I’m sorry I haven’t been on this blog in a while …

Dear readers,

I’m writing this blog entry to apologize to readers and others for not having done a year end rap up and not updated on Christmas of all things. Today is January 2, and people are denying me access to food and other supplies, and I’ve got lots to talk about. Let’s talk about the year in twelve or more things.

  1. First off, I learned that extreme weather patterns closed too many things to us, even in January of 2021. I also realize that Covid destroyed all possibility of celebrating Christmas and New Year’s, and it happens seemingly every year but still, not good.
  2. In February, winter just continues and it got worse. Not sure when the blizzard from last year happened, but at some point in either February or March, we needed help, big time, and didn’t have enough food and supplies stocked up. It happens even more now because of what’s about to happen next.
  3. Bedbugs came back, and I just about had enough of the unsanitary living conditions that disabled people are forced to accept, mostly because money isn’t there. I can’t just wave a magic wand and make money grow on trees, people, so I asked for help with housing, and got the following statements from a Lyn Coats and Jennifer Scott: “You can’t feed yourself.” “You’re manipulative.” Jennifer went so far as to drag my poor ex into the conversation, and it went downhill from there. I have more to say about that in some later entries here.
  4. In August, we still had problems with bedbugs in the building, so we had to evacuate our apartment, and honestly I hate my building because of the lack of help we’ve been subject to, denial of resources due to being on longterm care, and so much other stuff. In August, I asked for help a second time for some evacuation strategy, and some Josh Cory and a Kayla Michelle Candelora said the following: “I wanna be honest, you’re not capable of doing anything at all.” Josh added that he’d unfriend me and blocked me anyway because he felt I was incapable of doing for myself, and these two individuals also defended having to compensate people for their time in money dollars I don’t have. Kayla particularly has a huge burden to bear because she is a mother of four. Josh is a divorcee with two kids, and worse for him, he refusees to hold himself accountable for his possible beating up his ex wife. He blames her for DV (domestic violence) charges, and I should have seen that as a clear distorted thought process, a red flag. I reread a sexual predators protection handbook, and discovered not that Josh was or is a predator, but that distorted thinking was present in his brain, so his loss on my page is not really a loss. However, Jos, Lyn, Kayla, and Jennifer all did something I would never have expected. They all called me slurs about my mental health, needlessly incapacitated me on the internet, and revealed private information about me because they felt that I was a personal threat to their egos. Well, there’s one or two more names I have to go through.
  5. Recently, Jose Cintron got himself on my block list because he called me crazy, and needlessly incapacitated me on the Internet via Facebook yet again. His words? “This woman sounds crazy.? He wrote that in response to something a friend did and an interview she gave about my church experiences. Jose should have never said the thing I’m about to write as well, “You should not be in charge of another life.” Well, Jose, I will be in charge of thousands of lives if you don’t think before you write. I am capable of writing this blog entry, so you need to shut up and if I find you are whispering this to doctors and social workers in your state, I will make for darn sure you are flagged as a false person because you said these things, and it hurts loads because I was told I was incapable in a court of law, and even if Britney is free, you won’t be because I have my freedom because I had to do what was right and necessary to prove things. Guardianship is evil, and if you are pro guardianship, well, you have a lot of things to think about.
  6. I looked at my block list on Facebook, and I confess it looks a mile long. Besides Jose, Jennifer, Lyn, Kayla, and Josh, there will be more names I’m pretty sure who would be glad to bully my friends and me. I am pretty sure also that I blocked my immediate family, and my aunts and uncles and such because it’s not their business what I write on social media. Oh, did I forget Karrie Kinsteter also said the following regarding pregnancy and disabled people? “It will be your parents’ business if you get pregnant.” Karrie clearly supported an evil practice of something called stealing the baby from a disabled parent, and I had to put up with that two years ago. Karrie is not coming back and if she does, she has to change what she feels about guardianship because it is pure evil. I had a tough talk with my dear beloved’s mother about such jarring matters as guardianship, and I warned her this. While her adopted mom got scammed $500, that same amount will be removed … per hour if a professional guardian was in charge. $500/hr, that’s a lot.
  7. While I did a few blocks and had to deal with persistent needless incapacitation online, I also was targeted for crimes like my medication was stolen twice. Not once, but twice. I will tell you this, one young man I know suggested I take a trip and pick them up, but that’s too much. If it’s cold and snowy out, definitely too damn much.
  8. One good thing that happened this year, well, a good Samaritan in my building rescued two pairs of binaural headsets Trenton, my beloved partner, had ordered. We use the binaural headsets to record things. We don’t know exactly what will be recorded on those, but if you listen to my binaural recordings, I will warn you, please wear headphones.
  9. I unblocked and added back a friend of mine and found out that CCB and the Colorado Center for the Blind is firing folks right and left and believes that it’s okay for blind folks to die by vehicular collision. Oops, it’s not good at all. I also saw an article in the Colorado Sun about misconduct things regarding the same place, and worse, sexual misconduct affected some of the staff I thought I could trust. They’ve been going through staff like women go through panty hose. I’m not kidding. I want the stupidity to stop.
  10. I met several great people but connections could not have been formed too deeply. I’m having this issue, mainly because of the needless incapacitation and false rumors about me, taht involves connections. I can’t form connections like I used to, and it’s sad. I can’t form bonds with people who have the same things in common with me. Most of the disabled community and blind community in particular are so bored with their lives and themselves that they would rather spread misinformation about me than do real things, including a job, form friendships like everybody else, and do things that people actually want to do. My friends like to do things other than lie around and spread misinformation and watch TV. Yes, I watch movies and TV, but truthfully, I don’t spread misinformation. I tell the truth. From Josh to Jose to Karrie to Kayla to everybody else, these people needlessly incapacitated me without prior qualification or medical evaluation. I’m sorry, but all the pro guardianship blind people need to stop believing for a split second that removing fundamental human rights clears any way for people to … “help” others. Guardians don’t do that. They scam, and they’re on the level of con artist. I’m not kidding.
  11. I’ve continued pressing for the end of guardianship since I’m free to do that now. I want to name some good people I’ve had the privilege of working with on Facebook. Hilary and Rick, two awesome folks, are amazing. Hilary Hogue from naples, Florida, understands the meaning of freedom. Rick Black, one of the best social justice activists I know, has been on standby because I hope this year, I can go to the Capitol in Colorado to talk to Congress in that state. I don’t want to deal with anyone like that Beauvert gal who’s probably going to say I’m incapable and incompetent at all. The truth is, politicians should take notice because guardianships no matter who has them are simply pure evil, should be criminally liable, and should never happen at all. My kids one day will have to contend with my story. I will tell it in the best way possible.
  12. Once again, Lissa or Melissa or whatever her name is decided to have a ball turning on me. This girl sat next to me in high school, but prefers guys who like to send death threats to me rather than myself. Lissa and her husband blocked me and accused me of damaging someone’s reputation, but let’s be clear on something. You send death threat? You get nothing. You lose everything. Death threats are not funny, they’re not cool, and they’re also a crime. You commit crimes against Beth Taurasi? You will get arrested, put behind bars, and I will testify what you said and did, and the call will likely be recorded and played back in court. You wanna hear what you say? I suggest you don’t send death threats by email or phone. It’s been two years since this lady from freaking Avilar did this. So, this is what I want to see. No more death threats or attempts to do so, and because of trolls I had to stop comments on here. If you are concerned, please contact me on Twitter or Facebook. IF your name is Karrie, btw, I think you owe me an apology because you don’t understand how evil your thoughts are regarding pregnancy and disabled people.

