Restitution Does Not Mean Entitlement.

Dear readers,

As a blind person who suffered 15 years of guardian abuse, I would like to offer victims hope that they can find their way out. There are a few hurdles though to doing this. One, I don’t live in NYC, where book publishing is a big business, where the Publishing Houses are. Second, who the hell would want to publish a book that pretty much sums up everything that happened in a nutshell, that I was emotionally and patriarchally abused by a mother that didn’t want an illegitimate blind child and by a bio dad that simply donated his sperm to the cause of creating havoc, and worse, an adoptive father who even suggests that I not see a man because he is “sexually experienced”? I pretty much went through all that stuff. Moreover, the stuff has left me with a few things. See below.

  1. High risk of having a special needs child because of old age.
  2. Not able to adopt because of low income, no housing that is appropriate for babies and toddlers and moreover, there’s no housing available anywhere in the United States. We don’t have a way to buy a proper shelter and get food and clothing for a child we adopt.
  3. No way to ensure the safety and education of both a child and spouse. My spouse to be is black, and that means police brutality has made its way into every aspect of my existence. I have to be the one to do everything, say everything to the cops, all that. Systemic racism has plagued this country forever, and I can’t even teach my mixed race kids one day, “Oh, they will help you find a lost puppy, those boys in the blue uniforms.” How does anyone expect my kids to be safe in the world?
  4. No way to get a job or go to college without filling out forms, that say I’m dependent on someone for finances. I can’t even work as a waitress because who will hire me? Nobody. My ex, Blake Tucker, was not hired at a fitness place for long, all because of blindness.

There are a lot of things Florida should consider. I should have had my job in hand, college degree and all, by 25 years old, should have found someone who would put up with the woman working. Parents oftentimes need two incomes to work, and raising kids sometimes requires the parent to separate and put the child in daycare, which I will not do because daycare statistically doesn’t really work for children with special needs. I’m talking about you autism and blind kid parents, parents with kids who have cerebral palsy and so much other disability related stuff. Daycare doesn’t always include those kids, and you have to hope and pray that pedophiles are not anywhere near your child’s daycare. I don’t want my kid coming home and swaying their hips in a sexually suggestive way at six years old, and performing oral sex on a sibling or pet. That would tell me something’s wrong. The child would not be in trouble, I’d say, but the adults would. That’s the thing, the adults who are taking care of my kid would be in big doo doo.

In any case, since I can’t get a job or can’t get a college degree without rehabilitative objections, I feel that restitution is in order, and here’s my plan: I’m going to discuss a settlement and support plan so that the county where the guardianship was posted will have to pay up. I can do nothing in return, except for publish my book, write a memoir, and do other things that allow me to express myself like write music. How I do it, nobody will need to know. However, the county should owe me support payments totalling upwards of millions of dollars, most of which will go into a startup to put the U.S. guardianship industry in check, and I will pay other people’s lawyer bills and be a witness to anyone who has disability that is currently under guardianship in court to pretty much put away the professionals who ruin the lives fo others with disabilities. Unlike me, though, most of the other guardian victims are elderly, live in the Sun Belt, and don’t do much else but get overmedicated in a nursing home, beat up by their caregivers, and a lot more. I want to dedicate this post to my dear friend, Laura, whose husband in Texas is being guardianized unfairly and he had lots of money to his name. I would gladly pay Laura a good portion of that money so that she could get a good lawyer and beat the crap out of the guardians holding her lover hostage. Laura had her story featured on Netflix’s Dirty Money episode, Guardians Incorporated. Please watch it, and if you are a Netflix subscriber, you’ll thank me in the end.

Here’s the plan for restitution that I plan to put up for Florida, and they must pay this or I’ll write the state off as unsafe for all kinds of people.

