Mr. Biden, I have a political laundry list you must do in order to help disabled people and others throughout your presidency.

First, we need to update the SSI program to reflect inflation costs, moving the resource limit from $2000 to $100,000 because we can’t buy anything or keep anything or save up anything under this resource limit. A lot of independence things are beyond our resources to get, and Able accounts are out of reach because of Fifth Third Bank, and I don’t have much support in getting money for an Able account.

Do away with the marriage penalty. It is destructive to relationships like mine and Trenton’s. You won the election on a special day for us, our wedding day, which was celebrated without a license or papers to certify that we are married. Trenton and I had a commitment ceremony, something that most disabled people are forced to do because either this, that, or we choose love over caring for ourselves. We hate being selfish, and we should be allowed to be with the person we love without penalty. Period. Disabled people must dare to dream of having children, and with the pandemic sweeping the country, a new baby is a sign of hope and joy we all need.

Do something about gentrification. I’d be happy to see if Congress can tackle the issue of whites taking away housing for blacks, disabled people, and other minority groups. My partner’s black, and we’re both blind, and can’t earn money the conventional way. I’ve been wrung through MLM companies, told to do something about my lack of pulling myself up by my own bootstraps, and then some. But alas, my parents attacked my rights for fifteen years. Fifteen years and they took away the prime of my life, I should have been married at 22, had kids, and a house of my own. I should have been able to do all those things because it’s just a shame that college is expensive and it’s also a shame on the rest of the blind. They have attacked me and called me a slut, and so for personal reasons, I don’t have a job and don’t associate with orgs not willing to let me in the door. the American Council of the Blind is not present in Colorado, only the National federation of the Blind, but the Metro Denver chapters have closed their doors to me, and it all boils down to they don’t believe I’m good for anything. they want to judge and pick at behavior they believe is detrimental to work. what work? I can’t sit there and answer questions that are illegal for a job, and if I have to, what then? Most jobs require experience or a college degree, but even a college degree is not going to show anything. They’ll hire the qualified sighted person over me because of the sight. Joe, if I was in your shoes, and i was running for President, I would probably have to sue a lot of people for putting vulgar attack ads on TV against me. imagine, all those attack ads saying things like, “Beth Taurasi had multiple sex partners, married a black man illegally, can’t even find a job anywhere. We should not give her the job of messing up our country and doing a disability agenda on us.” That would be the gentry’s vulgarest attack ad possibility, but trust me, I’d have to make sure you or someone before me bans such attack ads because they’re impolite, and have nothing to do with politics. They’re personal attacks on my sex life and that’s what men often do to women, and they attack us by our looks. I choose books, but they want looks. Anyway, …

Do something about illegal questioning of disabled job applicants who are blind, especially those who are blind. Hammer it home to employer interviewers that if they don’t get it straight, that if they don’t not ask illegal questions, they will be fined or jailed for years. Do something to stop people from asking stupid questions about blindness in the formal sense of the job interview. For example, I want to be a piano teacher, but someone might ask, “Why should I hire you because you’ll touch my kid, etc etc, and you’re blind.” First and foremost, you need to get a grip. if you’re interviewing me for a piano teacher job, I’ll be honest, the touching kids thing could be taken way out of context. I would have to do what i call “poking and prodding” the hands of the young pianist who’s liable to flatten their fingers and not understand finger position. I will have the young one put their hand on top of mine so they can feel the fingers and how they’re curved. They have to be curved, at least, otherwise there’s at least one Italian pianist who does that, but who does that at all? But the truth is, if someone interviews me for that position, the only thing i can offer is that I went to college, I studied music in college, and had to drop out because of accommodations and lack of independence skills which is appropriate to the disabled. This really needs to be addressed though, as there are many blind musicians willing to contribute their voices and their skills to music and music theory. As a potential producer even, I want to put my skills to work, but the production equipment and software costs too much, so what do I need? A bigger living room, a baby grand, and young students to teach. $25 an hour is fine, but let’s face it, I don’t want to be fired for being blind. Parents would be there at all lessons, and I’d make it clear. The parent’s role will not change, my role will not change much, but still. I will teach the child to play Bach, Beethoven, and so on. But I don’t want to be under scrutiny for being blind. So Mr. Biden, make it so that we don’t have to live under scrutiny, yet you have GOP pundits ordering us to work for a man in an office.

Please make it easier for a blind musician to be noticed. Your former boss, President Barack Obama, totally went with it when he proclaimed a blindness equality day during his presidency. he was amazing, I’m not gonna lie. Obama and you both deserve the deepest congratulations.