For Christmas, thankfully we hung out with Trenton’s mom. She has two kitty cats, and we love both of those cats. One male, one female, they’re adorable. I hope that one day, people will stop digging into private information without my permission. I’m considering stopping all longterm care services because someone on my FB page revealed things that are lies, and are private and it’s unethical to reveal these things. When there is a shortage of caregivers, you can’t really do anything about this. I have had a very difficult 2021, so here’s what I want to do for this year:

  1. Fitness is at the top of my list of things to do.
  2. I’m going to decimate my family’s money and savings so they will have no choice but to put me on their will, and I will be the sole heir and have an inheritance that will help us get proper housing for kids, and furthermore, the county in which the guardianship was handed out will be punished for their deed.
  3. I will have a child, and no, that child will be with us, nobody else.
  4. I will not allow any more needless incapacitation or calls for me to be retraumatized in guardianship on Facebook. Anyone who does this will surely find themselves blocked, reported for hate speech and forgotten but their comments will probably never leave me alone.
  5. I will have a dream and that dream will come true. Anyone trying to tell me dreams are just dreams is being ridiculous.

Thank you for reading this blog over the years. In case you didn’t know, The Throne Room with Beth Taurasi will be getting a new platform home, to hell with someone else taking away distribution of my podcast. I’m done.

I hope 2022 will be better.

Beth

Alternative Jobs for the My Pillow Guy

Dear readers,

Ever wonder if you’ll be happy with MyPillow Guy and his stupid infomercials? ARe you tired of his raving mad conspiracy crap? Well, I kinda thought about this and want alternative jobs for this dude. Here they are:

1. It started with a joke. My partner has a habit of stealing my actual bed pillow at night. So I humorously said, “If I catch you stealing my bed pillow, you will have to put the MyPillowGuy up for $5.” In other words, the first alternative job for the MyPillow guy would probably be a male sex worker. Simple, right? Well, at least he’d be shipped off to a different spot on the map and wouldn’t do anything there but hang around the red flag districts in a place like Amsterdam and go to strip clubs where women frequent. He’d have fun giving lap dances to ordinary gals, but as a sex worker, he’d be like, oh, okay. He’d go for whatever price he could put on his own self, and he’d be contributing to Europe’s economy, some other place’s economy and not selling fake pillows.

2. Well, if this guy didn’t like the shipping out thing, maybe he should try male private freelance stripper. He’d be able to entertain the top elites in their hotel rooms, go to strip clubs, bling himself out, and maybe not sell fake pillows.

3. If MyPillowGuy doesn’t like stripping or sex work, maybe he could try waitering at a restaurant, maybe a place like … um, okay, not Hooter’s. But not Twin Peaks either. I’d put him in someplace like Denny’s or something. Or make him a busboy. He’d have to carry drinks and food to customers, and yes, not sell fake ass pillows.

4. What if he really didn’t like the jobs listed above? MyPillow Guy might want to consider dog food taste tester. It makes good money and you get to make sure it doesn’t kill you off or make the dog sick. And he’d be telling plenty of stories about the nasty tastes of dog food to his colleagues at one of the other alternatives listed above, or to his wife and children around the dinner table. No fake pillows needed.

5. Perhaps he should try donating plasma. MyPillow Guy might enjoy the poking and prodding in his skin, or not. But does anyone know how important blood and plasma sales or donations are? A pint saves quite a few lives. And he doesn’t get to rave on about his pillow crap either.

6. Maybe he should just be a paparazzo and harass celebrities if that’s what could put him to a close but sticky jail sentence, depending on what pics he takes. paparazzi are paid to harass and take pictures of people, and maybe he could take the pics of people wearing his fake pillows around town, and you’ll be darned to see Norwood College nannies doing the defensive driving of their celebrity kids around so that people would really be like, that’s no guy in the Paparazzi at al. That’s the MyPillow Guy. …” The people would proceed to yell out that his pillows are just pillows, nothing special.

6. Idk what you all think, but most of the weirdos who commit crimes are hired as sewage workers or janitors. Perhaps this MyPillow king could sit down and get dirty for a living. Maybe he should be a janitor or house man maid, so he would clean up rich people’s dirty poopy crap and have to unclog pipes like a plumber, but not go super into that. Maybe a handy dude as long as he finishes the damn job and doesn’t promote his fake pillows.

7. IF he could sing, maybe he’d be charged to sing the national anthem at ballgames, but I would go a step further. MyPillow Guy would be required to sing the Black national anthem, Lift Up Your Voice and Sing. Maybe we’d have him sing that while his fake pillows are being unstuffed right in front of him. I’d torture him by making him sing that song twelve times. Okay, moving on.

8. Maybe he could be a construction worker, a builder, building affordable houses for the poor. He would not be allowed to put his pillow crap in those houses though.

9. IF not, just make him contribute to a soup kitchen, one that accepts sexual minorities. He’d be required to put all his soups there, and all the people would say, oh, is MyPillow Guy doing something productive for a change? He donated the shrimp stew his wife made to us. Yes, I’d be clapping hands for this one. And he’d not be allowed to promote his pillows too.

10. IF there’s one thing I wish for MyPillow Guy, it’s that he understand the meaning of life. HE needs to consider if not anything else being a philosophy professor, be forced to research liberality and topics he doesn’t like, and maybe he’d be waking up and changing his name from Michael Lindel to something else. He’d be all, “I don’t like you, Trump.” He’d be going, “Oh, dearest Judge Judy, I want to change my name to John fogerty or James McMichael and I’m not the MyPillow Guy anymore.” Perhaps when he sees the dead people who die because of his conspiracy theories, the deaths due to hate crime laws that Trump doesn’t or didn’t care about, the people being disrespected at Valor Christian School, and he hears the kids cry, well, the answer would be in a song I love so much. Blowin’ in the Wind. Bob Dylan, back me up.

IF anyone wants to tell me how many times must a man cry himself before he notices he is doing such, the many times bullets hit the streets, if MyPillow Guy had any good in his heart, he’d stop doing this crap he’s pulling on the world, and maybe he’d join Bob Dylan on the stage, singing a song that asks and answers many questions, that brings attention to the sad state of our human race. Mr. Dylan, I love you profusely because your music is so awesome. You bring attention to everything, you are a songster. Could you do me a favor and teach this My Pillow trash talker how to be a hippy? I transformed from a Conservative Christian into a life affirming liberal, and I hid all the liberality, but maybe the whole time I was in Colorado, I was and stil am a liberal thinking but Conservative dressing unlady who is so unladylike she doesn’t need to hold a flip you off sign that says, patriarchy get out. Truthfully, I don’t hate people, and I’d be glad to invite MyPillow Guy to become a UU in my church, and get rid of his fake pillow ads for good.