  1. 15 or $150,000,000 total for the restitution. That symbolizes 15 years, and if necessary, another bunch for the sixteenth year spent in process.
  2. Two thirds of the $150,000,000 will be used for the guardianship fund startup money, and all that will be used to evaluate and determine persons with disabilities who need to be freed from guardianship bondage throughout the United States, and as an example, Florida.
  3. The rest of the money will go toward housing, family expenses, and buying assets that can’t be bought due to income restrictions on SSI, SSDI, and lack of appropriate medical insurance. Because of the lack of a job, lack of college degree, and so on, there may need to be an extra $5,000,000 for a college degree outside the state in political science or creative writing. I will not use music as a primary degree due to the intensity of the requirements, juries, and practice. This is very important because most jobs won’t hire a blind person with no college degree.
  4. I will probably ask the state to revoke guardianship rights to my parents, and this will include their right to guardianize all family members, including but not limited to elders and disabled kids. No member of my family should be denying constitutional rights to disabled or elderly people based on perceived competence or lack thereof. My constitutional rights are granted to me by my creator as it says clearly in the preamble. A judge should not deny me those rights because of a disability or being female.

I also want to see if I can milk the hell out of the state for better therapy in my state of residence, and I won’t move to Florida because of the aiding and abetting guardian abuse that this state is famous for. Colorado therapists have trusted that they will make a better decision and I don’t trust Florida psychologists who are prone to racial bias and ableist bias because of their not knowing me, not knowing who I am, and so on. I have an appointment with a new psych doc, and she’s probably heard all the bad the good the rumors that the previous doc might have written in my chart. I want her to understand that Florida needs to know that I oversee all the things that I need done in the house, and I will not be made a slave to men, boys, and or family that wishes not to pay me. If my family wants me to be their maid, I won’t without charging extremely high prices and opening a maid business. They need to understand that my skills are supposed to be mine, not to be used or abused by family and other people who want me to fail.

There is one thing I want to point out. Anyone who associates with those who want me to fail should realize that stalking and harassment are crimes, and W.D. and an ex of mine are now going to be under investigation. My ex at least will be under investigation and he will be taken down. He doesn’t get it. I’ve been through hell with him, and so have other girls.

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Deny Him Martyrdom

Dear readers,

While Jokhar Tsnarnaev has had his death sentence overturned, I have a reason to agree with this. What the Boston Marathon bombing survivors do not understand is that guy has been waging Jihad, or holy war, against America and those who don’t believe in his extreme religion. He got the inspiration from the Qur’an, where it describes where all the martyrs go in Heaven, so here’s the deal: Tsarnaev’s death sentence should not have been considered, just life in prison without the possibility of parole because of one thing: if he died by lethal injection or even a gunshot with a firing squad, he’d achieve martyrdom and get the so called 72 virgin wives for himself. The thing that bothers me about his death sentence is that death doesn’t teach. It only liberates the soul, degrades punishment altogether, and does not truly deter murderers. Tsarnaev’s death sentence could have meant that he would go to Heaven, while the poor person who can’t fight, who can’t achieve what’s called “shahidala” goes to Hell. There are too many people who go to Hell in Islam, including women. The Prophet himself even said it, and in one haddith, it says there are many many inhabitants in Heaven, the poor people, but then the last quote. “I saw Hell, and many of its inhabitants were women.” So when Tsarnaev dies in prison, I think he’ll probably rot in Hell for what he did to the people at the Boston Marathon, that is if we can convince him that what he did was wrong, very wrong. We need to deny him all the things he would normally have in an Islamic household, including the Jihadi verses of the Qur’an. We need to convince him to throw away Jihad beliefs, perhaps do what is necessary to keep. him away from that temptation of 72 virgin maidens in 72 beds in 72 gardens. It makes me sick that a guy like that can have creature comforts even in prison, and here I am living in a slummy little crappy building that doesn’t even allow any number of satellite TV providers and so on. A criminal, a murderer who wants martyrdom, can’t get what he wants. Spoiled much? No, just being honest. The bomb survivors should study the Qur’an just for a brief moment, look at the descriptions of Heaven for martyrs. They’ll understand why I feel the way I do. I say, deny martyrdom to the man who bombed the Boston marathon. And trust me, Jihad and holy war principles litter the book, they litter everything for the extremist Muslim. So what’s the best deterrent for murdering people and hurting others at a marathon in Boston? Life in prison is fine, but no chance at martyrdom or parole.


U.S. Declared War On TicTock because it can’t handle the truth.

Dear readers,

I’m showing you guys this because TicTok or whatever that video app is called will definitely change the game if bought by Microsoft. China thinks it can get away with all kinds of trouble, but this information nationalism is what killed Clayton Jacobs’s twitter and Facebook accounts. Read on in this link.

