Ruminations and Reasons for Fending Off Internet Abuse and Thank You to Followers

Dear readers and followers,

I’d like to ruminate a bit and thank my followers, the newbies, for coming on and following my blog. Comments have been disabled due to internet trolling and illicit threats to take me to court among other things. I’m sorry if you wanted a blog that would allow comments, but I had to make that decision so that I could continue writing and be heard. Currently, my power beats wireless headphones are singing German baroque music to me. I have studied music from Bach and Beethoven among other things, and I’m glad I was able to study and learn what small things I did learn at college. Unfortunately, because of accessibility and parental constraints, I could not get my Bachelor’s of Arts degree. I cannot share this post on Facebook really, but if I did, the link wouldn’t read properly on the app or smartphone, so I won’t. If anyone wants to know the truth, I love writing and music, I’m a creative mind, but the people who want to put an end and a damper on my musical career and turn me into a slave are also stealing friends from me. I’m not supposing or suggesting that any woman friend is weak, but they are not educated about the dogwhistle rhetoric coming from males about me, stuff that is sexist and ableist. I’ve been freed from guardianship since December 2020, and I can’t get it back and won’t allow it to creep back into my life because of a few things. One, it’s abusive, and two, it’s abusive, and three, it’s a bad example for my kids. IF I have kids, which I don’t at the moment, I want to have them raised by a free couple, a couple that is free to love and cherish the child without having to hand them over.

This reminds me of a WSJ (The Wall Street Journal) article that emulated what was going on in Afghanistan. Now that girls are not allowed to do things because they are girls, now that women are banned from the public eye thanks to Taliban overreach, there’s a housekeeper who wants to surrender her daughter to pay off debts. She owes the equivalent of $500 plus in Afghan currency, and everything is too expensive in Afghanistan. I understand the woman’s plight, but a child is a child, and she is more precious than her mom is at the moment. Only three, she could be thrown into a family she doesn’t like, abused by the household, and forcibly married to a son, age six right now, when she reaches puberty. Ugh, I just want to kick some butt right now. I’d like to say to this poor woman, “Put the child up for adoption in the United States, so she can be educated, have a life, have love, a job, what have you.” But it makes me sick that even moms here in the U.S. would sell their kid, anyone who sells a child of any color, complexion, whatever makes me ill. There’s a lady in my church whose husband is Hindu, and some of her practices are Hinduism based as well. She explains things about India’s culture I never understood before. Unfortunately for many kids in India, child marriage is a thing. Unchained at Last also did studies on child marriage, but marriage is not anything but slavery for the girls involved, about 85% or more victims of this practice according to one Unchained At Last study are girls. Some are men, some are older women, but it is girls who are victimized the most. Correct me, Ayaan, if you read my blog and discover something a bit off about stats, but I don’t usually read graphs and such.

Because people aren’t believing me or telling me the things that are true, and it’s not about what I wanna hear, it’s about truth, I’m going to be blunt here. Guys who’ve been abusing myself and my fans on this blog need to stop what they are doing and realize that I am going to get more followers and do more things without them involved. For another thing, the guys who want to take me to court aren’t going to be successful, and any judge would laugh the bastards out of court because they’d see through this tomfoolery and I’d tell them, and the judge would say, “Hmmm, you said what about a guardianship?” I’d tell the judge that the case was closed in December, and these guys are jealous and want me in a cage so they can throw crumbs at me. I want them and their case laughed out of court. I won’t take down posts, my followers need to see this stuff.

Now, I want to thank the newbies who followed my blog. IF you guys don’t hate women,, you’re welcome to check it out. Please email me at denverqueen@gmx.com, for that is the email address I use for blog and podcast issues. Please put Denverqueen’s Weblog in the subject line, or if podcast related, put The Throne Room with Beth Taurasi in the subject line.

Thank you for reading.

Beth

Letter to All My Friends Who Support an End to Online Abuse

Dear friends and family and supporters here on WordPress,

I would like to ask for all of you to come together, and I want some of you to see what has happened to me even today. There are online abusers that have not been very forthcoming and transparent as to the reasons why they are abusing the Internet and abusing me in the process. I want to talk about the recent call to take down the post about Bill and Wes’s screenshot about Clayton. It’s not coming down, and for the reason that the two men responsible for ganging up on Clayton have their names and usernames on the screenshots, so I won’t be taking the posts down. Screenshots don’t lie. These guys who ganged up on my buddy don’t deserve anything less than the aggressive campaign to eliminate online extremism that needs to be done. Let me also tell you guys about a recent attack from two different phone numbers I got from a dude called … and you guys better not be weird about this, but I wrote his name down because I didn’t want to be cast under a spell of “Don’t tell anyone and I won’t harass you/kill you.” Ramon Salazar has been harassing people in my community, and getting support from the guys I mentioned earlier, and probably getting a pardon from Agent Orange, better known as Donald J. Trump. That guy is in serious trouble over the Capitol riots, no joke, and Ramon wants to prove to the world that women’s brains are smaller, that they aren’t smart enough to see through his bullshit. I’ve been spending a lot of time today trying to understand why a psychotic dude who is clearly using dogwhistles to call over the manisphere that Laura Bates mentioned in her latest book. I want to know why the hell this Ramon Salazar, who has a reportedly Mexican accent, is not coming out in the woodwork and trying to do something IRL. Usually, the manisphere puts out abusive content toward women, and they actually do IRL things. I think I’m going to explain what security measures I’ll have to put in place.