Please ban certain GOP operatives from banning Muslims and immigrants from coming here. Get the kids out of the cages, and let them in. Do something about the border deportations of parents, and take Bethany Christian Services’s adoption license away. Be sure that gay and lesbian parents can adopt, no matter what agency they go through, and let it be known that religious affiliation is no license to discriminate. I know there are more foster kids than families. the Bethany Christian families might not be fit for all those latinx children that were taken away from their parents. I’d encourage you to invest in these kids, and take the parents with Bethany Christian out of the picture. Reverse any such Gileadean policies that promote child separation and the sale of children to these wanton organizations.

Please expand social and housing for black and minorities. Think of this as reparations for slavery. We need reparations for black males especially, not that the females have any less of a chance, but we need to address all blacks as a whole. Trenton, my husband in commitment and life itself, is black. He might be turned down for shelter in a bigger apartment, and we’re living in an unsafe wreck of a building that likes to be stupid unless you scream help for every maintaining thing you need done. Example, it took days and weeks to get some things done in the building. If I ask someone to drain the shower, I expect it done the same day because i can’t just sit there and do the shower myself. If I ask someone to fix a dorrknob with sharp edges on it, I expect it to be done, way less than it actually took to fix a doorknob on a closet. it took weeks for maintenance to actually fix the doorknob and we had to ask for it. They seriously need to learn to care about us residents or go straight to Hell, and that’s the whole thing about HUD apartments. We want a three bedroom house or apartment that can be rented or owned but it has to have safety and transport. With your expansion of social programs for the disabled and minority groups, maybe it’ll be good for us so we can have a family and live normally, and i can do gig work to get extra money on top of social security. the gig work will not be steady, so won’t be declared. that’s another thing i want you to do.

Do not allow the SSA to simply take away from those currently receiving SSI or SSDI benefits when they choose to go to work. let them, as I said before, keep a larger resource amount, especially because of inflation. But moreover, don’t tax any income we earn on top of the thing we get unless it’s over the resources limit. I’d be happy to pay taxes if I was wealthy like so many of your celebrities and … oh, did I mention Donald Trump? If he’s that damn wealthy, he should be having his taxes done. Anyway, I want to make sure you have a good laundry list of things to do for us that needs to be done.

There’s one more thing I think that could be done. Encourage Kamala to run for president in 2024, unless she says no. If not, i want Neill Patrick harris to take your place in 2024, no hurt feelings but that guy’s hilarious. Mr. Harris would be a good start to a bright future because of hot Tub time Machine 2, don’t ask me where in the movie that is because of spoilers I won’t give out. But 2025, in any case, is where the guys end up for that pportion of the movie, spoiler over.

Mr. President Elect, I’m super happy you got elected, and the champagne is flowing everywhere but take a look at what you have to do. You know you have to deal with the Corona virus pandemic, but please make that corona thing go away so we can go back and live life normally. Also, please encourage Disneyland to open because there are too many lawsuits about it by mayors, and it’s getting bad. Florida also needs a serious head check. Those people are total douchebags sometimes, not all of them but you know Florida man will make you cringe. Example, Florida man runs around naked and wrangles a gator in mid air. Florida man caught knocking Slurpee off someone. Florida man arrested for … blank blank blank. Fill in the blank with the latest crime spree, including changing the governor’s voting address. that I admit was funny, but we need to do something about those weirdos in Florida.

Anyway, thank you for believing in us as a country. Please hurry up and take the oath of office, damn it, so we can work together as a people and restore decency and health to all.

Sincerely,

Beth Taurasi

The Reality of Being Paralyzed: Dedicated to Jacob Blake

Dear readers,

This post is a follow up to what I stated in my podcast. If you’d like to subscribe to the podcast via Spotify, Apple Music, etc., please go to http://thethroneroom.denverqueen.com and subscribe to the podcast so you can listen to the points I make on the whole Jacob Blake situation. The shooting he endured at the hands of the Kenosha police department has left him a member of the paralyzed disabled community, so here’s a reality check so that the officers understand what care this man will need in the immediate future.

1. Architectural barriers could become a reality for Mr. Blake. Depending on what wheelchair and equipment he gets to move with, Jacob Blake could face buildings without ramps, churches that won’t accommodate him in an elevator, and buildings without grab bars in their toilet stalls. There are a variety of architectural barriers he could face as a disabled man.