Have a happy holiday season, and I won’t be endorsing or listing Mike Lindel’s crap on this blog, so stay tuned for a gift guide soon.

Beth

#BritneyIsFree

Dear readers,

I knew this moment and day would come. Britney Spears, a wealthy pop star, is free. But honestly, there are many others who aren’t free. It is a real human rights issue, and let me explain why.

1. The victims of conservators and guardians all over the country are silenced by threats of overmedication, liquidation, and lack of visitation.

2. The victims are indeed if not threatened with overmedication, liquidation, and no visitation, they are also threatened with cremation upon death or a DNR or kidnapping by the professional for profit guardian. Rebecca Firrel from Orlando is a good example. Tracy Hudson is another. Both have resigned, but Tracy is now on trial for stealing and embezzling funds from elderly clients. This includes Tampa Bay Buccaneer football game tickets she purchased because she stole some lady’s money. Tracy also managed to ruin many people’s lives. Many activists I work with know of her crimes, and she’s just not owning up.

3. Even if a victim is freed, there are issues people have, including some who like to cyberbully a guardianship survivor. Britney Spears is lucky people carry banners for her, and they fight for her freedom. But I had to scream, shout, and let it all out as Britney would say in one of her songs she does with Will I Am, rapper from the Black Eyed Peas. I had to go through lawyers, some trying to charge me money I don’t have. My parents realized they’d be no use as guardians, had to get rid of this guardianship also because they are beginning to think maybee they did something terrible. Well, here’s another thing. My parents don’t realize I am now the target of every joke in the blind community, and the guy who threatened slander charges on this blog has recently committed crimes of his own, probably because he has a sense of entitlement and can’t handle strong women. He has a fragile ego, and he said my guardianship was correct. For a man like that to think guardianship is okay, he’s in for a rude awakening. Guardianship is abusive, plain and simple, and must be abolished because of what reasons I stated above.

3. Victims of guardianship can’t have kids. Unless you’re a screaming shouting person like one girl I spoke to, standard fare for guardianship victims is usually an IUD up your ass. AN IUD prevents pregnancy, and because I had to wait so long to think about getting pregnant, guess what? I’m 35 and a mother of zero, and unfortunately, I could end up joining the millions of women who have died in childbirth complications over the years. I don’t want my pregnancy to be high risk, and there is a chance I could die because of age. My parents had no consideration but for their sons only. IF I had stayed behind in FLorida, they might have put an IUD in my body and told me I was their pet dog instead of their daughter.

4. Victim advocates say that disabled people in group homes are more vulnerable to rape etc. Robert Blanchard, the father of one such, said so about his daughter. Dawn is developmentally disabled, living in a group home in Rockledge, a few miles or more from my hometown. Why did the state agency hire the guy who raped Dawn? Dawn Blanchard’s story is written in the Florida Today and other papers far as I know, but her son is in the care of Robert and his kin. It is sad that Dawn was not able to tell the truth from lies about her caregiver, a male who fathered the child, and then there’s that guy in Arizona who fathered a little baby from a female in a vegetative state. Guys, guardianship victims in either family or for profit situations are in a lot of danger this way, and Dad once said I would benefit from group home placement, but I don’t want to live in a group home for one reason: I wouldn’t be able to have relationships with either the opposite sex or children or relatives. Group homes are rigid with rules, rules that would ruin lives too. Dawn is probably in a different home, but Robert still wonders why that asshole treated his beloved daughter like “a pece of meat” as he wrote once.

5. Guardianship victims often don’t have jobs. Britney is the exception to the rule. Oftentimes, guardianships are gotten by lies and enterprising remarks in the courtroom. Examples include that the patient has dementia, which is total bullshit on Britney’s part. For me, it was “emotional handicaps and severe mental handicap.” Blah blah blah. It’s all lies, and those lies make money. It seems that there are mor Marla Graysons in the world, not enough Jennifer Petersons, and if you haven’t watche the movie I Care A Lot, you wouldn’t get the references. Marla was an abusive ruthless guardian, and Jennifer saw through all the meds, the kidnapping, all that, and she told Marla off. So did a guy whose mom was in her care. Spoiler alert: Marla gets what she deserves, but there’s more. Guardians who are evil need to do the following.

1. They ned to name and claim and tame the problem. They neeed to define their actions as abusive much like sex offenders do. Defining your actions as abusive might take the shape of not living near your elders, not making decisions about any family with disabilities or who are elderly, or giving a voice to those who need it. Example, Danny becomes paralyzed in an automobile accident. He must use a power wheelchair, and in this example which I’m making up, let’s say that Danny needs a barrier free home with bars everywhere, a toilet seat arrangement with bars in the bathrooms, and ramps and big doorways everywhere. While in the fight for this, Danny’s mom and dad have to be able to argue and say to the building people for the house, “Our son is paralyzed and can’t walk, so you need to build him the house he designs.” On top of this, car insurers responsible for the offender who ran Danny over will have to pay up for the building and renovation of his house, and without removing constitutional rights, Danny’s family and friends will have to make sure the offender pays up and even if he’s uninsured, a lawsuit will have to be filed because of the deep impact his paralysis will have. While this is going on, Danny’s mom and dad will have to contend with what do we do for Danny and his wife while he’s in rehab? One of those things would be that they’d have to never consider guardianship. They would have to understand that guardianship is abusive, no matter who does it, no matter who sas it. NO matter how you slice and dice it, if someone becomes disabled by no fault of their own, guardianship is off the table.

2. Guardians must pay back their victims. Jamie Spears, listen up. You ruined your daughter’s life, so pay up. Britney needs her money back, and hopefully forever rids herself of people who want to ruin her life. Britney, if you want, I’d suggest you share the money with victims and survivors of AMerica’s for profit sexist misogynistic guardianship system. I hate unpacking the victim card, but guardianship is evil, pure and simple. Marla Grayson in I Care A Lot uses all of Jennifer’s money and Mrs. Felstrom’s money to go on yachts and do parties and getaways, though not all aspects of this are shown. YOu see Marla’s nice house, her partner, her going into cafes and upscale dining areas. Well, now if I were a survivor of hers, I’d make her pay. I’d sue her for using the money from liquidation and all to pay me back for her little escapades to upscale restaurants and all. It doesn’t matter whether the money went to care, it also went to the guardians’ personal trip to Italy or Jamaica or Estonia for God’s sake.