For one, I think I’ll need a Guard Dog or similar brand stun gun. I know, I know, I don’t want to mention weapons here, but I need to become a defender of life and a warrior queen here. Nobody messes with me anymore, otherwise meet the weaponry I will have to learn to use because I am done taking abuse lying down. Anyone want to mess with me? Well, you won’t be able to for several reasons: A. my building is gated, and I didn’t write my door code here I swear to God, but there is a code you need to know and I will not allow someone in the first vestibule door without knowing the code. The people with the code include but are not limited to caregivers, delivery people, Amazon people or post people or UPS individuals and delivery personnel, all that is included and then there are church friends who want to deliver something upstairs. That’s it. B. The other reason you won’t be messing around with me is this. IF you do, and you can’t get through the door, too bad. Don’t follow the little old ladies and gents in my building in the door without a code. If you are asked and you answer, “I want to take something from Beth, I want to attack Beth Taurasi because she’s been blankity blank and her boyfriend is a blankity blank.” You say those words, and I will ask the management to at least notify me, and I won’t let you in. Oh and don’t break my door. You’ll pay for its repair by way of fines and restitution to my building manager. She’s cool, but if someone wants to break down my door, we are not going with you, and we won’t let you in. I will warn my building of your approach, and I will figure you out, whoever you are who wants to end my life without thinking that others actually give a crap. Brutality on the part of police is not okay, neither is threatening someone like me or my partner, both of us representing intersectional minority groups and such. YOu guys need to be humble and leave us alone. Don’t text me, call me, or anything if you have ill intent, I don’t care. Don’t try to mess around with me because I don’t have all the financial wherewithal to deal with 24/7 police protection and dogs and what not. I can’t have certain cameras and security systems, but I’d like to thank my buddy Serena, AKA DJ Saffron, for recommending Deep Sentinel, which is a camera based system that detects suspicious folks, and the cameras see for me so that the customer has peace of mind. I’d be damned if someone tried to steal something from me, attack me, or anything on my property. However, my apartment building doesn’t support Deep sentinel, and won’t let me have any old security alarm even ADT. Serena did however give me this wonderful idea, the question is setup and accessing the stuff. Is all. So if any of you wish to attack or maim myself or my partner, I promise I’ll have a security system in place to make sure you don’t mess around with me. If I have to, I’ll get me a female pit bull or an intimidating looking rottweiler or something big and strong like a mastiff to defend me. If I was allowed to do this, I’d get me a Tibetan mastiff, train it to guard my property and let a rip on some of the more aggressive folks. It’s not something to play with, and online abuse and threats from the persistent trolling folks is not something to ignore either. Ignoring and blocking don’t work all the time, so please, people, if you intend to abuse someone like myself, all because of guardianship and such, think of yourself in jail and in solitary confinement or confronting your judge at a criminal trial for harassment, and you protesting, “But she slandered me/she’s a biatch/she’s threatening me.” NO, I’m not threatening anyone, I’m stating here what is going to have to happen to protect me and my partner, and we will protect babies and vulnerable cats and dogs, so please, if you’re a friend or family member, thank you for your support. Serena, you’re amazing in every way and I need to see you on Twitter spaces more often, thanks for your ideas and I look forward to working with you. Also, on the flip side, I realize that people think I’m a slanderous and libelous writer and blogger, but if my story is the same all the time, I am not a liar. Stop telling me to take things down, don’t listen to the ganger uppers on Clayton, and listen listen listen to Clayton because he knows and lives grief and loss every day. He admits perhaps that he might have failed somewhere to protect his sibling, but he knows what needs to be done. Police must be held accountable for all misconduct, period. Some of the cops here in Denver have been disciplined for “hunting” people at the George Floyd protests. I want an end to police violence like the next guy, but keep my guardianship and mental health out of your mouths unless I am telling the story, and even then, do not write negative or deconstructive feedback on this subject. I cannot tell you how many times people think it’s funny to beat up my old friend from chorus, and yet she turns around and gobbles up the right wing narrative told to her through guys who aren’t even flesh and blood contacts she has met in person. Perhaps we can talk, this girl and I, and she can tell me why people beat her up online and on the streets for standing up for me. This is unacceptable behavior, unacceptable misconduct, and furthermore, I’m going to perform with Denver Women’s Chorus and possibly Soar, and if you hear me, Soar friends, DWC friends, this group of abusers wants to silence my voice by pinning slander and stuff on me. They’re entitled, don’t wanna admit the truth, don’t wanna accept too much strength from a woman, any strength at all. I’m going to be on the stage, singing, and where will this other group be? Nowhere to be found in Denver I hope. To protect the DWC and Soar, I will no longer be posting address information in a public post on Facebook, so if you want tickets to a concert I’m in, please message me privately on either platform, and I’ll just give you the address if you’re in the area only. IF we stream it online, great. But I want the girls to be safe, so you out of staters won’t be invited to go to concerts unless you’re in the Denver area, and you have to be for real. I don’t sell tickets to haters, so haters back off.

Beth

I Don’t Hate Men

Dear readers,

Disclaimer: I do not hate men, and I’m still feministing and being cool, but let me make one thing clear, I do not hate men. There are good guys and bad guys, and I’m gonna talk about both, so here goes.

First and foremost, I see you good men out there. I see you who don’t wanna hurt your wives, kill your girlfriends, or shoot up college campuses all in the name of a sexist societal change. I see you guys who open doors, pull out chairs, and talk serious about letting your female colleagues advance in companies like the tech companies and the ones serving us today like those in restaurant chains and the like. I see you good guys out there, the ones who are truly mature enough to see that some of your actions are wrong, and I see you guys who own up to violent encounters, and without use of faulty manasphere thinking, you do your part to change your life for the better.

The reason I write this is because of men I’m about to cover. I see men online who write terrible things about me and other women, men who don’t take ownership of their responsibilities like for example, this paraphrase from a dude in Colorado even, “She put a DV (domestic violence) charge on me if I didn’t pick up my kids.” Really? Did you really abuse your ex wife, sir? I wonder, are there any others I can think of that are just nasty? I have too many names in my mind, and they’re all blind or physically disabled. This is just one category, but there are millions of unnamed guys I don’t know in extremism communities, including MGTOW, incels, and other communities in the big wide “manasphere.” Thank you, Laura Bates, for writing a great as hell book about this subject, and now I have a healthy respect for good males and good males who don’t do bad things. Laura Bates has lots of examples of how misogyny is dangerous, and she doesn’t have to look too far back or forward.

I have a great partner who actually thinks Bates’s book is great, and we both do not really support the manasphere, and we both understand gender inequality like nobody’s business. Look carefully, especially at some of the disabled community. There is sexism, white supremacy, and all kinds of wrong in the disabled community, and sadly, it’s perpetrated by disabled men, especially the ones living at home with their parents, or the ones who openly admit to denying paternity over children, and those who sit there and complain they don’t get the sex they want with women.

Socially awkward men scare me, and I thought I found a kindred spirit in a man I knew only online and let me tell you how it worked. I thought that “Jason”, the name I saw on the Skype request was indeed a genuine recording “artist.” I quickly added him, and he and I had some talks, fell in love, and then … sadly, but in some weird way, we met. Jason seemed like a good guy at first, but then the trouble started when he was isolating me from good guys like my ex, Deq, who has beliefs that kind of clash with mine, and he needs to get his head straight with certain groups of people, truly because these people, these people including sheikhs and others who have certain incendiary things to say about women are dangerous just like the straight dudes in the incel community are. Either way, Deq respected me, but tried to control which authors and books I read, but who cares. I had to hide certain aspects of life from him because he didn’t get it. Jason was worse, way worse, in that he had some perpetual racial stereotypes about African Americans, Somali immigrants, and so many other types of individuals he had a whole novel he could have written. Jason was calling Mexicans a popular immigrant slur and was suggesting to me that “All Muslims are terrorists.” Not true, and I’ve met some peaceable Muslim folks since, people who actually realize that some of Deq’s incendiary commentary wasn’t cool. That was part of the reason I broke up with Deq, but another reason was the brothers and I had to put Islam away in a box marked, memories. The memory of Islam is not that pleasant, but there are pleasant layers of the sisterhood in Denver, and that’s fine. The brothers were the problem, and my future depended on me leaving Islamic communities behind, but not leaving my support for a peaceable observance behind. What Jason did was lie about Islam being a religion of the sword, not surprising because in the Bible Belt, including Florida or Georgia, churches with such hateful rhetoric against Islam abound, also the churches somehow get away with preaching nasty stuff about gays, women, and simply everybody who is not Evangelical Christian or white or making less than $4000 a month.

Jason gave me two sets of jewels when I met him a second time, but by that time, he had been isolating me, controlling me, picking my friends, hosting all my Skype groups, all of that plus cheating and lying and stealing while at the same time, we had some relations, sexual stuff, but it wasn’t all that satisfying knowing that this man is capable of being awkward and cheating on me. I had been cheated on also by another man in California, but Jason is a glaring example of a man to stay away from. He’s been stalking girls on the Internet, demanding sexual relations with one or two at a time, perhaps he’s telling all the Jessica Sara and Britney girls he stalks, and I’m saying Sara Jessica Britney because I’m talking about this in the same way you say Tom, Dick and Harry, but he pretty much tells every Sara, Jessica and Britney out there that “You’ve signed your death warrant by being friends with Beth.” Picture Jason as the President of Panam, the country in Hunger Games, and you see what I mean. If you were friends with me and Jason knew it, he’d strike you with thet National Guard, and that’s the kind of guy that started slowly coming out when I returned to Denver after our first rendezvous. It was painful to see him do this to Jennifer Weaver (she died in 2015), and worse yet, to other girls I cared about. He finagled Caitlin, another girl I truly did care about, to stop speaking to me, and now she’s joined awkward ranks and told me not to speak out against Jason, but who cares. Jason is someone you don’t want ruling your newspapers, your companies, your household, your country’s government. Jason is not just the man I dated, he is a monster that comes in many other guys as well, including that Bryan Laundry dude who killed Gabby Petito, and now guess who’s after him? Dog the Bounty Hunter, and I’m actually very happy that’s happening, for Dwayne the Dog Chapman has a pretty good thing going and he’s considered a legend.