2. Careers could be lost. Jacob Blake could lose his job for being in a wheelchair and not walking or dancing could mean that his boss and coworkers would look down on him. Even finding a new job could be horrendously hard for him, just ask activist Clayton Jacobs how many applications he can fill out in a year, and still not get callbacks and interviews. Even I had to fill out applications and no callbacks or interviews. So many blind people are feared, and because of the barriers we face, we don’t get jobs. But paralyzed people could be in greater more dire circumstances. Because of Blake’s high profile shooting and paralysis, nobody will feel in the least sympathetic towards him if they are white, so he’ll need to work in a place that is black friendly. How’s that for hard to find because nobody is safe, even in my Denver metro area backyard.

3. Family barriers. Who knows if Mr. Blake will ever be able to engage in intimacy with his future wife or wives? Who knows if his children will ever have the same dad they saw getting into the car after the dreadful shooting. Will Mr. Blake go to rehab and discover that the family is faithful and will stay by his side? Will his fiance who saw the shooting happen still want to marry him? Even if he can’t dance with his wife? Will she leave him and call off the wedding? I hope not, because it would be a sign of weakness and unfaithfulness and for her, maybe she should get some educational materials about paralysis and wheelchair use.

The reality is that the Kenosha police department will undoubtedly be sued by the family and forced to pay up. Here’s a shopping list of things they will pay for, god willing the lawsuit goes through.

A power wheelchair and charger,

Care and rehabilitative services so he can use the wheelchair and stuff,

A reacher device that lets you reach for something on the floor, and if he can’t bend, he could use the reacher to pick items up,

A service dog trained especially for the purpose of helping paralyzed people,

A specially made car and/or a van that would allow him to get in and out, screw paratransit because he can see to drive, but moreover, he needs his wheels too,

and finally, a barrier free house. the house will need to include ramps, rails, grab bars in the bathing areas, and all kinds of setups that would allow him to cook, sit at table, and perform the tasks he used to do while upright. Now, he’ll have to learn to cook while sitting down.

If anyone thinks they don’t want this reality check, take a look at those who are sufferers of CP, cerebral palsy, and those who go paralyzed as a result of accidents, and so on.Paralysis and CP require almost the same services and so on, but Mr. Blake is going to need extra care and safety because his own town’s police department messed his life up forever.

Beth

Deny Him Martyrdom

Dear readers,

While Jokhar Tsnarnaev has had his death sentence overturned, I have a reason to agree with this. What the Boston Marathon bombing survivors do not understand is that guy has been waging Jihad, or holy war, against America and those who don’t believe in his extreme religion. He got the inspiration from the Qur’an, where it describes where all the martyrs go in Heaven, so here’s the deal: Tsarnaev’s death sentence should not have been considered, just life in prison without the possibility of parole because of one thing: if he died by lethal injection or even a gunshot with a firing squad, he’d achieve martyrdom and get the so called 72 virgin wives for himself. The thing that bothers me about his death sentence is that death doesn’t teach. It only liberates the soul, degrades punishment altogether, and does not truly deter murderers. Tsarnaev’s death sentence could have meant that he would go to Heaven, while the poor person who can’t fight, who can’t achieve what’s called “shahidala” goes to Hell. There are too many people who go to Hell in Islam, including women. The Prophet himself even said it, and in one haddith, it says there are many many inhabitants in Heaven, the poor people, but then the last quote. “I saw Hell, and many of its inhabitants were women.” So when Tsarnaev dies in prison, I think he’ll probably rot in Hell for what he did to the people at the Boston Marathon, that is if we can convince him that what he did was wrong, very wrong. We need to deny him all the things he would normally have in an Islamic household, including the Jihadi verses of the Qur’an. We need to convince him to throw away Jihad beliefs, perhaps do what is necessary to keep. him away from that temptation of 72 virgin maidens in 72 beds in 72 gardens. It makes me sick that a guy like that can have creature comforts even in prison, and here I am living in a slummy little crappy building that doesn’t even allow any number of satellite TV providers and so on. A criminal, a murderer who wants martyrdom, can’t get what he wants. Spoiled much? No, just being honest. The bomb survivors should study the Qur’an just for a brief moment, look at the descriptions of Heaven for martyrs. They’ll understand why I feel the way I do. I say, deny martyrdom to the man who bombed the Boston marathon. And trust me, Jihad and holy war principles litter the book, they litter everything for the extremist Muslim. So what’s the best deterrent for murdering people and hurting others at a marathon in Boston? Life in prison is fine, but no chance at martyrdom or parole.

Beth