Updates and more

Dear readers,

JOrge is doing okay, and as it turns out, the block on Twitter was a deactivation. Please forgive the miscommunication. I’d been going through a lot in this year, and it didn’t occur to me that this guy would ever go through the same things I have, and there are a lot of things I have to clear up. But what I have to deal with these days is anything but fun. No way can I shop for wedding dresses without people getting suspicious. I can’t even have bridesmaids and a flower girl. What is the freaking point? There is none. And I had no idea what was happening to my friend, and he had to change his phone number, so good thing I deleted it. Again, forgive the miscommunication, but blocking on twitter does say a lot. I blocked W.D. on twitter because he was a bad and evil persona who wanted to okay abuse and isolation of elderly and disabled people. what a sorry mess he is.

Thank you all for reading this.


Matchmaker, Matchmaker, Part 2: How Does Matchmaking Affect Disabled People?

Dear readers,

Matchmaking is a popular alternative to just letting love find you, but in the previous piece I wrote, I discussed foreign brides. This is a pretty big business in Asia, and I got a sleazy email about meeting sexy Russian women, and there I am a female who has a man already. How does this big foreign bride business affect disabled people? Well, let’s take a look at the stats and numbers regarding disabled potential mates out there.

One thing, blind people are most likely to be single, not able to find a mate, especially if they are living at home with parental figures. I was unable to pursue this while at home in Florida for obvious reasons. My parents really didn’t get to see a lot of who I was because they suppressed it. On top of this, I had fallen for a Haitian black man who was rather a lot like me, and his child needed a better mother who would talk to her, play with her, and do things with her like, as she grows older, help her with schoolwork and homework. It would be obvious if Michael had picked me for his wife, but foreign bridal markets could have swayed Michael to pick someone else from someplace like Russia, Africa, or Haiti itself. Michael should know that spam emails exist to bait him and other men who are seeking a wife and it is ill advised to get a foreign bride.

Foreign brides like those in Vietnam are also taking up spaces where disabled women could end up married or productive. Disabled women, by the way, are more than capable of having and raising children, but a woman with intellectual disability should at least have proper case management and resources to teach her how to parent a child correctly, and there is a correct way to parent. Disabled women who want to be in a matchmaking service should consider that the partner they are matched with could be one of a few things: nondisabled and abusive, disabled but poor and still abusive, or disabled and loving and very devoted to making sure the woman feels comfortable. A disabled bride should look forward to the third option most likely, and I would highly advise disabled brides to be never to use a matchmaking service for their particular culture because most Asian and African cultures, for example, don’t like disabled women period. They also sell their young daughters off, no matter what continent you’re on, for a price to an older and perverted gentleman, or just plain man. Bride prices range from maybe $600 to $6000 depending on the wealth and prestige of the groom. If the groom has other wives, it makes it more difficult for the bride to get settled as the senior wives might claim the man as theirs, not allowing him to fall in love with her. I would never consider being a junior wife to someone, only one wife in my case. Why? Because husbands might find a nondisabled wife more desirable, blame my blindness on everything, and mistakenly believe that my offspring will be blind. This is another issue i’ll take up in the next piece. Polygamy is a real issue that the U.S. has dealt with and especially Utah and Arizona. Watch for another piece on the Colorado City/Hildale wives and you’ll be surprised at the ending.

So the foreign bride market might not only close the real spaces needed for blind women to marry, but it could either way pose a problem. Foreign and disabled brides who land in both categories could face murder and abuse at the hands of a nondisabled husband. I’ve been given too much in the way of superiority games played by my own father, and I have to remind my partner that such games are inappropriate for any moment in play or otherwise. My partner understands when I tell him that what he does is wrong, but other men might not understand. Other men might say, “I can see, you can’t. You have to do what I say, and what I want you to do is eat, sleep, cook, sex, whatever.” So think about this, disabled women. What do you want in a relationship? I personally want a love that lasts, yes, but there’s more to it. The secrets to my relationship are as follows, and I’m willing to show you guys what makes it tick.