If you’re Jason, you’re bad. And the words that read, you have signed your death warrant for being friends with Beth, those words hurt. Just because I somehow forced Jason to break up with me, well I didn’t want to at first, but others have told me just what a blessing it was for Jason to abandon ship, and I learned later about the warning signs of domestic abuse. All I can say is, in any way I can without being mean, thanks. Thanks, Jason, for not acting like Bryan Laundry, evading the authorities, but no thanks for the relationship because you cheated on me and you tried to weaken my whole spiritual experience. No thanks for telling me that all Muslims are something that they’re not supposed to be. So yeah, no thanks because you made Jennifer cry her brains out, you said I could die or my friends signed a death warrant and no, don’t run for government office because you hurt me. You really did hurt me, I don’t care if your disabilities did this. They didn’t. You hurt me so bad I cried for days after you broke it off. You even wanted me out of your life, well I’m living with scars, and these scars remind me that I ain’t done fighting for women’s safety in relationships. Thanks to Laura’s book, I have a better experience and understanding of guys like Jason and the composite sketches Leigh Baker also used to help parents learn how to detect sexual predators. Jason is not just the Jason I dated. He is the monster under your bed, the pounding pain in your head when you don’t want it, so you take Advil to get rid of it. He is the guy you see lurking on the Internet, or even in the bushes, waiting to yell a nasty comment your way. Jason is the guy who lies, cheats, and steals, and tries to upend democracy as we know it. Jason is a guy, but he’s also in just about every bad guy I know. HE is a recent ex, recently barred from advancement because a lady said he touched her. He is a guy who didn’t budge when his girlfriend called me a “dog in heat.” He is the guy you don’t want to meet at a bar, but you do anyway and end up messed up in the head because you feel slighted. He is the guy you can’t believe got you pregnant, and then tried to get custody of your baby, and all the while facing criminal prosecution for your rape. He is the type of guy I chose to date because being that I was born blind, and locked out of life like a child, I had no options. I had no decent men in my life. Until Trenton.

I want to take a few lines to honor Trenton, my partner, who might as well be a husband, but we won’t legalize things till this SSI thing is settled, and Congress, I’m counting you in. Get this passed, please. As Trenton is a good man, I’d rather have him a hundred per cent. Trenton is someone I’d call respectable, honorable, and a gentleman after my own heart. He and a buddy of mine named Clayton in Arizona, though they’re both different, deep down they’re good guys. Unlike the Jasons in the world, Clayton has owned up to his actions, owned up to everything really, and he has made a good life for himself, has ambitions, has desires, wishes, wants. Who knew if this or other good men could be the key to ending violence against women? In any case, I want to make something clear. Feminism is something that any man or woman benefits from, and I have written plenty of things regarding my relationship woes. In any case, I better get to bed.

How Hard Is It to Process When Freedom’s Gone?

Dear readers,

A spoiler alert is in effect for Handmaid’s Tale Season II. Please skip if you haven’t seen or watched this show. However, if you have seen the show and know what came after, do read this post.

This is hard to process. Emily found out in Season II of the Handmaid’s Tale that her professor colleague was hanged and called a really bad word that refers to gay men. Emily herself is in a lesbian relationship and her Martha partner got hanged for it. Emily was forced to go to the Colonies with the so called unwomen. Same with Janine. I feel bad for Janine, and for all the Emilys out there in Afghanistan who will never see her lover again.

There is something quite different about OfFred in the handmaid’s Tale. She’s spunky and she’s ready to rebel at all costs. Now I know why a buddy of mine hates Serena, and that gal deserves the same fate as the unknown wife in the colonies who was being punished for what? Falling in love. Women are assigned in marriage in Gilead, but let me tell you where in the real world that happens. Africa, Afghanistan, Pakistan, India, the entire third world, and the United States, so hell bent on “not offending cultural sensitivities” insists on legal child marriage. Let me explain why I hate this. Because little girls are too young to figure the love thing out … and too young for sex and relationships. Teenagers should never be brides, period.

The Taliban are notorious for acting just like the commanders, Sons of Jacob, in Gilead. And for those who say the Handmaid’s Tale is “irrelevant fiction”, go to Afghanistan. Try living under Taliban rules, no education, no work, just sex and breeding for you who say this who are straight females. My worst analysis of the recent scenes I saw in the Handmaid’s Tale are also true. I personally want to make sure that all my sisters and brothers in all communities outside of Christianity and Islam are safe, and the Handmaid’s Tale as I have said is a dire warning. It is a dire warning to us all, and Atwood’s book is even deeper. Need I ask that you read the Testaments?

The big thing is that Serena is about to find out how wicked she was to her handmaid, June Osborne, also known as OfFred. OfRobert, also known as Alma, had both her hands burned off. I couldn’t imagine why anyone would want to kill a woman like Alma. Then there was Moira, who was a Jezebel for a time, but now, boy she’s going to be very very important.

I honestly am glad we don’t have Aunt Lydias in the world, but you could say Isis’s AlHamza Brigade is similar to the aunts of Gilead, only they’re Muslim ladies with guns who force their beliefs down girls’ throats. People, if you’re not paying attention to the similarities between Gilead and Afghanistan, I don’t know what planet you’re on.

I’ll b writing an analysis of a new book by Laura bates, a book about Incels and Pickup artists and the like. I will be talking about her book, how it analyzes the internet, the trolls and former community members she’s interviewed, and so much more. Yes, I’m going to tell you, there are plenty of incels in the white communities here in America, and I did write about one such. I do have some ideas about how we can fight back against such people, but if we don’t, we’re going to be a Republican right extremist country possibly called just plain America, or Columbian Gilead, or something else. We women won’t be able to write these blogs, read other blogs, or do anything but breed and marry, and handmaids could. be the surrogacy contract that most couples could arrange and I could be in big doo doo. People say, “Block the trolls.” But the truth is these trolls are like Eliot Roger, who said he’d punish women for rejecting him. Well, I’ve got something to question Roger’s actions.

What if all men had the government right and duty to kill or maim or impregnate women? I’d have to get out a pistol like June does in the Handmaid’s Tale and … not sure what I’d do exactly, but I’d have to do a resistance thing and take down the incel regime because that revolution is invalid. First and foremost, they’re racists. Incels also don’t like women to the point where they dehumanize and downgrade women from humans to “foid.” Notice the quotation marks I put that word around.