3. Guardians must be prosecuted. IF you are a believer that guardianship is correct, think about this for a moment. Guardians are evil, unless they’re the ones who look after foster children. IF you’re saying that any guardianship or conservatorship is correct, you’re being a fool and lying to yourself. Guardianship is abusive, plain and simple, and should be prosecuted as the following: unlawful imprisonment, medical neglect/abuse, court embezzlement, fraud, welfare fraud regarding handicapped persons or disabled people, and con artistry and cheating so that you get all the money and they don’t. Confidence men have evolved over the years, and here we have people who are confidence people, con artists, who guardianize. Here’s how I avoid them:

1. I don’t like people coming to my apartment unexpectedly. Know your schedule, and keep a watch on people who come to your apartment unexpectedly and at short notice, or make sure you have a security camera based system such as Deep Sentinel or NestAware at your house, and make it clear that if someone shows up at your house to rob, steal, or spy on you, don’t let them in. IF someone shows up unannounced at your door, be aware of that person’s motives and make them leave immediately.

2. IF you are kidnapped or a crime is committed against you, speak up, scream, shout. LEt it all out and don’t hold back. Police are supposed to help you, but if they do not, call your nearest Disability Rights if you are able, but furthermore, if you can walk outside your house or care facility, do it. And run. Run as far as you can, get the attention of someone you know and trust, tell the police you’ve ben kidnapped by a for profit con artist, don’t let them speak for you to say you’re crazy. Also, for the elderly folks, don’t answer the phone to anyone you suspect may be conning you into being the guardian player in your life.

3. IF your loved one is not able to visit you, scream all over the Internet, scream in court, do whatever it is you can to get your loved one back in your house. Make sure you have a camera based security system such as Deep Sentinel or NestAware, and keep track of footage. Your loved one needs a safe place to stay, so make sure you ave that ready.

I hope Britney will follow the steps in this blog entry, so that this way she is safe from con artists in her elder years. Thank you for reading.

Beth

Ruminations and Reasons for Fending Off Internet Abuse and Thank You to Followers

Dear readers and followers,

I’d like to ruminate a bit and thank my followers, the newbies, for coming on and following my blog. Comments have been disabled due to internet trolling and illicit threats to take me to court among other things. I’m sorry if you wanted a blog that would allow comments, but I had to make that decision so that I could continue writing and be heard. Currently, my power beats wireless headphones are singing German baroque music to me. I have studied music from Bach and Beethoven among other things, and I’m glad I was able to study and learn what small things I did learn at college. Unfortunately, because of accessibility and parental constraints, I could not get my Bachelor’s of Arts degree. I cannot share this post on Facebook really, but if I did, the link wouldn’t read properly on the app or smartphone, so I won’t. If anyone wants to know the truth, I love writing and music, I’m a creative mind, but the people who want to put an end and a damper on my musical career and turn me into a slave are also stealing friends from me. I’m not supposing or suggesting that any woman friend is weak, but they are not educated about the dogwhistle rhetoric coming from males about me, stuff that is sexist and ableist. I’ve been freed from guardianship since December 2020, and I can’t get it back and won’t allow it to creep back into my life because of a few things. One, it’s abusive, and two, it’s abusive, and three, it’s a bad example for my kids. IF I have kids, which I don’t at the moment, I want to have them raised by a free couple, a couple that is free to love and cherish the child without having to hand them over.

This reminds me of a WSJ (The Wall Street Journal) article that emulated what was going on in Afghanistan. Now that girls are not allowed to do things because they are girls, now that women are banned from the public eye thanks to Taliban overreach, there’s a housekeeper who wants to surrender her daughter to pay off debts. She owes the equivalent of $500 plus in Afghan currency, and everything is too expensive in Afghanistan. I understand the woman’s plight, but a child is a child, and she is more precious than her mom is at the moment. Only three, she could be thrown into a family she doesn’t like, abused by the household, and forcibly married to a son, age six right now, when she reaches puberty. Ugh, I just want to kick some butt right now. I’d like to say to this poor woman, “Put the child up for adoption in the United States, so she can be educated, have a life, have love, a job, what have you.” But it makes me sick that even moms here in the U.S. would sell their kid, anyone who sells a child of any color, complexion, whatever makes me ill. There’s a lady in my church whose husband is Hindu, and some of her practices are Hinduism based as well. She explains things about India’s culture I never understood before. Unfortunately for many kids in India, child marriage is a thing. Unchained at Last also did studies on child marriage, but marriage is not anything but slavery for the girls involved, about 85% or more victims of this practice according to one Unchained At Last study are girls. Some are men, some are older women, but it is girls who are victimized the most. Correct me, Ayaan, if you read my blog and discover something a bit off about stats, but I don’t usually read graphs and such.

Because people aren’t believing me or telling me the things that are true, and it’s not about what I wanna hear, it’s about truth, I’m going to be blunt here. Guys who’ve been abusing myself and my fans on this blog need to stop what they are doing and realize that I am going to get more followers and do more things without them involved. For another thing, the guys who want to take me to court aren’t going to be successful, and any judge would laugh the bastards out of court because they’d see through this tomfoolery and I’d tell them, and the judge would say, “Hmmm, you said what about a guardianship?” I’d tell the judge that the case was closed in December, and these guys are jealous and want me in a cage so they can throw crumbs at me. I want them and their case laughed out of court. I won’t take down posts, my followers need to see this stuff.

Now, I want to thank the newbies who followed my blog. IF you guys don’t hate women,, you’re welcome to check it out. Please email me at denverqueen@gmx.com, for that is the email address I use for blog and podcast issues. Please put Denverqueen’s Weblog in the subject line, or if podcast related, put The Throne Room with Beth Taurasi in the subject line.

Thank you for reading.

Beth

Letter to All My Friends Who Support an End to Online Abuse

Dear friends and family and supporters here on WordPress,

I would like to ask for all of you to come together, and I want some of you to see what has happened to me even today. There are online abusers that have not been very forthcoming and transparent as to the reasons why they are abusing the Internet and abusing me in the process. I want to talk about the recent call to take down the post about Bill and Wes’s screenshot about Clayton. It’s not coming down, and for the reason that the two men responsible for ganging up on Clayton have their names and usernames on the screenshots, so I won’t be taking the posts down. Screenshots don’t lie. These guys who ganged up on my buddy don’t deserve anything less than the aggressive campaign to eliminate online extremism that needs to be done. Let me also tell you guys about a recent attack from two different phone numbers I got from a dude called … and you guys better not be weird about this, but I wrote his name down because I didn’t want to be cast under a spell of “Don’t tell anyone and I won’t harass you/kill you.” Ramon Salazar has been harassing people in my community, and getting support from the guys I mentioned earlier, and probably getting a pardon from Agent Orange, better known as Donald J. Trump. That guy is in serious trouble over the Capitol riots, no joke, and Ramon wants to prove to the world that women’s brains are smaller, that they aren’t smart enough to see through his bullshit. I’ve been spending a lot of time today trying to understand why a psychotic dude who is clearly using dogwhistles to call over the manisphere that Laura Bates mentioned in her latest book. I want to know why the hell this Ramon Salazar, who has a reportedly Mexican accent, is not coming out in the woodwork and trying to do something IRL. Usually, the manisphere puts out abusive content toward women, and they actually do IRL things. I think I’m going to explain what security measures I’ll have to put in place.