One, we’re meant for each other and compatible with each other’s needs. Trenton is blind, and so am I. We’re both in love with each other, which helps immensely. We speak the same language, we live in the same area. Those things help, so to those who think they’re in for a foreign bride, watch out. Unless that woman is in your personal network, she’s not to be considered. If you don’t know who you’re talking to, can’t speak to her in person in her language, if you can’t hang out in person and get alone with her a few times, it’s not worth it. Blind or otherwise, you gotta see a man’s or woman’s true colors. You got to know how this potential mate behaves around you, his mom, his dad, her mom and dad, etc. Trenton treats his mom like a queen, and so should every male. If a man doesn’t respect his mom, odds are he will treat you the woman like trash. That’s another secret to good relating to the one you love.

Disclaimer: I want to do a piece dedicated to how the arranged marriage systems in some cultures affects the LGBTQI+ communities, but most foreign women sell themselves off to men, not women, and there’s nothing wrong with lesbians wanting to be with female partners. However, since most of the marriage market affects heterosexual females, that’s who I’m mostly talking to at this moment. Please don’t be offended if you’re gay or queer and reading this, but take heart. Disabled, female, and queer does not have to be a death sentence.

To the disabled women who want to flee the abuse of family and kin relations, go for it. You have only one life to live, and this is your life. You can go wherever you want, and please, whatever you do, seek asylum in a country like Canada or the United States because we will teach you our languages and let you be yourself. Make the president mad, as a matter of fact, so that Biden can fix the immigration rules. You don’t want to pay a thousand bucks you don’t have, especially if you’re a foreign wife of a guy or a foreign woman who can’t live in a country like the Philippines or even India or Laos, don’t worry, if you’re in a situation you don’t want to be in, or don’t feel comfortable in, just get out. Those are the best words of advice I have. For blind women, don’t think your standards can go lower so you can find more men. You could be sifting through a haystack looking for a gold needle for years, and could cost you your life. So do us all a favor and keep your standards high, don’t let someone lay a hand on you, and don’t slip and fall into the trap of “If I do or don’t do this, he’ll love me more.” Self respect is highly important, and men need to listen to you. You will carry his child, do the things necessary to begin life itself, so he needs to let you lead the family and not attack you for being the one to protect yourself and your children to be. Thank you all for your support.


Matchmaker, Matchmaker

Dear readers, especially to female readers,

Are you desperate for a life outside the country you’re in? Are you poor, financially unable to provide, can’t find a good man to marry? Well, you can do one of a few things, but they’ll ultimately put your life at risk.

A Vietnamese woman was murdered by her Korean husband, and that woman was desperate for a better life. Vietnam is supposedly a poor country, and there are many women who leave there and go to places like Korea through something called a marriage broker. I have a few problems with marriage brokers.

One thing, marriage is supposed to be about love, not money.

Marriage brokers won’t marry you if you’re a disabled woman, probably too damn risky.

Marriage brokers don’t care about language barriers. The Vietnamese bride could not speak Korean to her husband, and it turned into a murder case. I’m not saying that the language issue was the only reason, but the man was also quite aggressive, patriarchal, and rather drunk perhaps. However, he’s spending fifteen years in a Korean jail for his crime of killing his young Vietnamese bride.

Marriage brokers can be deceiving and rather shady in my opinion. this also includes everything from Muslim matchmaking services to Indian matchmaking services to those brokers who mess with Russian women, women in general. There are websites where child brides could be trafficked into a marriage at age eleven or twelve. What these men really want is sex, not marriage. They could kill your daughter, you, or your sisters, your cousins, so do me a big favor and stay away from marriage brokers.

There are a few things South Korea is doing to curb abusive behavior in husbands, and foreign women could be here safely. they are going to require a lot from a spousal visa, which is great, but more needs to be done in other countries like India, Pakistan, Vietnam, and so many others. Asian women get the butt of every joke when it comes to financial things, and they don’t always have it good in the marriage market. The marriage brokers should never be allowed to traffic these women and hook them up with abusers. Korea is doing more to address it, like I said before, but other countries should do the same, including the United States. Russian women often try and marry American men in the U.S. because of the circumstances in their country. Russia is now a political issue here, so i doubt this is happening very often, but I’ve gotten crazy emails about the “sexy Russian bride” that I would meet and make my life dreams come true. ugh. I’m a woman, so I erased that email and those emails. I have seen one that read, “Desperate Asian girls looking for dates.” That one is a red flag, so why am I, a female with no real potential in that market, getting emails about Asians looking for dates? I wonder, but women in the marriage market should be very very careful. It’s important to note, for example, how your potential husband behaves. If he constantly argues with you, that’s a red flag. Get away from him immediately. How I wish I could translate this post into Vietnamese and put it somewhere in the world, but foreign brides beware. It’s important that your man respect and honor your wishes and don’t expect there to be a good selection of men. If you’re a foreigner bride to be reading this, know this. You are not alone, and you may experience domestic and financial abuse at the hands of a marriage broker. Please consider marrying in your own country or perhaps marrying someone you love, not through a broker.


