It’s something to go to work and get paid for what you do, but it’s worse to go to work bonded to a state rehabilitation agency who enslaves the blind and makes you do things that are out of the way to succeed. As much as I care about my boss at the Work Adjustment Training I do three days a week, it’s worthless to look at the curriculum. What with the office curriculum and stuff that I have to do in order to prove stuff to her and my rehabilitation counselor–what a weird title for someone working with blind people–I have to do more. Social skills groups so I can be “focused.” What? I’m sorry, but if any blind person reads this, they oughta know something about state Rehabilitation agencies. My Blake is going through hell with Arizona’s because of their “shortage” of counselors. Bull. I”m sorry, I won’t write the other syllable in there for fear that someone might think I’m nuts.
Like I’m already nuts. Blake says his Rehab agency is driving him nuts. They didn’t call him three weeks in advance so he could tell his dear mother about stuff around that. She teaches tai kwon do at a studio in her locale, and she also worked. Well, due to extenuating circumstances not covered in the blog, she went away from her dispatching work. Oh, dear Miss Cathy, I pray that whatever circumstances hit you, you’re strong against them. After all, I’ve had worse. Imagine losing your rights, losing your mental sanity, losing the door that opens to the world. Imagine being thrown in an iron door room with a sign on it marked INCOMPETENT and a second thing in the window with a picture of me as a baby. Ok, imagine being thrown out of the living room so that your mother’s golden babies can have all the attention. That happened at a younger day, but also imagine those golden boys succeeding before your very eyes, and there you are, labeled LOSER, INCOMPETENT, STUPID, IDIOT. This is something that happened to me. You are lucky to have sons, even if you might have lost one of them. So what? You are lucky to have a husband who can stand up and support you in any circumstance. CAn’t you say that Blake can have that stuff? We’re both bogged down, but I always make time for Blake, but if he goes to work, even so, I make time for him. People who are truly in love make time for each other, always and every day, no matter what. That’s a healthy relationship. Why take that away from me? Why? I need that because of my illness and because of other issues I won’t discuss here. Oh, … this is just the beginning. I could go on for hours about it, but dear friend, I can’t. I love you.
Ok, I could get pretty teary eyed about it. Ok, I’m going to do a review of Mockingjay but I do know the first few chapters talk about Katniss going crazy. Well, imagine you were the ones who saw your friends or peers die around you or try to kill you. Imagine losing a twelve-year-old friend. Imagine being told that you are the threat that your country doesn’t want. Imagine your fellow district tribute falls in love with you. Then, imagine your city burning in ashes. Oh yes, Katniss went through all of that, so I can imagine her life with flashbacks, nightmares, etc. I feel for Katniss because she has to take medications and drugs, but she suffers from a lot worse mental problems than I do. At only seventeen, she has flashbacks and nightmares and all kinds of hallucinations and such, all signs of situational schizoeffective disorder. Yeah, weirdness is a part of it, but she’s almost broken down. Peeta is there for her, even if he has the same issues. Hey, if anyone had to watch their peers die around them, that would cause such a disorder to haunt them forever.
That is all I have to say, I’ll write more about Mockingjay, and maybe I’ll say something further about why Katniss and I are almost the same. We’ve had far different circumstances, but the same stuff occurs.