So what are the precautions we women must take? First, I’d never go to places where these men hang out, but if you have to work at a bar, things will be different. First, I’d stick a rapex device in the birth canal, I’d warn my partner I had it there, and go to the bar. Then if a guy tries to approach me and try to work sex like a vending machine, he’d get zapped or cut, simple as this. Something like this happened to a lady in New York, and the guy was forced to go to the ER for treatment, but then the cops showed up and the DA charged him with attempted rape, and that device is evidence of such a thing taking place. Another thing women should know about these types of guys, they could organize, form a male only government, and partner with terrorist orgs. Guess whawt? It happened in Afghanistan for the second time. Taliban rulers will not allow women in cabinet positions, government positions, or what have you. They are lying to all women in their borders, and trust me, they’re a lot worse than incelibates on the internet who say, “Women are not human.” There are men who avoid women too, thinking they’ll charge them with sexual harassment. Well, here’s a tip for gents who want to approach me: don’t catcall or harass me, or you’ll get kicked by my partner because it’s not cool to harass women to begin with. My short skirt is not a license to rape, and neither is my tank top, my dress, or what have you. Neither is a geisha’s gold kimono dress or what have you. Just … don’t … do it at all. Hold your dicks in your pants, don’t open your fly at the bar, just do not do it. You can approach me as a friend, a colleague wanting me to do more with my career, help me and train me as a conductor with a choir, whatever you have to do to get to me and train me in a profession other than sex work. the sex workers have to control the situation anyway, and I don’t plan on doing such things because hell, my partner would be a bit sad, so yeah.

Now if any of you people think this Handmaid’s Tale and incel post is scatterbrained, think again. Women who’ve told me I was incapable and incompetent should know that they will lose their freedom if they associate themselves with a Gileadean government. Here’s what I think the solutions should be regarding feminism and progressive causes and women’s rights. How do we protect boys from incel communities and MGTOW as well?

1. We need to ban these communities altogether, I don’t care if you think freedom of speech. We need to set up algorithms on Facebook and other social media platforms to catch the bad guys before they act. And here’s the good news: we have that capacity, so use it or lose it.

2. We need to establish that gender and sexuality evolve over time, and reteach all these boys in our schools that it’s not okay to handle women the way a pickup artist does, and we need to make boys aware of incel communities so they stay far away from them.

3. Girls must take governing positions as women, and we need to ban some things along the way. One, we need to ban sexual harassment at work, in schools, at home, and in play. Boys need to be taught by good parents, myself included should I birth such a person, that girls are humans, and that girls are not to be raped or violated in any way possible. Boys and girls in high school should be required to read the Handmaid’s Tale and the Testaments and … explore the possible distopian results of not standing up and saying no.

With all this in mind, I’m going to continue watching the Handmaid’s Tale another time.

Beth

How do you live in a world with no blind princesses?

Dear readers,

I recently tried to answer a question for a podcast done by a blind dude who specializes in blindness specific things. One of his questions had to do with coverage in the media, and I also included Hollywood coverage. Let me tell you how lackluster at best the coverage is, and it affects not only blind women like me, but if I want to create a fan fiction story, I have to do it right. And there are no blind characters to work with in most of the hot button media series thingies. Here’s what we have to work with.

As a young girl, I grew up with Disney. How well has Disney represented disabled characters in the media? I’d give Disney an F for unfair representation of blind and disabled characters. Disabled characters in literature and movies and such are usually saints, poor beggars, or those who are cured, and examples are few and far between. There is only one blind woman who I would hold up as one who opposes being helpless. Anyone heard of Susan Oldknow? Um, maybe you haven’t, but she is in the Treasure of Green Knowe series, actually the title of the book is Treasure of Green Knowe. In this book, Spoiler alert, Susan becomes heiress to Green Knowe and she ends up overcoming loads of obstacles to get there. Among which, she has to contend with a nanny who’s completely out of her mind, a grandmother who believes Susan is an idiot, and the only friend in her family is her father, a sea captain who wants her educated like her mother and all the ladies before, and this is before the invention of Braille. But the worst thing that occurs usually in a family like this is the son gets spoiled, and Susan’s brother Sefton is no exception. He acts racist toward Susan’s companion, Jacob, who, spoiler alert, is a freed African slave the captain purchased, and yes, the boy was free in England with the captain’s family. The Captain is usually a guy who you would find away on sailing missions, so no surprise that Sefton hates his sister and wants to disparrage her companion.

What’s really sad about the blind issue in the media and coverage in television news stories and other things is this: all the blind are considered helpless, and because the NFB and other consumer orgs want better representation, there is a darker side to finding such representation. When I wrote that I needed help determining what to do with evacuation strategies for my apartment, I personally don’t feel safe here much because of the creepers here, I got nasty backlash comments from trolls who were, oddly enough, blind themselves. The blindness is not the reason I ask for help, beg to get guidance in housing situations, and so on and so forth.

What I do does not represent Hollywood or blind people in general, but I have indeed tried to hold up the community, but they seem to be tearing me down instead of lifting me up, and even local chorus people don’t seem to get it. They want to sit there and tear me down, forget I exist, or try to avoid me. I hate avoidance behavior, but I think the biggest reason we have avoidant individuals around us as blind people is because of that stupid television show, In the Dark, and the NFB’s complaints about that show are numerous. For one, the blind main character was played by a sighted actor. Ugh. This is ableist. It’s the same thing as asking Caucasian people to play Japanese characters in anime, and it’s disgusting.

As a blind girl, there are no blind princesses Disney has to offer. Tiana is the closest to getting there Disney has done with princess representation in the media. However, there is still a long way to go. Disney has yet to put a disabled actress as a princess in a movie, and to make a disabled princess be the center of the story. Because of Disney’s lack of disability positive representation, I’m considering writing Disney a heartfelt note saying that a princess with confidence and a disability would really help the community see things the way I see them. And we need a princess who can lift others up, not have to be able to see and don’t count Ariel’s temporary disability because her voice is essential to her story. ursula, the evil witch in the Little Mermaid movie Disney so violently corrupted, did take Ariel’s voice, but was killed by Eric and so on if memory serves me right. The original Hans Christian Andersen story doesn’t do much justice either. The mermaid has to, spoiler alert, kill her lover or become a child of the air, which is hardly what Disney wants. Disney’s interests aren’t the interests of the disabled community, and the more I see new princess movies come out, the more left out fellow princess lovers and Disnerds who are blind are going to feel.

When you get a little older, superheroes and more adult films are the norm. I still watch princess movies, but what will I be able to do other than write up a fairy tale that explains my life in a child’s point of view/ Nothing explains things I went through that way at all. In adult film and TV series, we have few and rare blind characters that exhibit any form of confidence or enough courage and strength to tell a blind adult or young teen, “You can be who you want to be.” If Disney wanted to do this sort of thing, maybe they should make a movie about a blind woman, not Ray Charles or Stevie Wonder, but a woman who is blind because women who are blind are poorly represented in television sitcoms, movies, and the like. No blind woman should be portrayed as a sexual object to be married off, or worse, a fear based thing you don’t want to become. As a blind woman, how can anyone be so confident in themselves as females if they see a blind woman not succeeding in making some extraordinary changes in the world? I want to change the world so it is safe for girls and women who are blind in all parts of the world to live their lives, no guardianship for girls and women, including all the remote parts of the world who seek to oppose or kill me. Honestly, I’m seriously trying to do this right, but I’m stuck on social media because of transport that’s so crappy here in my end of town. Think about it. Activists can be activists online, and I’m one who can say I’m an online activist for change, and I don’t see such activism covered in the news.

what bothers me most about the lack of Hollywood representation of people who are blind is how feared the blindness is. In classic movies, you don’t see confident blind actors and so on. Even modern movies and shows have no blind characters. It seems Arthur from PBS does, but that’s meant for educational purposes only. Sesame Street is a kid program, but we need to get the word out that blind kids and adults alike need positive role models in the media, in sitcoms, in Netflix and other streaming platform shows, and not the Healing Powers of Dude. Poor representation of disabled people and jokes about us are all over the media, and those have to go.