Say Yes to Giving a Dress?????? Stimulus Check could Determine Whether I Do

Dear readers,

I am only able to do a love ceremony, but I’m going to tell you all this right now: not in my birthday suit. And I won’t wear regular clothes to a courthouse to do it because my partner’s healthcare will be lost. Human Services is already playing tricks on us to try and stop fraud and abuse, which is stupid. As a blind bride to be, I will never be considered for charities like those who donate wedding gowns and such because I’m not doing a legal wedding per se, and i don’t want to take my partner’s last name. I will bow to no one, even a bad old guard style patriarchal God. Why? Because I’ve been excluded and called a whore at churches, and nobody believes this story. I’ve been voted out of a church and nobody believes this story. As a blind bride to be who will never be able to do the front line work for the pandemic, I will be excluded further. I am begging my readers to believe my story, and take action. Why? Read on.

As Congress sits there debasing any argument for disability care, chipping away at our rights, I am wondering if I’ll even get a stimulus check of $1200 from Congress and the IRS to make up for the lost money that I could have earned from the pandemic. That money is quite helpful, and I can use it to get food delivered, get food period, and have good food in my home. However, we planned to use the next check on getting rid of the smelly nasty old mattress we have to sleep on, that we’re constantly covering with febreze and we’re constantly having to air out because it smells. Ugh. And we want to get a groom’s ring, and a dress for me. The dress is the most important expense I’d say we would use it for. Nobody wants to support us in getting the dress, so if Congress doesn’t believe my story and doesn’t want me to have a good so called love ceremony, they can go straight down there because I don’t know what to do. There was one boutique we found, but they’re in Westminster, where my old church is built. Ugh. I am not happy with the church’s decision, and the doctrinal guidelines of many religious institutions say that you have to be legally married to live with your partner, that it has to be a heterosexual relationship. Boo on the homophobia, and I won’t be in need of a male pastor or celebrant. I’d prefer a female of all things, and someone I’m close to that can deal with the situation as is.

As for the dress, I am not raising money for the dress. I’m not raising money and getting attacked. That’s all I get is attacks and so on. I’ve even tried calling the KUSA team at Nine News, but no response. Ugh. Am I really supposed to believe I’m a nobody who deserves nothing? This pandemic is killing a whopping 150,000 plus people, and I know it, but I’m sick of being a nobody that nobody wants to support. I want friends who actually give a damn and people who won’t attack me for saying my family sucks and they are so toxic they don’t deserve to come to the love ceremony. Ugh. Spiritual marriage only, that’s the route we’re taking because of the SSI program and the SSDI program’s mandated restrictions, and that’s just wrong. Plain wrong. I hate to be a beggar, but I have to say, please, if you want to send me a dress at all, it has to be red, not white, not off white. Red. Please, no white lacey gowns with bows or ribbons that make it look like a toddler’s nightgown. Please make sure you send the dress if you’re interested, if you care, or if you want to be the one to make this ceremony happen. Please, if you read this, I’m not a front line worker because of my disability, but disability should not stop me from getting the kind of help I need right now. And it’s not just the dress either. I wish I didn’t have to do this thing online, but we have to. Point the camera here, point the camera there. I am unable to see where to point. So if you are in Colorado, know me well at all, and you’re reading this, please, feel free to drop by the house/apartment. Feel free to help point the camera because I should not have to. Decorate my place because we can’t have it in the park, or in a public space. Ugh. Okay, but please help decorate the place because I’m not that great with that, and visually stunning? This apartment is shabby and crappy, though there are some nice pieces in it, it is still crappy. No matter what you do with this, it is crappy.

Thank you for your help in advance.


First blog post in a while, and a warning

Dear readers,

First of all, I’d like to thank you guys for being so wonderful and liking my stuf on WordPress. Second, I have a bit of a warning. This is personal.

