Thoughts about Blake being gone

Dear Diary,

Only if Blake moves here will I ever say this, but what will I do?  I’m not sure what I can do with all my money, and if Blake moves in, I’m pretty sure my SSI checks will be affected.  Help!  We need each other more than anything else, but we need to be able to marry in order for any kind of family to be had.  I’d rather have a family of my own, a family where everyone works with one another and where there is no heart idolatry, where there’s always someone available to talk to the person who needs it.  I don’t know what to do now.

It always reminds me of what my parents used to do.  They wern’t the best, but then again, no parent is perfect.  Perfection is bad in my mind, and it will always be bad.  Blake will message me sometime later on, but the truth of the matter is that I want Blake and no one else.

I honestly think his own mother could be scrupulously using his SSI checks for her bills and groceries, but they need to be used for him and him only.  I don’t know how to say this clearer, only he should have control over his money.  That’s him, not me.  We will have a life together somehow, and that’s what I would like somehow.  It’s only a matter of time before he says he’s leaving Arizona and coming here.  Denver is a place where there’s no transit boundaries and limits.  No, it’s a paradise for the blind.  I suppose Denver is wonderful.

Author: denverqueen

My name is Beth. I'm blind from birth and enjoy the blogging atmosphere. I am a creative person, a musician, a writer, etc. This is me. Take it or leave it.

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