For one, I think I’ll need a Guard Dog or similar brand stun gun. I know, I know, I don’t want to mention weapons here, but I need to become a defender of life and a warrior queen here. Nobody messes with me anymore, otherwise meet the weaponry I will have to learn to use because I am done taking abuse lying down. Anyone want to mess with me? Well, you won’t be able to for several reasons: A. my building is gated, and I didn’t write my door code here I swear to God, but there is a code you need to know and I will not allow someone in the first vestibule door without knowing the code. The people with the code include but are not limited to caregivers, delivery people, Amazon people or post people or UPS individuals and delivery personnel, all that is included and then there are church friends who want to deliver something upstairs. That’s it. B. The other reason you won’t be messing around with me is this. IF you do, and you can’t get through the door, too bad. Don’t follow the little old ladies and gents in my building in the door without a code. If you are asked and you answer, “I want to take something from Beth, I want to attack Beth Taurasi because she’s been blankity blank and her boyfriend is a blankity blank.” You say those words, and I will ask the management to at least notify me, and I won’t let you in. Oh and don’t break my door. You’ll pay for its repair by way of fines and restitution to my building manager. She’s cool, but if someone wants to break down my door, we are not going with you, and we won’t let you in. I will warn my building of your approach, and I will figure you out, whoever you are who wants to end my life without thinking that others actually give a crap. Brutality on the part of police is not okay, neither is threatening someone like me or my partner, both of us representing intersectional minority groups and such. YOu guys need to be humble and leave us alone. Don’t text me, call me, or anything if you have ill intent, I don’t care. Don’t try to mess around with me because I don’t have all the financial wherewithal to deal with 24/7 police protection and dogs and what not. I can’t have certain cameras and security systems, but I’d like to thank my buddy Serena, AKA DJ Saffron, for recommending Deep Sentinel, which is a camera based system that detects suspicious folks, and the cameras see for me so that the customer has peace of mind. I’d be damned if someone tried to steal something from me, attack me, or anything on my property. However, my apartment building doesn’t support Deep sentinel, and won’t let me have any old security alarm even ADT. Serena did however give me this wonderful idea, the question is setup and accessing the stuff. Is all. So if any of you wish to attack or maim myself or my partner, I promise I’ll have a security system in place to make sure you don’t mess around with me. If I have to, I’ll get me a female pit bull or an intimidating looking rottweiler or something big and strong like a mastiff to defend me. If I was allowed to do this, I’d get me a Tibetan mastiff, train it to guard my property and let a rip on some of the more aggressive folks. It’s not something to play with, and online abuse and threats from the persistent trolling folks is not something to ignore either. Ignoring and blocking don’t work all the time, so please, people, if you intend to abuse someone like myself, all because of guardianship and such, think of yourself in jail and in solitary confinement or confronting your judge at a criminal trial for harassment, and you protesting, “But she slandered me/she’s a biatch/she’s threatening me.” NO, I’m not threatening anyone, I’m stating here what is going to have to happen to protect me and my partner, and we will protect babies and vulnerable cats and dogs, so please, if you’re a friend or family member, thank you for your support. Serena, you’re amazing in every way and I need to see you on Twitter spaces more often, thanks for your ideas and I look forward to working with you. Also, on the flip side, I realize that people think I’m a slanderous and libelous writer and blogger, but if my story is the same all the time, I am not a liar. Stop telling me to take things down, don’t listen to the ganger uppers on Clayton, and listen listen listen to Clayton because he knows and lives grief and loss every day. He admits perhaps that he might have failed somewhere to protect his sibling, but he knows what needs to be done. Police must be held accountable for all misconduct, period. Some of the cops here in Denver have been disciplined for “hunting” people at the George Floyd protests. I want an end to police violence like the next guy, but keep my guardianship and mental health out of your mouths unless I am telling the story, and even then, do not write negative or deconstructive feedback on this subject. I cannot tell you how many times people think it’s funny to beat up my old friend from chorus, and yet she turns around and gobbles up the right wing narrative told to her through guys who aren’t even flesh and blood contacts she has met in person. Perhaps we can talk, this girl and I, and she can tell me why people beat her up online and on the streets for standing up for me. This is unacceptable behavior, unacceptable misconduct, and furthermore, I’m going to perform with Denver Women’s Chorus and possibly Soar, and if you hear me, Soar friends, DWC friends, this group of abusers wants to silence my voice by pinning slander and stuff on me. They’re entitled, don’t wanna admit the truth, don’t wanna accept too much strength from a woman, any strength at all. I’m going to be on the stage, singing, and where will this other group be? Nowhere to be found in Denver I hope. To protect the DWC and Soar, I will no longer be posting address information in a public post on Facebook, so if you want tickets to a concert I’m in, please message me privately on either platform, and I’ll just give you the address if you’re in the area only. IF we stream it online, great. But I want the girls to be safe, so you out of staters won’t be invited to go to concerts unless you’re in the Denver area, and you have to be for real. I don’t sell tickets to haters, so haters back off.

Beth

I Don’t Hate Men

Dear readers,

Disclaimer: I do not hate men, and I’m still feministing and being cool, but let me make one thing clear, I do not hate men. There are good guys and bad guys, and I’m gonna talk about both, so here goes.

First and foremost, I see you good men out there. I see you who don’t wanna hurt your wives, kill your girlfriends, or shoot up college campuses all in the name of a sexist societal change. I see you guys who open doors, pull out chairs, and talk serious about letting your female colleagues advance in companies like the tech companies and the ones serving us today like those in restaurant chains and the like. I see you good guys out there, the ones who are truly mature enough to see that some of your actions are wrong, and I see you guys who own up to violent encounters, and without use of faulty manasphere thinking, you do your part to change your life for the better.

The reason I write this is because of men I’m about to cover. I see men online who write terrible things about me and other women, men who don’t take ownership of their responsibilities like for example, this paraphrase from a dude in Colorado even, “She put a DV (domestic violence) charge on me if I didn’t pick up my kids.” Really? Did you really abuse your ex wife, sir? I wonder, are there any others I can think of that are just nasty? I have too many names in my mind, and they’re all blind or physically disabled. This is just one category, but there are millions of unnamed guys I don’t know in extremism communities, including MGTOW, incels, and other communities in the big wide “manasphere.” Thank you, Laura Bates, for writing a great as hell book about this subject, and now I have a healthy respect for good males and good males who don’t do bad things. Laura Bates has lots of examples of how misogyny is dangerous, and she doesn’t have to look too far back or forward.

I have a great partner who actually thinks Bates’s book is great, and we both do not really support the manasphere, and we both understand gender inequality like nobody’s business. Look carefully, especially at some of the disabled community. There is sexism, white supremacy, and all kinds of wrong in the disabled community, and sadly, it’s perpetrated by disabled men, especially the ones living at home with their parents, or the ones who openly admit to denying paternity over children, and those who sit there and complain they don’t get the sex they want with women.