I’ve been blocked on Twitter by someone I thought was a friend. I had to delete his phone number anyway because he turned out to have what Tallahassee from Zombieland franchise movies calls “a purdy mouth”. Yeah, he had a pretty big mouth and probably was engaging in HIPAA based attacks on my mental state and health. This is unprecedented territory and must be stopped. Imagine if someone spread a rumor that I had Covid19. Imagine for a moment it was you who was the victim of a big bad rumor that you heard voices in your head, had cancerous tumors growing out your ass, etc etc. This is not something you mess around with, and health attacks are downright illegal. The man’s name? I hate to be the namer of things, but his twitter account is jorgepaez1994 and he blocked me so he could probably engage in these HIPAA based attacks. I warn you all that if you are my supporters and reading this, do NOT use this information to harass or bring bad luck to this user. He already knows what’s coming. Please do not contact this person, and do your best to warn others of what he and his buddies are probably up to. Blocking me on Twitter for any reason other than I did something wrong is quite stupid. And engaging in HIPAA based attacks will not be tolerated or made legal by your hand. If you don’t want people spreading rumors about you and if you don’t want people to say something that is inaccurate or untrue, do not engage in this unprecedented attack on my health and well being. My parents are reversing guardianship guidelines as it is because they know they messed up, they know that now it’s too late for me to have a healthy and happy family and success in any career. They know what kind of bullshit that guardianship brought, and it was all evil and bad luck. Jorgepaez1994 is not to be contacted, and I won’t be in touch with him much at all, if not at all because of these HIPAA based attacks and the fact is he followed and blocked me. He attacked my dignity along with some others, usernames I don’t wish to name at this time because I was threatened once. Also, if there’s anyone who wants to engage in a HIPAA based attack, turn yourself in immediately and don’t say a word. Do not spread medical misinformation about anything, whether it’s me or the corona virus. Spreading rumors is not a good activity to engage in, and the blindness community does not need to be spreading HIPAA related information about me, and this is my own story to tell. That guardianship is gone with the wind, so you all move on. If I find that any of you guys tries to get in my shoes about Jorgepaez1994, please note that I will not respond to threatening phone calls and letters, and I won’t respond to any harassment by email or text message. Please, stop telling me to venture into dangerous territory. Florida is the second highest covid state in the nation, so there’s no reason to travel there at this point. Even this guy knows it.

For those who’ve behaved themselves on here, thanks. I appreciate the love and support i’ve gotten since disabling comments. Nobody is to comment here on the blog, and that is because of trolls and haters like the guy I mentioned earlier. I don’t know what his real intent is by following me and suddenly blocking me on Twitter. But it don’t look good. I don’t want purdy mouths on my twitter or facebook commenting weird, so please, if you’re a zombie and you plan to eat me in Zombieland, do stay in your fictional parallel universe and don’t eat at all. Thank you all, and I hope I can be of better service to you all in the future.


Kids Fearful of going Back to School with Corona Virus Pandemic Around

If you have Apple news, this article will help immensely with kids and Covid19, so please read this. Dr. Bracho-Sanchez, if I am doing this right, is someone I know. I might know this woman, but okay, this is what she wrote, and there’s empirical evidence here.

Educational Deficiencies in America Drive Me Bonkers

Dear readers,

I’d like to rip a few pages from a book. Yes, education is key to a good society and being a civilized human being. It all depends, however, on what country we’re all located in. Germany has the best model of education I’d like to point out, so you German peoples who can read this, take notes please.

First, the primary school is like all primary schools. Germans have a fancy name for their primary school, greumschool, sort of. I hope I got that right, something like that. But their primary grades cover kindergarten, which is a word derived from German as well, through about the fifth or sixth grade in America. You might spend about five or six years in the schools there, primary grades being the usual fundamentals in learning. Next, you go to German middle schools, which cover about seventh through twelfth grades, but here’s the kicker: sometimes you are able to get tracked into classes and vocations that exercise your strengths. This is something America has no concept of, or at least lacks. In the tenth grade, German style, you’d take a special aptitude test, the Avitur, I think that’s what it would be called. This test would determine, for example, that Little Otto will grow up to be an automobile mechanic, or perhaps little Charlie could end up being a teacher. Your son or daughter is not expected to pass or fail this test, it is purely a test to see where your strengths and weaknesses are. And someone ripped pages from Germany when they wrote the book City of Darkness. Ben Bova, acclaimed scifi author, wrote this story in an earnest attempt to look at America’s future. Bova wrote a story in which all sixteen-year—olds prepare for their “career vector” life choice. Much like the Avitur test in German educational systems, Bova’s career vectors determine which career you will go into. Boys and girls I think choose their career paths, and Ron wanted to be an engineer, or astronomer, or astronaut. However, his dad wanted him to go into business, but Ron was like, fuck it, no. Oh no I won’t. And that’s where the story begins in reality.