Luckily, I did do a good initial review of See, a show about blind characters, but why is Jason Momoa, a sighted actor, playing the blind warrior? I hope there are blind thesbians willing to speak out. At least we’re on the way to doing better, but hardly are we any closer than we should have been long ago. In 1990, Disney could have published stuff about not so helpless people with disabilities, but it’s taking them way too long. Other hollywood companies like Dreamworks, Warner Brothers, and so many others could benefit from putting blind people on TV and in movies outside an educational purpose only.

Beth

A letter to the Denver 7 peoples about guardianship

Author’s note: I forgot to mention that because I call people out for being guardian activists on behalf of upholding the status quo, or because I do speak out against unjust things, I got a death threat from a woman in Avilar, someone who was cowardice enough to disconnect her phone after I published it. Well, she deserved whatever came to her because you don’t threaten people’s lives. It’s illegal. And I don’t want hate crimes to be committed against me or my partner.

I’d like to share the email I just wrote the Denver Channel folks, though. Jennifer is their investigative girl, and she’s good. Really good. She and this producer did a story on guardianship fraud. I went and wrote the Great American novel, wink wink, about the whole thing. This is the signification of my email.

To whom it may concern,I’d like to reach out to Jennifer and Joe, who were so awesome in bringing a story about guardianship fraud to a Colorado news media channel. I hope it catches the attention of social services workers in this state as they really don’t seem to, um, care a lot like in the Netflix film. My name is Beth Taurasi. I was the victim of guardianship abuse in my native Florida, so I moved here to escape it. When I learned from LuAnn Fleming and others about what guardianship does, I pushed to have it removed. But removing a guardianship is not easy, not in any state. I was lucky to have a doc and a nurse in Colorado say well, she’s capable and competent and all that crap. But it’s ableist, sexist too. I saw the segments with Britney’s songs, and I was so supercharged because I know for a fact that Britney’s guardianship and mine are pretty similar, but different too.I was born totally blind and could never see the beautiful blue sky. But what bothered my parents was that I wanted to experience teenage girl stuff, dating and the like, but my parents were patriarchal, and my dad is someone I want to call Patriarch number 1. He might have been the one to orchestrate the guardianship and isolation I went through. I was told many times I couldn’t call a friend, talk to someone, and all that stuff. Recently I learned the power of friendship and check ins with friends because I was losing my mind over some things, drowned my sorrows in Gatorade, mind you it wasn’t Jack Daniels, but I always worried that my friends would get irate with me and say don’t call me again. Part of this problem probably stemmed from guardians like the Patriarch number 1 going after my friends and telling them how to interact with me. They treated me like an animal, not like a human being. This went on until I was told how to use the Internet, oh you will only use it from 10 AM to 4 PM EST or EDT whatever. I was living in Florida, and was begging for a trip to Littleton in Colorado to get training on the Blindness front. But I was so emotionally abused and manipulated, gaslit by professionals and teachers alike, so much because they were calling me bossy and silencing my leadership abilities. Now, I can’t even get a job and career and I don’t frankly think I will be able to safely have one because of a few different factors, mainly the activism and such. I read this book called Youth to Power, and it says you have to find your why. Well, my why with guardianship activism is because after five years, I left Florida for Littleton, and even after, I wasn’t given enough support from my parents, and they never wanted me to have money for food. I would be starving in half my classes, I passed out once, though I did get some if not a lot of care. I ended up at one time trying to find a spiritual group other than the Roman Catholic church which was where my parents came from. My partner, Trenton Matthews, is the most supportive partner I’ve had, and he has to put up with me sometimes being angry at stuff but I usually am comforted by his presence more than anything. In the years before I met my amazing partner, however, I had to endure abusive relationships, namely those of a guy online and I lacked any support for my ambitions. I wish I could go to college, but there’s a debt and I didn’t receive guidance or enough Pell grant money to go. I would fill out my FAFSA but my parents’ income might have something to do with why I am afraid I won’t get Pell money. Who would give such money to someone who wants to make a wedding a social justice issue for example? My other problems may likely be the result of me even speaking out about guardianship and the evils it likes to do and the damage left behind. When I posted on a Facebook community help thing, I got degraded by an ex and a friend of his, someone I knew and hadn’t spoken to, and this strange female figure in the blindness community. Guardianships and the blindness community are intertwined. I’m helping a gal in Orlando get her parents to shut up and let her have her SSI check and honestly, the other problem is that all parents with disabilities are liable to either not teach their kids financial skills, after which they steal the check and hold the disabled person hostage from boyfriends, friends, and others. I’m going to work on a book that helps people escape such a brutality, and it is brutality.I”m open to a news interview. I want to talk to Jennifer because when I had guardianship in Florida, the Colorado instructors in Littleton’s Colorado center for the Blind on West Shepard thought I was good for nothing, and even if it wasn’t the director Julie Deden herself, there were people in that group who were toxic. My boyfriend at the time was a Muslim, so I got Islamophobes talking about this and that and not focusing on their work. I trucked on and graduated the center, but then I realized how my expectations and the guardianship subject had been muted. None of my concerns were given to my parents. They sent all the students home from the center apartments, it wasn’t what they currently have, but when I got home, my parents forced the Catholic faith on me, I couldn’t wear hijab, I was a Muslim at the time, and sure I cared about Jesus, but guardianship allowed my parents to do spiritual abuse. I was practically done when I got back to Littleton, so I never went back. The guardianship was discharged in December of 2020 after I was committed by ceremony to Trenton, and I would use the word commitment ceremony, not wedding, in any report because weddings are usually legal and we can’t lose our benefits.The guardianship in this country is the worst thing I have ever seen. I did say I was helping a gal get out of hers, and it’s no different than mine. My former guardians used to tell me that a certain man I liked was “sexually experienced” and they forbade me from calling a school friend because he was younger, black, and Caribbean. I am done with my parents, for the most part because they don’t even talk to me much. Their actions created a rift in the family, the blindness community responded with anger and toxic commentary. My best friend of ten years is gone because he chose to respond that way. Now I can’t even talk to certain people because they’ll call me spoiled for requesting housing and other things. People simply don’t believe when I say that guardianship abuse must be curbed, stopped, even here in Colorado. I am working with Rocky Mountain Human services because the toxic culture of the blindness community contributeed to mental illness and so on, so I make it a point to use in home care services, mainly the homemaker services, and my caseworker knows the story. Rhonda Cordova, however, does not wish to help me get safe and clean housing. I wonder why. I wonder if it’s a privilege or hatred of me in particular, but the guardianship might have made the difference. Rhonda was reported for being apathetic toward my situation, and she got mad. It had to do with my building’s bedbug crap, and I can’t find housing anywhere else but yeah, the guardianship is leaving me unemployed and living in a bedbug infested chateaux. There are many layers of this and other things I could tell you as to why Colorado should get rid of guardianship in favor of supportive decision making. Pat in the story could benefit from this. He needs to be given a pet dog to play with, people need to let him have money, and perhaps the state should settle for more because he lost his estate. pat has intellectual disability, which is a bit different than me, but still, when I heard the story, even Pat knew something wasn’t right. Lawmakers should make it illegal for a parental guardianship to take place in the cases of disabled kids. ask my main caregiver, Maria Weir, she has a daughter with autism and we talk frequently about issues of social justice, one of which is guardianship. Her little daughter could end up even dead from a guardian doing a bad and evil job at caring for her. I’ve become this social justice warrior because of my life experiences, and I’m fighting some battles of my own as well. Please call me at 720-435-7407 and I’m glad to meet with you. Even if care is going on, you may come in. Please don’t scare my landlord it’s not about her.Thank you so much.PS you can check out my blog and website. I’ll copy the text of this email to my blog after a response.Beth

Letter to my ex boyfriend and others, TW ableism and sexual harassment/fragile masculinity mentioned here

The following piece is dedicated to Blake Tucker, with whom I spent 2 and a half years as a girlfriend, but I’d also like to give a shout out to Jessie, my messy and altogether very good friend from Miami, and thank him for letting me open my eyes. This piece should probably be in the feminist essay collections, and I was inspired to write this because of activists like Jessica Valenti and more importantly, there’s a Muskogee lady that wrote this brilliant essay on how women have been protecting each other in Native American circles. If anyone thinks I weaponized or did something wrong, please read below and feel free to be constructive, positive, and above all, careful what you tell me.