Socially awkward men scare me, and I thought I found a kindred spirit in a man I knew only online and let me tell you how it worked. I thought that “Jason”, the name I saw on the Skype request was indeed a genuine recording “artist.” I quickly added him, and he and I had some talks, fell in love, and then … sadly, but in some weird way, we met. Jason seemed like a good guy at first, but then the trouble started when he was isolating me from good guys like my ex, Deq, who has beliefs that kind of clash with mine, and he needs to get his head straight with certain groups of people, truly because these people, these people including sheikhs and others who have certain incendiary things to say about women are dangerous just like the straight dudes in the incel community are. Either way, Deq respected me, but tried to control which authors and books I read, but who cares. I had to hide certain aspects of life from him because he didn’t get it. Jason was worse, way worse, in that he had some perpetual racial stereotypes about African Americans, Somali immigrants, and so many other types of individuals he had a whole novel he could have written. Jason was calling Mexicans a popular immigrant slur and was suggesting to me that “All Muslims are terrorists.” Not true, and I’ve met some peaceable Muslim folks since, people who actually realize that some of Deq’s incendiary commentary wasn’t cool. That was part of the reason I broke up with Deq, but another reason was the brothers and I had to put Islam away in a box marked, memories. The memory of Islam is not that pleasant, but there are pleasant layers of the sisterhood in Denver, and that’s fine. The brothers were the problem, and my future depended on me leaving Islamic communities behind, but not leaving my support for a peaceable observance behind. What Jason did was lie about Islam being a religion of the sword, not surprising because in the Bible Belt, including Florida or Georgia, churches with such hateful rhetoric against Islam abound, also the churches somehow get away with preaching nasty stuff about gays, women, and simply everybody who is not Evangelical Christian or white or making less than $4000 a month.

Jason gave me two sets of jewels when I met him a second time, but by that time, he had been isolating me, controlling me, picking my friends, hosting all my Skype groups, all of that plus cheating and lying and stealing while at the same time, we had some relations, sexual stuff, but it wasn’t all that satisfying knowing that this man is capable of being awkward and cheating on me. I had been cheated on also by another man in California, but Jason is a glaring example of a man to stay away from. He’s been stalking girls on the Internet, demanding sexual relations with one or two at a time, perhaps he’s telling all the Jessica Sara and Britney girls he stalks, and I’m saying Sara Jessica Britney because I’m talking about this in the same way you say Tom, Dick and Harry, but he pretty much tells every Sara, Jessica and Britney out there that “You’ve signed your death warrant by being friends with Beth.” Picture Jason as the President of Panam, the country in Hunger Games, and you see what I mean. If you were friends with me and Jason knew it, he’d strike you with thet National Guard, and that’s the kind of guy that started slowly coming out when I returned to Denver after our first rendezvous. It was painful to see him do this to Jennifer Weaver (she died in 2015), and worse yet, to other girls I cared about. He finagled Caitlin, another girl I truly did care about, to stop speaking to me, and now she’s joined awkward ranks and told me not to speak out against Jason, but who cares. Jason is someone you don’t want ruling your newspapers, your companies, your household, your country’s government. Jason is not just the man I dated, he is a monster that comes in many other guys as well, including that Bryan Laundry dude who killed Gabby Petito, and now guess who’s after him? Dog the Bounty Hunter, and I’m actually very happy that’s happening, for Dwayne the Dog Chapman has a pretty good thing going and he’s considered a legend.

If you’re Jason, you’re bad. And the words that read, you have signed your death warrant for being friends with Beth, those words hurt. Just because I somehow forced Jason to break up with me, well I didn’t want to at first, but others have told me just what a blessing it was for Jason to abandon ship, and I learned later about the warning signs of domestic abuse. All I can say is, in any way I can without being mean, thanks. Thanks, Jason, for not acting like Bryan Laundry, evading the authorities, but no thanks for the relationship because you cheated on me and you tried to weaken my whole spiritual experience. No thanks for telling me that all Muslims are something that they’re not supposed to be. So yeah, no thanks because you made Jennifer cry her brains out, you said I could die or my friends signed a death warrant and no, don’t run for government office because you hurt me. You really did hurt me, I don’t care if your disabilities did this. They didn’t. You hurt me so bad I cried for days after you broke it off. You even wanted me out of your life, well I’m living with scars, and these scars remind me that I ain’t done fighting for women’s safety in relationships. Thanks to Laura’s book, I have a better experience and understanding of guys like Jason and the composite sketches Leigh Baker also used to help parents learn how to detect sexual predators. Jason is not just the Jason I dated. He is the monster under your bed, the pounding pain in your head when you don’t want it, so you take Advil to get rid of it. He is the guy you see lurking on the Internet, or even in the bushes, waiting to yell a nasty comment your way. Jason is the guy who lies, cheats, and steals, and tries to upend democracy as we know it. Jason is a guy, but he’s also in just about every bad guy I know. HE is a recent ex, recently barred from advancement because a lady said he touched her. He is a guy who didn’t budge when his girlfriend called me a “dog in heat.” He is the guy you don’t want to meet at a bar, but you do anyway and end up messed up in the head because you feel slighted. He is the guy you can’t believe got you pregnant, and then tried to get custody of your baby, and all the while facing criminal prosecution for your rape. He is the type of guy I chose to date because being that I was born blind, and locked out of life like a child, I had no options. I had no decent men in my life. Until Trenton.

I want to take a few lines to honor Trenton, my partner, who might as well be a husband, but we won’t legalize things till this SSI thing is settled, and Congress, I’m counting you in. Get this passed, please. As Trenton is a good man, I’d rather have him a hundred per cent. Trenton is someone I’d call respectable, honorable, and a gentleman after my own heart. He and a buddy of mine named Clayton in Arizona, though they’re both different, deep down they’re good guys. Unlike the Jasons in the world, Clayton has owned up to his actions, owned up to everything really, and he has made a good life for himself, has ambitions, has desires, wishes, wants. Who knew if this or other good men could be the key to ending violence against women? In any case, I want to make something clear. Feminism is something that any man or woman benefits from, and I have written plenty of things regarding my relationship woes. In any case, I better get to bed.

Covid, Vaccines, and Why Science Works

Dear readers,

Please read if you really care about other people. So here goes.

Covid is a bad virus, and it kills. I have a buddy who lost both her parents to Covid 19, and it sucks. For her, she will never have Thanksgiving and Christmas gatherings for her children at the parents’ house again. Both parents being gone, her young daughters will have to cope with the loss of Grandpa and Grandma.