The difference in Germany’s education system and the American system is truly astounding. Unfortunately, America is systemically biased and racist, which could lend itself to people manipulating Blacks and Browns to lower class and dirty jobs in the sphere of aptitudes. it already happens, but we need unbiased and antiracist teachers to believe in these bright young African American minds. Trenton, my partner in crime, is a good example of someone who would benefit from a good aptitude track record. His testing would have to have accommodations in it, yes, but he’d pass the English, math, and IT portions of such a test. Maybe we should do something to see if kids would like technology. What would an American aptitude test look like?

I’d say we could try putting in the usual English, other languages would also be offered. Perhaps German, Latin, and Spanish should be. offered as options to take in the aptitude test. But before you get your own version of the main test, you’d have to take a survey. The survey would gauge your likes, dislikes, and other things, but it would show you career paths you might be interested in. Next, you’d have to take a written test, something like one with English, reading, a bit of basic math, sciences, and music and the creative theories and such. Based on the aptitudes tested and the survey question results, then you’d be further tested and then the counselor would meet with the student. The student would use the objectives, some strengths and weaknesses set down by the counselor, to determine career opportunities. For example, if little Willie wants to take cooking and cook for a hobby, he would write in his survey that he enjoys food, food preparation, and other things. Then, he’d take an aptitude test that would study how well he measures, remembers recipes, and can understand and convert Imperial units and European or SI metrics. Those are important, especially if setting the temperature of an oven. Little Willie could be given home economics as part of his aptitude results, but then he’d be given extra math courses if he says, for example, I’d like to own a restaurant. I am using the example of a little Willie because girls are often the ones tracked into home economics classes, which should not always happen, so I decided to go with a guy’s name instead.

There are just a few different aptitudes we have to avoid, however. First, no test would ever find that a girl is fit for nothing but sex work. Second, a test would not favor birthmothering only for girls. To be a sex worker or birth mother would be written off as gender biased aptitude statements, and might be a cause of many a lawsuit to a school. Blind women need a fair aptitude result that might put them in better positions, things like restauranteur or master chef, or perhaps they could be given the option of journalism, or even construction work and engineering if they love designing floor plans. The possibilities must remain endless. Germany offers this to all german students, so why the hell not! America, wake up. You need something that totally beats out the standardized test scores. Teachers, teach the students, and let them invite all possibility into their lives. For example, Little Caitlin in kindergarten builds things with legos, loves to play with micromachines, cars, and trucks. Not like her girl classmates, Caitlin would love Star Wars and science related shows growing up, and then, at fourteen, she would do well in middle school science. Here’s another idea: compile this student’s records into her high school aptitude test, and then the counselor could sit down with sixteen-year-old Caitlin and say, “Well, you’ve done lots of things in science. You have a strong aptitude for science and tech, so here are some options. You could do web design, software engineering, or perhaps acoustical engineering, music production, …” blah blah blah blah blah. Caitlin would then choose the career choices she wants, none of which involves sex work, birthing, and cooking. There you have it. If Bill in kindergarten was messing with his mom’s cooking stuff, then later pretended to make food with Play Dough, then later decides to serve folks at a diner, sixteen years later, Bill could bee a chef. Bill would still have to include cooking in his aptitude things, but when little Bill grows to be a middle schooler, the aptitude thing would include all the A pluses he gets in food preparation classes, food sciences classes, and so many other things he could get to know through math, algebra, and so on. Bill would still take a life skills selection in his classes, so will everybody else. However, when he turns sixteen, Bill’s aptitude tests and his guidance counselor will state, “You have shown strengths in these subjects, and weaknesses in these others.” The counselor and Bill will work together to decide what Bill will do for his career path. Either of these students could be your son or daughter, in a far distant generation somewhere. What’s the catch? No standardized test scores.