Dear Blake,

Last week was hell. And I couldn’t believe what you did to yourself. I’m not here to discuss a vibrator, sexual freedom, or God. I’m here to discuss you, and how you contributed to a very big problem here in America, got duped by Christians who are telling you that women like me don’t deserve to be heard, and you silently watch me get bitten up by bugs, attacked by heathen Ableists with no logic whatsoever about thee disabled experience on my end, and you don’t even connect with your Native American self. Like it or not, I think I need to tell yoou my story again and for the rest of the people reading this, especially activists, feminists, and others who are interested, I’ll explain where each of us has been.

the whole thing about vibrators is. just plain misunderstanding. Blake, you said to me shortly before we broke up something that absolutely was an affront to me being destressed in a time when stress was everywhere. I won’t write it here, you’ll only get mad at me and such. Blake, I care enough about you as a friend to say you should still go to your church, but I want to present a picture of God you never even drew, saw, or might not think exists.

Jesus, the Christ you report to for missions and so on, was an inclusive figure. Jesus was, however, used to mess up Native cultures to the point of death and nonexistence. The Spanish, particularly those in New Mexico and Arizona, used Jesus as a way to convert what they saw as “heathens.” But it has harmful consequences still today. In the ancient times, if you rolled with Jesus and the rich Eurocentric stuff, you got treated better. Is that fair? Jesus would never have said, kill the ones who don’t convert. I see a parallel between the 1500 to 1700 missions in the sixteenth through the eighteenth centuries and Muhammad the prophet’s weird and deadly fatwa, religious order, to “fight and slay the pagans where ye find them.” Muslims today have this issue with holy war, and among their so called missions is to convert everybody or make them pay with the tax or their lives. It has some rash consequences, including the genocide of the Coptic Christians, and the Jewish people have to contend with the power they are misusing. There’s a tribe in Iraq and Syria called the Yezidi that we have touched on, and because IS, or Islamic State, wants to make the whole world Muslim, you got Yezidi people dying or fighting. Nadia Murad, if you read this, I hope you see the same pattern I am about to describe below.

Blake, when the peoples you represent, all of these peoples, saw the Spanish and the pale faced white humans trashing their beliefs, going after the Native women, the men had little power to do with it. Do you know why the Trail of Tears happened? Because of a white idiot named Andrew Jackson, and the history books don’t tell you enough about it, only to whitewash it. Native beliefs were to be eradicated along with they themselves. There’s something about Natives I am drawn to, and let me explain what it is.

Muskogee activist Sarah Deer writes of a method of protecting women, an ancient survivor network and it whispers too. Deer says that “gossip is an English word” in her essay with the same words as its title. She says that women in the Indian country or first nations people would whisper that a man is dangerous, do things to protect each other, etc etc. Men would get axed not by death or killing, but there’s a whole healing process that goes with the whisper network. Would my white women friends like to try it out? I certainly want to, but Blake, here’s the deal: the tribes affirm women, LGBTQI+ and blind and deaf people. In ancient times, the Native tribes of the West, particularly tribes such as the Hopi and the Navajo, would integrate their deaf and they’d never, never seek to cure blindness. Sure, some babies lived and died as babies but it was never a shameful thing, and there was lots. of medicine to be had in the spiritual ceremony and traditions. There’s even a legend of the Cherokee tribes that affirms women’s power to give life as a weapon of sorts. When a woman in some tribes has her moon time, her menstruation, she would be allowed to go to this sweat lodge thing where she can recuperate and such, and she rests and stretches out the cramps from Hell. But imagine for a moment that this same feeling a woman has could be used to save a race of people. It did in this legend, called Stonecoat, where a stone guy tries to rob the people, kill them, etc., but seven “granddaughters” weaken him in a big show of badassery where they say, “I’m in the sacred way” each time he walks by. He’d try to convince the girls they’re dirty, but the badassery just threw him to the ground. It’s my favorite female legend of Native sorts. There are many others, and I can tell you that Natives had Romeo and Juliet in the legend of Mina-Sauk before we even had Shakespeare. These ancient traditions may not have anything with God or Jesus, but I can tell you this much: weaponizing Jesus as a way of dissing me is not going to work.

Native medicines and beliefs and ancient peoples did not necessarily have anything against a woman making herself feel good. I don’t see much of that, but regarding your comments to me before we broke, the vibrator was a doctor prescribed thing against what we used to call “female hysteria.” For disabled females, this is a common thing you might say back then. Today’s disabled female is likely to experience violence, I have, and isolation, which I have as well. I’m done trying to tell you that disabled women experience violence and you say, I know I know, but Blake, the thing is that America was built on an unfair and unjust patriarchal social hierarchy that has many layers to it. Here’s how it works:

You have cisgender, straight and able white males on top. Follow that with cisgender able straight females, then black straight cisgender males and females respectively, and then you have cisgender straight indigenous folks, followed by all manner of disabled people, black and white included, but then at the very bottom you have nonbinary and sexual minorities. This hierarchy is disgusting and I want it to stop. We don’t need cisgender straight males running things. Native American disabled males who don’t follow a big Evangelical megachurch or even a small one like yours are likely to face homicide, taunts from the higher up people, etc., so I know you would want to stay put in your church. Sure your friends are cool, but there’s something I’m coming up on that I’m not cool with.

It wasn’t Native women who told me you flirted too much. It was a male who, surprise surprise is a disabled Hispanic cisgender straight dude, but oh my god, we’ve been friends since who knows when. Note that I didn’t mention Hispanics in the hierarchy thing though because you have two or three different kinds, including black ones and white ones, so I just go by the black versus the white. NOt all Latinos are white and not all are black, it’s a mixed bag. This friend of mine is amazing, I call him Jessie the Messy, and he’s just plain cool. He’s got his own stuff, works and has a cool head on his shoulders. Jessie warned me about your tendencies, but I was stupid as usual and didn’t read into things because I’ve been taught not to. But sure enough, you get used by someone else, and break another’s heart. Or she broke yours, I don’t care how the relationship panned out. If any girlfriends you have know that you disrespected my beliefs as a feminist and didn’t understand why I was so deeply hurt by the people purporting to believe in Jesus, and I’ll tell that story now.

When you broke it off with me, the now former preacher at Sovereign Grace Community Church in Westminster decided to call me a whore. A whore for being with Trenton. I brought him there in an effort to solidify friendships and maybe even see how the people would react. But thankfully, years later, well, I’m glad I and Trenton haven’t gone. I have a buddy in chorus that recommended I not live in Westminster because of what she called a “scary megachurch” but there are plenty of those in Westminster. What Sovereign Grace did can still be felt today. I attend a UU church, Unitarian universalist, and have found that it’s not only Jesus that suffices for spiritual teaching and knowledge. I can’t subscribe to this notion of “sin” because it’s too flexible and it stings too broadly on a lot of subjects. Wearing a short skirt if you’re identifying as female? Sin, according to the beliefs you’ve chosen. Playing with your own hair if you’re female? Sin again. And the notion of sin is an excuse to make my life more expensive, so think about why your mom, aunts, sisters, all have to pay more for tampons. There is a luxury tax imposed because the government is sexist. The tax code for pink products, feminine stuff, is completely sexist. I only want others to understand that what you did to me represents a bigger problem with guys. Trenton tries to be supportive, and he is extremely cool, but you and anyone trying to attack me is not warranted in doing so.