When I got the vaccine, I felt freer. Of course, I understand where some people are coming from. However, you should try and get the vaccine because you don’t want your parents and grandparents to die of a needless pandemic. If you have an elderly relative in a nursing home, please do me a favor and get the vaccine. Phiser has an FDA approved vaccine, and I got it before the FDA said anything, but i’m ready to wait for a booster shot. Know why we need boosters? Because of the Delta variant. My partner is so precious to me, I told him he’s getting the booster shot. I said he would die if he caught Delta. Our caregiver is amazing, but we don’t get enough time with her. We have two cartons of eggs in our fridge, and she hasn’t used them yet. She’s unvaccinated, and I hope not a victim of delta. But it’s only a matter of time, and strange clients, that she could catch covid. We’ve got lots of other reasons to get the vaccine, including I want to be able to go places, and do things, and go to concerts. Garth Brooks has canceled all five of his remaining shows. Is that fair? Covid is the top reason venues are actively canceling concerts. If you want concerts, get the vaccine. It’s the only way you can stay out of the ICU beds that are needed for other care. I have a buddy with cancer who needs treatment, but covid really messed everything up for her. Please consider she needs a place to go for treatment.

Before you travel to Euroope, read this important and timely book.

Dear readers,

So you want to go to the Eiffel Tower in Paris, France, or you want to order a beer at an actual German beer cafe or something, or perhaps you want to visit museums in Italy or the UK. You make your travel reservations, and then when you fly into Amsterdam, you want to see all the wonders that the Dutch bring to our world, but then … oh no. Some guy just cornered you and is staring at you because he wants sex. Is that what you want your European vacation to include?

If you are wondering why I wrote this, read Ayaan Hirsi Ali’s new book, entitled Prey and find out more about Europe’s problems with Muslim majority countries, and moreover its problems regarding women and females of all types being groped, stared at, intimidated. The book has a big trigger warning, so bear that in mind. However, Hirsi Ali does it again. She’s a women’s rights advocate and though she may not be a lawyer of sorts, Ayaan’s book reads like a big giant sociology project on Europe. Here’s some of the summary details of what she says in this new book. I know some of you will cringe thinking about this, but these are important details.

Ayaan Hirsi Ali takes two years out of the more recent, and gobbles up lots of news reports from those years, 2015-2016. In this book, she summarizes many attacks on women by asylum seeker men from different countries. I know where she’s going. But to summarize, she also says that immigration done right is the answer. She points out a lot is wrong with European justice systems, and because of the men in her attack profiles, most of them from Africa and the Middle East, attacking European women and getting away with practically anything, she says liberal feminists aren’t being taken seriously. We know that in prior books, Hirsi Ali summarized the security she’d been living with for lengths of time. Ayaan’s bodyguard of whatever is necessary because she gets death threats. I personally would never touch her with a ten foot pole, but I would want to meet this woman. I practically idolize her stuff, and I’ve dealt with the same sorts of things she has in regards to men. Not all men would leer at me, but some do. Some think I have a nice butt, but I have to use a bit of humor to throw it back in their faces. That doesn’t always sit well with some. Now, what would Ayaan Hirsi Ali want us to do in Europe if we’re women? Well, here’s the deal.

First, don’t walk out in the nude. These guys really think that if you walk out there naked, you’re asking for it. However, if you do want to walk out in the nude, carry mace or sprays with you. I would carry mace even here in the States because there are just some guys who won’t leave you alone if you are in their presence.

I’d require all girls seeking to do European trips to go in groups. A travel group would require you to do a curfew and be back at a certain time, and you would need to be carefully monitored as to where you are. Traveling alone is not advisable especially for females at this time. But then again, you want to avoid another Natalie Holloway, and this means you don’t want to end up on everybody’s disappearing list on the newspapers, as Holloway did. She was in Aruba, having a lot of fun, but then she started drinking. This leads to my next thing.

I’d drink responsibly in Germany. Or Ireland, UK, or anywhere else. I’d drink only a certain amount and then go right back into soft drinks and so on. Germany is a good example of a country that doesn’t let you drink if you’re not eighteen or can’t reach the beer bar. If anything, drinking is part of the cultures in the European countries you’d likely visit, so be prepared to make sure you do drink responsibly.

For LGBTQI+ travelers, again go in a group. You might have to forego walking hand in hand in certain areas with your partner given the way people might leer at you, and it isn’t even the native born species doing it.

Make sure you check in with friends and family back home regularly. IF someone attacks your travel group, prepare to defend the group and tell the local police about it. Also, get a phrasebook of the native language so you can identify words for things like, “some guy groped me” or “Some guy wanted my money.” Don’t hesitate to try out the native language if that’s what you need to do. Example, if I’m attacked in Germany, I want to tell the local police in German that “I was attacked by a guy wearing a green skull cap and I took his shirt off. He sounded like some dude from Morocco.” IF you are fluent in German, that’s all well and good. However, if some guy is attacking someone who doesn’t know the native language of the country, just try your best to describe your attack in English, of course. Most European schoolchildren today are learning English, but don’t take this for granted. You want to tell the police that your attacker was this guy who looked a certain way and wore such and such. Same thing you would do in America.

Do not let anyone walk you home. As weird as it sounds, it’s essential that only group members walk each other home.

Make sure your stuff is accounted for before and after your trip. Make sure you have all your papers in order, and if you’ve been attacked, be sure you take care of this situation with a group member partnered with you before you fly home.

As much as I’d like to say someone should walk a girl home, it’s not possible anymore. Knowing the language would make you less of a target to enemies and strangers. Example, if you visit Norway, know your Norwegian like the back of your head. There are two dialects within the language, so learn them both. Get your Norwegian in gear so you can communicate with a Norwegian policeman or woman or whoever if you get assaulted. This way, you can describe the crime that was committed against you. It would also help to learn a bit of Arabic, or even Berber, or some other languages so that if you can figure out what the attacker is doing, you can yell at him in his own tongue. That might scare the crap out of him, and knowing what to say when will get you far on the road to a successful trip to Europe. Now you can move on and look at wines and beautiful paintings and stare at stuff at all times and not worry as much.

Beth

The NFB and voter suppression

Dear readers,

While most of the NFB resolutions are about tech toys, what usual stuff, and NLS and other provisions, I think voter suppression should be discussed. The NFB got it right this time. While the NFB surely didn’t impose its will on Facebook and other websites, it must do something about voter suppression. Suppressing votes in the name of Gilead must stop. Here’s why.

When you go to vote, there’s something you have to remember. Votingn is a private and sacred part of Democracy. Georgia and Florida suppressed that right to black individuals and not surprisingly, to blind ones too. They made it cumbersome and impossible because they don’t like us, don’t want us, and want to hold on to the status quo. So what to do in this case.

Follow the legal ball. Put lawsuits in as many courts as possible. There is no structured negotiation with voter suppression. You must sue. Suing is not something you want to do openly, but suing is the only way to tell people that this is a big mistake. We also need to remove Trump appointees to the bench, somehow and someway and put ethics investigations on them. We need to dig through Amy Coney Barrett’s garbage, for example, and find essays that she wrote favoring Catholics over UU’s for example. I’d get the National Enquirer to do that. Tabloids are one good way to manipulate the public ire against people like Brent Cavanaugh. That guy got in even though someone said he made her look bad and at her expense, had fun. Cavanaugh used the disabled as his saints so he could get into the supreme Court. Ethics violation? Let’s dig through the garbage.