Here’s what I want you to do. Stop talking to females who use you. I don’t use anyone, so stop it. IF you continue to be a flirt with girls after you’ve married, I’ll have to do what Sarah Deer does and warn her that this might not be the time to marry. I may not say your name, but still. Blake, I also recommend you reading Unladylike, a field guide to smashing the patriarchy and claiming your space. You don’t have to be female to read it, for real. Feminism is for everybody, and it benefits everybody. I do not hate men, as some will tell you, I just want accountability. You heard thee recent story of Josh Dugger, right? I was shocked and heartbroken because no man should be viewing child porn, but Trenton and I know that it’s illegal. We also know that Ashley Madison is not a good place to be if you’re trying to stay faithful. Vibrators aren’t the problem, and women aren’t the problem. Men are. Josh is highly unfaithful and abusive toward kids by viewing child porn. The victims who were used for this pornography are also being abused by Josh because in some way they might have been forced into it. Child pornography is something I know you could never see yourself doing, but if you were sighted, Blake, I wouldn’t be surprised if you went off and told someone that I didn’t look like your ideal woman, and it’s not your fault. Blake, you do have a good heart, but don’t get yourself dragged into conversations where you don’t belong. Lyn, one of the women who did the bad stuff on my community help post, has had nothing to do. She’s speaking from a class, race, and support privilege. I hate that, and data shows that minorities don’t just get subpar supports, they also get subpar commentary and subpar choices for schooling and other things. Your people are in trouble, and it’s not your fault. Why not summon the power of Wilma Mankiller to be your guide? Why not summon the ancestors to help you with some sort of realization of who you are? Jesus is great and all, but Jesus would never want you to label every woman’s desire a sin. The traditions that state that Adams are in charge and Eves are not do not apply to me and all of us anymore. I. can’t stand by and watch as women are sexually assaulted and no one believe them. The bedbug issue in this apartment complex scared my caregiver, and it scared the company, and yet the caseworker wasn’t there when she needed to be, and I don’t bllame her for it, but she needs to show up for me and do for me because I’m her client, and so should she do this for other clients. NASW clearly does put client safety in their code of ethics. I’ve written my local Senator for the state district 4, and I hope to have an appointment with her because the laws and policies that are in place are enabling Lyns everywhere to ruin lives like mine. Your friend Jennifer thinks she can get away with practically anything, and worse, both those girls spoke from a support class privilege. They had family support, I don’t have it, and they’re white, straight, etc. Lyn has a job, and she didn’t earn the employability. It’s all in the numbers, so look carefully.

Blake, please do some homework and get back to me. Jesus would demand that you apologize, and I apologize if what I said about you was hurtful, but what you did really wasn’t your fault per se. Though you chose this set of beliefs about Jesus and women, yu do have a choice to enact safer ways of interacting with the females in your life such that you don’t get ire from Jessies everywhere, or even your family’s women. Don’t subscribe to this notion that sin is everything, and it’s not sinful for a woman to read or write. Please read the Handmaid’s Tale and the Testaments, authored by Margaret Atwood, and she really has a lot of wisdom about why she wrote these books.

Beth

My UU Adventures Volume 1: Safer Spaces In Many Places

Dear readers,

Yes, yes, you expected a Brave New World completion or something, but ain’t happenin’ now so just relax. I want to talk about my religious ventures, something I’m really happy about just happened. And it all began with a search on Google, god if I ever mention that again, I don’t know where I’ll be next day.

I want to first thank Lavender, one of my good friends, who lovingly refers to me as Spiralhead. She was the one who got me thinking in the UU direction, and her dad, Will, and his sband the Tribe, did some amazing stuff. I’m not gonna lie. But then, I decided to see if such a loving community of good beloved community could be found in my backyard. It began with me searching for a minister who would be willing to put together a wedding ceremony for me and Trenton, and we couldn’t do a wedding in a venue, but in that small apartment, we shared something incredible. So we had a small ceremony, a hybrid due to covid, in our apartment officiated by Jenny, who was intern minister for Jefferson Unitarian Church. Yes, it’s a UU church, and I found that my buddies in this church are amazing and my anxiety always seems to sneak up on me, but this church seems to understand that I can make decisions, including marriage. They also said that I had agency, and it’s in their actions more than their words. I want to say that Reverend Wendy was amazing in telling me where to go to get the care I need, but right now, I’m savoring the thought of Jenny doing bigger things in ministry. She has, as of this writing, yet to send me a big fluffy paper invite, well a digital fluffy invite, to her ordination ceremony. And guess what? This will be a lot more awesome than witnessing Holy Orders, which for those living under rocks, is a Catholic priest’s ordination ceremony where they take vows and drink to the bishop’s obedience and all that crap. I have no idea but I like the UU thing a lot better than the Catholic thing. Priests in Catholic churches are chosen by a fire and brimstone God and a bishop, and only males can make decisions. But in the UU church, women are leading, having agency, and protecting their decisions and decision making powers. Yes, I drink pop, but no, I don’t want a guardian policing purchases and food, and they acknowledge that I should have agency over my life, and that is a huge thing for me. I want to have children, this church promises they’ll bless the kids. The church will educate them in good religious teachings, positive and neutral teachings about everything, and allow them agency over whether to become a minister. My future daughters will have the ability to dream big, they will say, “Mommy, I want to be a minister in a church.” I will be the one saying, “You can do that, you have all the guts to do it. So get out and make it happen, girl.” I will say this to my daughter with a smile on my face, whether she’s six or sixteen. I will never let go, ever, of the thought of women leading. Reverend Wendy is amazing, and she is the best. I’ve been thinking about all the good stuff, the bad stuff, and the ugly stuff I’ve learnt over the years. And honestly, I don’t believe in just one male fire and brimstone God and his minions sitting on a throne, making all the decisions over a woman’s body. I like Jesus, I believe in his true teachings, but the people? Forget that. I can’t go to a so called Christian church, and I want to be able to raise a positively respectful family from the beginning. Thank you all for reading.

Beth

Shut Down Christian private schools? Let’s Take A Look, And a Life Affirmation for One Student

Dear readers,

I’ve been hashing this issue out for a while, but schools that purport to be Christian private schools should never get the chance to put bisexual and homosexual kids down. Chloe Shelton was kicked out of a school in the second grade because she supposedly had a crush on a girl. There was another teen that was kicked out of a school for having a rainbow cake for her birthday. Sexual immorality my ass! The kicking out of Chloe Shelton was pure and inadmissible bigotry and hatred. This is not what Jesus would say if he came back here. What would Jesus do? If a child has homosexual tendencies, that is no grounds for dismissal for any reason. St. Teresa’s School is a perfect example of a school that bans LGBTQI+ individuals because of their so called Catholic teachings. I’d like to affirm Chloe’s decision, and I want Chloe to know a few things.

1. God loves everybody. Jesus loves everybody, he loved people who were considered outcasts, so why this school kicked her out is anyone’s guess. Bigotry and hatred have no place in this school, or any school at all.

2. You can’t fix stupid. I’m sorry, but fixing stupid isn’t the way to end the practice of expelling students from school for being gay or transgender or anything. the Unitarian churches I see don’t put up with things like this.

3. Every child is precious in the eyes of the Lord and the universe, and I believe that if Jesus truly understood what humanity did or said about Chloe’s actions, he’d be all, no, that’s not life affirming. This school should burn in Hell for what they did to Chloe, and there’s no excuse for any Christian school to be operating under the banner of bigotry and gender conformity.

I showed you readers the dress code from STS and wanted to let you all know that it screams rape culture, gender conformity, and a hatred for those who don’t marry before having sex. Teenage pregnancy is not the girl’s fault, and especially if she’s been raped. I hope the Christian schools today will analyze their Christianity, and understand that the way they practice will get them burned up by the lightning that God will supposedly rain down on these schools. They don’t practice love, only hatred and bigotry. Private schools are also expensive, so expensive that I would never send my own future children to STS and schools like it. Chloe, if you want to know what I feel about this, you are welcome to read my blog and understand that life affirming care is the way to go for you. If it becomes evident that you are bisexual or have a crush on a female, don’t be afraid. Come out and play with your friends. I hope you can find peace in knowing that one day, all the bigots and those who hate you for who you love and who you are will not get God’s blessing, not ever. Jesus never said that gay people were evil or wicked, and all this crap about sexual immorality makes me sick. To tell the truth, Chloe, I threw the Bible back in the preachers’ faces because of this whole bullcrap about sexual immorality and marriage or living with a man outside legal tying the knot. I’m a disabled girl with a disabled partner, and if we legally wedded, we’d be losing healthcare, protections from SSA, social security administration, and our future would be bleak for the kids. Imagine my children getting nothing but hand me downs, going to schools where they are treated like garbage, bullied, whatever. I don’t want that for you or for anyone’s kids. Chloe, you don’t even have to believe in the God of the Bible, you can do the things you want with whichever practice you want, and that’s the beauty of America. The United States of America clearly states that in the first amendment that Congress shall make no laws, “establishing the free exercise of religion, and of the right to peaceable assembly and of the press.” The First Amendment also can be interpreted to say that you have the right to an opinion, but you don’t have to kneel on the floor and pray to Allah or get your head cut off. Most Muslim places have repressive regimes and laws that say that you have to be Muslim and marry a man and all that crap. Just remember, you are in a blessed country, a place where you can be you. Just do your thing, and in your new school, I hope you will find new friends who actually like you, and a teacher who believes in you.

With love,

Beth

Who Should Really Get the Medal of Honor Under President Biden?

Dear readers,

I have a long list of unsung heroes to go through, but I think President Biden should award the Presidential Medal of Freedom to the following people:

Ayaan Hirsi Ali. Yes, some of you may think she stirs the pot and boils Muslims over, but she is a fine woman, she stirs up the soup because it needs to be stirred up. Her latest book told us that Isis was dangerous because it was rooted in Islam itself. The beauty of America is that you can back out of communities like the islamic centers and not get your head sawed off. That principle, established the moment the Constitution was ratified, says that Congress doesn’t have a state or national religion. Fuck the idea that Christians founded America, or that America was founded on Christian or Biblical laws. It was a bunch of Puritans who said they wanted to practice how they wanted, but a stupid King said no. This is how our country was born. Essentially.

Shania Twain. Yes, a Canadian songsttress of country music. She’s done some amazing things, but she and Dolly Parton should get the Medal of Freedom because they are both good people, albeit country singers, but Shania comes from a mixed race family, Ojibwe and black and white and all the rest. Shania was born Eileen Regina Edwards but became Shania Twain because of things she discusses in her book From This Moment On. Twain is an unsung hero of sorts, and she’s a nature lover. Dolly of course because she changed the name of her Stampede and maintained Dollywood. I’d love to see her theme park, but Dolly has also done a musical called Christmas On the Square. You should have seen it, made me cry like a baby at the end.

Dan Fisher, first time I mentioned this guy, but Dan Fisher is a former FLDS guy who saved a bunch of boys and girls from Warren Jeffs. If he doesn’t have that medal, then give to this guy already. Fisher deserves the medal because of his deeds and actions surrounding the Diversity Foundation, Ultradent, and all the good stuff he’s done for boys and girls alike. He helped Carolyn Jessop escape with her eight children and among other things, tried to help the lost boys. Fisher is another unsung hero, and I better make sure everybody smiles while he gets it. We need dentistry breakthroughs anyway.

Lastly, I think we need to nominate someone I know personally. Retired army dude and awesome football extraordinaire Robert Zemcik, and here’s why. Robert took the protect and serve thing seriously, and I bet his mom, my awesome Aunt Donna, would cry her eyes out if she knew what we need in guys like Robert. He understands what “protect and serve” means, does not align with bad guys, and knows what extremist people do. He served two tours of duty, I won’t say where, but he’s someone who is totally awesome, loves people, dogs too, and has some affiliation with Wounded Warrior Project. Mind you, I think the guys in the Wounded Warrior project should get all a bunch of medals of freedom because of what they do for vets like my cousin, who is a strong and sturdy person who would never be where he is without a bit of military service, but he didn’t want to do soldiering after what he witnessed in the news. He’s been all over, I’ve seen him here and there and everywhere. But this guy is just one of many veterans who needs a damn medal of honor, especially because he didn’t have the gall to insurrect that day at the Capitol. He knows better and loves this country probably as much as his girlfriend, his adventures, whatever. Perhaps if I could, I’d ask him to come out of the woodwork and present himself to Biden for the honors. Or is Biden looking at veterans like him? Here’s another thought.

I would suppose that Joe Biden should award Scottie Smiley, that West Point blind guy, a medal of freedom. What’s my point here? the Medal of Freedom should go to people with integrity and honor, and all the people I just nominated have integrity and honor. Integrity is so important, and honor of one’s country and the greater good is another huge thing. Rush Limbaugh and those other guys Trump loved did not have honor. Alex Jones and Infowars is not a sign of honor or integrity. Alex Jones was crazy, no matter how you sliced and diced it. My cousin and grandfathers at least had some degree of honor or respect for God and country. Put your universal beliefs in the mix, but my cousin needs the gold medal more than the average celebrity types.

I also want to nominate people who have been dismissed from military service because of gender identity. Biden plans to revoke that ban, and maybe he should award compensatory payments and the medal of freedom to these brave young people, these brave souls denied a chance to serve God and country because of gender reassignment or being transgender. It’s unfair and Trumpist to deny a whole group of people military service because they’re transgender. that’s not the same as being blind, having a disability, etc etc. I would never want to join the military as a blind person because I don’t want to be killed by a drill sergeant, nor do I think sexual favors for male soldiers should ever be allowed. Back to Robert. I don’t think he’s ever done anything to a female in the military. He’d rather have been with wives or girlfriends, but never someone who is just young enough or drunk. He’s not that stupid. Women in the military are regularly sexually harangued and harassed for being female, and that needs to stop. There’s a culture change underway at Fort Hood, where private Vanessa Geeian was killed. Why? Because the guy who did it wanted some, and she said no. I’d give her the posthumous medal of freedom because she didn’t give in, and gave her life in service to a country that should have stood up for her. Her assailant should be court martialed all right.

Thank you all for reading this entry. I want to tell you all that I’ve had a bad sleep schedule lately. I just hope to God I can get it in check. Also, I hope my cousin doesn’t seem angry at me for nominating him for the medal of freedom from President Biden, but he is just one of many who should get it. Wounded warriors everywhere rejoice.

I hope Shania and Dolly Parton find this blog and see how important it is that they present themselves as potential recipients of medals by President Biden. I dare not nominate myself.

Beth