Next, we need to replace the Trump appointees with more UU oriented and America oriented court appointees who will write logically better essays, stop quoting papers from Notre Dame, and people who will allow black lives to matter, strike down voter suppression, and make the country livable and safe for LGBTQI+ parents and adults and kids as well. These new appointees need to undo the damage that the extremists we have now are doing. We need to make sure that any new legislation doesn’t make voter suppression and misinformation a thing. So if you’re the National Enquirer or the Esquire magazine, dig through the garbage and see whwat you can find. One man’s trash is another man’s gold mine.

Next, we need a moratorium on guardianships. The NFB fails again and again and again to look at guardianship as an essential blindness issue. IF you have a guardianship, essentially you can’t do anything, including in some places vote. You can’t even have a bank account. You can’t marry the one you love, and Britney Spears has an IUD in her body which prevents pregnancy. Britney and other disabled women in guardianship are essentially treated as dogs or pet kittens to the guardians that do things for them. Britney is like Jamie’s dog rather than his daughter. I don’t say this to insult Britney, but when you forcibly put an IUD in your daughter, you’re saying, you’re my pet, not my daughter. Jamie Lyn, Britney’s sister, needs to be clear with her dad that Britney is a person and will be treated as such.I was treated more or less like a pet dog. And rather than a daughter, I was treated more or less also like a piece of property. My parents took control of my life because they were abusive. They did not and still will not define the action they did as abusive.

The government should also be doing the good work of giving disabled nonworking people more asset. $750 is not a lot to live on and not enough. Neither is $794 or $804. We need an update to the SSI and SSDI program. Luckily, old Joe just fired a Trump holdout in the SSA. Hopefully, he will put some new rules for SSI recipients here, and I will get more, keep more, and marry legally. Since its 1978 or so inception, the SSI program has had no change like this. Marriage penalizing has been present because of ableist thoughts and social exclusion. It’s time for all that to go.

Now I am working with a massive ear infection that is clogging and clogging and clogging up my right ear with wax and wax and more wax. Okay, I’l take that, but it’s too much for me. I’m sitting up right now.

Beth

Britney’s Freedom is My Freedom

Dear Britney spears,

I feel so much for you it isn’t funny. When you revealed you had an IUD put in to prevent you from getting pregnant, I almost died inside. While my birth control pills are a choice, there is a problematic thing about doing IUD or Nexplanon, and this is what it boils down to. Putting things in your body that are implanted is rather invasive, and an IUD can break and you could die. I’m scared for you because of Amy winehouse, the gal behind Rehab, and I love that song. truth is that she committed suicide by alcohol because her stupid father had a conservatorship similar in scope to your own. Britney, I hope you will hear me out.

I was seventeen when my parents declared me unfit to manage my own affairs, got guardianship, and put me away when I tried to have relationships. There’s a girl in Orlando going through the same thing. guardianship and conservatorship is sexist, ableist, and so much bullshit I know what you want when I hear you say it’s abusive. It is, believe me, you don’t want to know what my parents think of me now that I forced them to discharge the guardianship. I had threatened in emails to have them in a restraining order so they couldn’t contact me because guardianships like theirs are cruel and unusual, and the ones who think guardianship is good for. me are usually stupid evil white men. I received a rather trolling comment, hence why you don’t see a comment field in this blog, from a Wes Derby who ultimately said, “Florida was correct in giving your parents guardianship.” I felt so insulted I had to black out all comments, and it wasn’t just Wes’s, it was everybody. He ruined the comment thing for everybody. And it’s not that I don’t want you to comment, Britney, but you can always email me and we can talk. Britney, I know you have a fortune you can’t access, but you have me. I’m against all forms of adult guardianship for all people, and it’s because the system is set up to benefit the bad guys, the parents and professionals, the people who think it’s rather funny when I don’t succeed in life itself. Britney, you have a lot of blessings amid this. You have your sons, you have a fortune worth millions of dollars I’ll never obtain. And because I was called a moron by so many people, I had to shut down the comment discussion here on this blog. If you really want to, write me on FB or Twitter. I’m on Instagram, but I don’t usually put pics up. Britney, you don’t have to worry about suing your family for violating your civil rights. I do. Because I want to have a little Beth or a little Trenton and I will not have any other kids. Siblings will force me to favor one child or another child, so I will not have siblings. My own siblings were favored, my brother that is. And they made very rude comments about me when I was in mental health rehab. I had no drugs, no substance use history, so you know what? There should have been no damn excuse for parents like my own to have a sexist ableist cruel and unusual hold on my whole damn life. They should have let go, and they didn’t for fifteen years. They are ableist, cruel and racist. When. I mention critical race theory, my dad says, oh it won’t affect you. Wrong, it will affect his granddaughter or grandson. I will of course have to keep an eye on my parents, we will have to reconcile somehow, but I can’t do a full reconciliation because that would put my kid in danger. IF it is a female child, I will have to carefully pick who she hangs out with while she’s between one and six, but beyond age six, she needs to have a moral compass. Britney, I will parent my own child better than my mom did. I will not leave her unattended, in a cradle crying, or in a dark room because she did something or other. Britney, I will not let my child be traumatized in the first six years of her life, for those years are the foundation on which she will grow. For another thing, I will teach my kid to be respectful around law enforcement, maybe even connect with law enforcement so they will know my family. My future child will likely be biracial, which means critical race theory does indeed affect her. IF she doesn’t learn about slavery and discrimination and sexism, she will be ignorant and unable to decipher how to make the world a better place.

Let’s just say that the way things are, blind people will not show up at a baby shower for me. So britney, let me promise you this. IF you have a third kid, do send me an invite to your baby shower. We could do a virtual one, and I could buy you something nice, maybe I’d buy you a cradle for that baby. But moreover, I’ll sing you one of those lullabies you forgot over the years. Hush-a-by baby, don’t say a word. Remember that one? the one where you say you’ll buy that kid a mockingbird? I’ll definitely have that in my repertoire. then there’s Bye Baby Bunting, daddy’s gone a-hunting. Just anything you could think of, lullabies are everywhere and you must sing them to that little boy or girl when it arrives. Why? Because babies love it. Yeah, and when baby gets sick, you’ll at least know how to detect fevers in your baby. Doesn’t every mom touch baby’s face? Duh, and I being blind need to do a serious checkup and get me a talking ear thermometer. My partner Trenton and I are always debating what will come down and what won’t. We have to upgrade tech first, but I said to him I insist on having a baby before I turn forty. Forty!!!!!! So yeah.

Britney, I can’t wait to see the baby pics when you have a new baby with Sam, and I want you to, so get that stupid IUD out of your uterus and get going. Like what the hell are you waiting for? And you can bet your bottom dollar that when I have my own baby, I will show you a pic of her, all new and slimy or all new and smelling like roses. Haha. Babies don’t usually smell like roses anyway.

Good luck ending your conservatorship.

Beth

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